What happens when the people meant to protect you become the ones you have to run from?

In this raw and deeply personal episode of the Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Willie Wolfgramm to uncover a story of survival that most people wouldn’t make it out of. Willie takes us inside the darkest corners of his past: being thrown down stairs by a drunken stepfather, being chased through a field by a truck, and the crushing weight of a culture that told him showing emotion was a fatal weakness.

We dive deep into the day he lost his mother to cancer at 17 and the decade-long spiral into addiction and homelessness that followed. This conversation is about childhood abuse, grief, the cycle of trauma, and the miracle of finding a path forward when you’ve hit absolute rock bottom.

If you’ve ever felt like you weren’t enough, Willie’s transformation is your wake-up call.

Watch now and share this with someone who needs to feel less alone.

Key Moments:

0:00 I Watched Him Beat My Mother

4:05 The Beliefs I Had to Unlearn

6:40 My Earliest Memory of Abuse

9:04 Running Away to Survive Another Day

11:08 Chased Down by a Truck in a Field

13:59 Contemplating the Road to End the Pain

18:51 Breaking the Cycle with My Own Kids

21:29 How Childhood Trauma Shows Up in Marriage

24:58 Meeting Wayne: What a Real Man Looks Like

28:45 Moving in While My Mom Fought Stage 4 Cancer

32:36 Your Mom Passed Away This Morning

34:54 Walking into a House That Felt Cold

38:09 Just Keep Moving. Don't Show Emotion.

42:49 The Spiral into Drugs and Alcohol

46:03 Finally Loving the Man in the Mirror

Guest Info:

IG: @willie.wolfgramm (https://www.instagram.com/willie.wolfgramm/)

LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/willie-wolfgramm-a95127a4

Nothing prepares you for the moment you realise the person you love is slowly disappearing, even though they’re still right in front of you.

In this episode, I sit down with Lindsay Kelly, a mother of six whose life changed when her husband’s undiagnosed progressive multiple sclerosis began showing up not just in his body, but in his mind. Rage. Memory loss. Personality changes. Doctors who couldn’t explain it. And years of being told it was “just a marriage problem.”

Lindsay takes us inside the breaking point, the night she said she was done, the hospital room where everything finally made sense, and the quiet moment at home when she realised she had become a full-time caregiver overnight.

This conversation is about invisible illness, caregiver burnout, faith, resilience, and what it really means to stay when walking away would be easier.

If you’ve ever felt alone in your marriage, your faith, or your fight, this episode will sit with you.

Watch now and share this with someone who needs to feel less alone.

Key Moments:

0:00 When My Husband Suddenly Wasn’t Himself

3:12 The First Sign Something Was Seriously Wrong

6:01 Walking On Eggshells Inside Our Own Home

9:07 The Moment I Thought About Leaving

12:55 Doctors Couldn’t Explain His Rage

16:24 The Hospital Call That Changed Everything

19:58 “Your Husband Has A Broken Brain”

23:41 When MS Explained The Personality Shift

27:18 Becoming A Full-Time Caregiver Overnight

30:47 The Day I Realised I Was Completely Alone

34:26 When Faith Was The Only Thing Left

38:02 Two Years Of Crying Every Single Day

41:55 What Caregiver Burnout Really Looks Like

45:36 Why Assisted Living Saved Our Family

49:12 The Reality Of Loving Someone With MS

52:58 Why I Started Sharing This Online

56:21 The Messages That Proved I Wasn’t Alone

59:44 “Alone Doesn’t Have To Mean Lonely”

Guest Info:

IG: @lewkelly06 (https://www.instagram.com/lewkelly06/)

What happens when the gun fires… but you wake up anyway?

In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Nick Rossborough, a former professional fighter who lost his identity, his marriage, and nearly his life. One night, alone on a mountain with a pistol in his hand, Nick made a decision he believed would end the pain. But something happened that shouldn’t be possible. And moments later, a small voice from inside his house changed everything.

Nick takes us inside the darkest night of his life, the divorce, the identity collapse, the silent suffering so many men hide, and the long road back through trauma healing, breathwork, purpose, and learning to love himself again.

This isn’t just a survival story.

It’s a wake-up call.

If you’ve ever felt lost, numb, or ready to give up, this conversation is for you.

Subscribe, share this with someone who needs it, and leave a comment below. You’re not alone.

