Trying to remind myself i am still in control and i am not delusional for thinking that i dictate my reality.

it is a hard juxtaposition between deciding whether my time should go into fixing everything around me and developing old habbits again to feel in control or leave my environment entirely and grow in control through all the new things that have entered my life, and my desire to do both in 1 night.

dont really know what i have been thinking but i have most definitely have been thinking a lot

In an auditory diary, the creator of , well everything , Marcus , shares his experiences from the beginning of time, his stories, his interactions , his creations and his experience amongst creation.

The way Marcus thinks, feels and experiences is very much like you and me, a normal person and that makes his experiences, in some ways , relatable.

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i wish i could skip to the end like ted wanted to as well but i have been told repeatedly that the middle matters.

repeating, repeating.....repeati- you get the gist.

in search of an older age at a much younger one, i forgot the meaning of being in the moment. Bourdain had his big break after a life well lived at 43, why am i so scared to fail today?

A recollection? maybe

a stepping stone to the autobiography I plan to write? hopefully

a promise kept in hopes of being seen through? Definitely

a story, a reminder and a promise to make better.

it is hard admitting when you have lost your way but it is even harder to promise yourself you won't again. that is why I am not, lol. I am simply saying I can make that promise , or at least be true to myself.