Key Moments:

0:00 I Put the Gun to My Head

3:07 Divorce, Heartbreak, and the Breaking Point

6:30 “Dad, I Made You Cookies”

9:00 When Losing My Identity Destroyed Me

12:25 Why Men Bottle Pain Until They Explode

15:28 Reading the Bible in a Week While Falling Apart

19:08 Vowing Never to Hit Rock Bottom Again

21:52 Loving Someone When You Can’t Love Yourself

23:55 Breathwork Visions That Changed Everything

27:32 The Oxygen Mask Rule That Rewired My Life

30:46 Here’s How I Escaped Trauma

33:13 The Real Reason Men Reach the Edge

35:35 How Do You Find a Reason to Stay Alive?

38:18 Meeting the Version of Myself I Abandoned

41:07 The Bullet That Killed the Old Me

43:25 Becoming a Man Who Needs No Validation

45:50 Facing Fear Through Plant Medicine

49:48 Why Human Connection Saves Lives

52:06 Love, Empathy, and Healing Without Medication

What do you do when your worst fear comes true… and no one even knows the truth?

In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Adriana Sansam, a mother whose life changed forever when her husband died alone in a hotel room from an accidental overdose. One moment he was on a work trip. The next, she was racing for answers, convinced something was wrong before anyone confirmed it.

Adriana opens up about loving a recovering addict, hiding his addiction from everyone, and the devastating phone call that left her raising three young children alone. But this isn’t just a story about addiction and grief. It’s about breaking the stigma, telling the truth, and turning shame into purpose.

If you’ve been touched by addiction, mental health struggles, loss, or single parenting, this conversation will stay with you.

Listen now. Share this with someone who needs it. And subscribe for more stories that change lives.

Key Moments:

0:00 “I Knew Something Was Wrong”

3:12 Married to a Recovering Addict

6:05 The Phone Call That Confirmed My Fear

9:02 “He’s Dead”, Hearing the Words

12:10 Who He Was Beyond the Addiction

15:08 Understanding the Mind of an Addict

18:04 Explaining His Death to Our 5-Year-Old

21:06 When Shame Turned Into Silence

24:18 The Message That Changed Everything

27:30 Why I Finally Told the Truth

30:12 Did He Have a Reason to Keep Going?

33:40 When the Past Blocks the Future

36:10 “I Don’t Need More, I Need You”

39:05 Speaking to Him After His Death

42:18 A Message to Fathers Battling Addiction

45:30 Watching My Son Look for His Dad

Guest Info:

IG: adrianasansam (https://www.instagram.com/adrianasansam/)

What happens when the thing that defines you is taken away in a single moment?

On this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Mahi Crabbe, a former full-time musician who nearly lost his life in a brutal rock-crawling accident that crushed his hand and shattered his identity as an artist on November 3, 2018.

In a matter of seconds, Mahi went from touring and playing sold-out shows to lying in an ambulance, convinced his career was over. The injury didn’t just threaten his ability to play guitar, it forced him to confront deeper questions about purpose, faith, manhood, and how to provide for the family he always dreamed of building.

We talk about the night everything changed, the fear of starting over, the anger he carried toward God, and how losing his “guitar hand” ultimately led him to build an entirely new life as a business owner and father.

If you’ve ever had your plans ripped away, your identity shaken, or your faith tested, this conversation will hit home.

Watch this episode to see how losing everything became the beginning of something bigger.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Day I Lost My Hand

3:02 My Hand Was Hanging By Skin

6:05 Life Flashing Before My Eyes

9:10 “That’s His Guitar Hand”

12:36 Waking Up, My Identity Was Gone

15:32 I Couldn’t Be A Musician Anymore

18:39 From Hospital Bed To Truck Driver

21:30 Growing Up Without A Father

24:23 Becoming The Man I Never Had

26:50 The Night That Changed My Faith

29:40 From Leaving Church To Returning

33:03 Why God Took My Hand

35:41 My Family Came Back To Church

37:55 From Homeless To Business Owner

40:14 Why Hawaii Heals The Soul

42:49 My Message To Every Man Watching

Guest Info:

IG: @mahilive (https://www.instagram.com/mahilive/)

What happens when faith meets unimaginable loss and the miracle doesn’t come the way you prayed for it?

In this deeply raw episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Shayna Weston, a woman whose life was shattered by a relentless sequence of grief that few could survive. In the span of a single year, Shayna walked beside her brother as he fought terminal cancer, held onto hope for a miracle, whispered goodbye as he took his final breath, then returned home only to lose her beloved dog… and shortly after, face her father’s devastating stage four pancreatic cancer diagnosis.

This conversation isn’t about tidy answers or surface-level faith. It’s about the brutal reality of grief, the anger we feel toward God, the moments we bargain, break, and beg and the quiet, unexpected ways healing and redemption can still emerge.

Shayna opens up about caregiving, anticipatory grief, losing multiple loved ones, wrestling with faith, forgiveness, and what it truly means to surrender when control is gone. It’s honest, heartbreaking, and somehow still filled with hope.

Watch this episode to understand grief on a deeper level and if you’ve ever lost someone, questioned your faith, or felt crushed by loss, this conversation will remind you that you’re not alone.

Key Moments:

0:00 The Call That Changed Everything

3:14 “You Have One Week Left”

6:07 When Hope And Reality Collided

9:21 The Moment I Knew He Was Dying

12:08 Singing Through Terminal Cancer

15:02 Doctors Said It Was Impossible

18:36 The Treatment That Shouldn’t Have Worked

21:48 When I Began Fighting God

24:31 “I’m Scared To Die”

27:26 Choosing Faith Over Fear

30:19 The Breath That Never Came Back

33:08 Watching My Brother Take His Last Breath

36:11 Grief Hits In Slow Motion

39:04 The Silence That Broke Our Family

42:12 Losing My Dog Right After Losing Him

45:03 When Grief Turned Into Anger

48:29 The Diagnosis That Came Next

51:42 Stage Four Pancreatic Cancer

54:56 “I Don’t Want To Fight Anymore”

58:08 Learning To Let Go

Guest Info:

IG: @shay_weston_ (https://www.instagram.com/shay_weston_/)

What happens when suicide keeps showing up in your life… before you’re even old enough to understand it?

In this episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Stanley Stark, a man whose life has been shaped by loss, silence, and hard truths most men never say out loud. From losing a close friend as a teenager to the devastating phone call that his own father had taken his life, Stanley opens up about how unprocessed grief, broken family dynamics, and emotional isolation quietly pushed him toward recklessness, anger, and self-destruction.

But this conversation isn’t just about tragedy. It’s about what happens when a man finally stops running. We talk openly about men’s mental health, suicide prevention, integrity, faith, and why so many men suffer in silence until it feels unbearable. Stanley shares the lessons grief taught him, the power of forgiveness, and how community and honesty can save lives.

If you’ve lost someone to suicide, struggled with your mental health, or wondered how to be a better man in a broken world, watch this episode to be reminded that you’re not alone and it’s never too late to choose a different path.

Key Moments:

0:00 I Buried a Friend Yesterday…

3:30 The Note His Friend Left Behind

6:25 Holding a Gun at 15 and Asking “Why”

8:55 The Session That Shut Him Down

12:18 The Lie That Killed His Hope

15:01 A Broken Father-Son Bond

17:48 Trying to Start Over… One Last Time

21:17 The Call That Changed Everything

24:22 The Details No One Warned Him About

28:24 The Suicide Statistics Men Ignore

31:02 Why His Pain Became His Purpose

35:10 The Silent Addiction Destroying Men

39:13 Why Being Approachable Can Save a Life

41:35 “Suicide Doesn’t End Pain... It Passes It On”

45:12 The One Truth Every Man Needs to Hear Today

What do you do when the person you love becomes the person you fear most? In today’s episode, I sit down with Lyndsey Hackford, a woman whose story left me shaken, heartbroken, and in absolute awe of her strength.

For 18 years, Lyndsey lived inside an abusive marriage that slowly stole her voice, her identity, and nearly her life. What started as subtle manipulation spiraled into control, isolation, physical violence, and moments where she genuinely didn’t know if she would survive the night. Her children witnessed things no child ever should. And yet, Lyndsey found a way out.

In this conversation, Lyndsey walks us through the moments that changed everything: the fear, the near-death experiences, the police intervention, the escape, the trial, and the long, painful road to rebuilding her life. If you’ve lived through trauma, domestic abuse, emotional manipulation, or you’re trying to support someone who has, her story will stay with you.

Watch this episode to hear Lyndsey’s message of hope, courage, and reclaiming your life, no matter how dark things have been.

Key Moments:

0:00 “I Hit the Wall So I Wouldn’t Hit Mom”

3:00 The “Support” That Was Actually Control

6:02 How Her Religion Was Used Against Her

9:19 The Moment She Realised Her Worth Was Gone

12:00 The Day He Admitted He Wanted to Hit Her

14:44 The Shame and Threats That Kept Her Silent

17:39 A Year of Sleep Deprivation and Surveillance

20:10 “Just Let Me Leave”… and the Violent Response

23:06 “Look at That Face, How Could I Love That?”

26:00 The Escape Attempt That Finally Worked

29:31 The Jury Trial And Her Kids Taking the Stand

32:53 Why Abusers All Share the Same Patterns

33:23 Her Message to Women Still Living in Fear

Guest Info:

IG: @lyndseyh6723

Facebook: @lyndsey.jackson.125