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I’m Not as Well as I Thought I Was

By: Ruby Wax
Narrated by: Ruby Wax
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Dear Reader,

Checking into a mental clinic wasn't exactly on my radar in 2022. Writing about it wasn't either. But here we are.

I spent a lifetime trying to create a 'front' to give everyone the illusion that all is well. It wasn't, and it isn't. Now I look back and I think, 'what the f*ck was that all about?'

I began the book trying to find meaning by going on various, life-changing journeys, I ended up in a mental clinic; obviously things didn't work out the way I expected. This is the story of what happened after the mental car crash . . . From then on, the journey had to turn inward. It turns out I wasn't looking for meaning, I was looking for home.

I'm not a fiction writer. I can't fake it. I could say I rode into the sunset, but life isn't like that unless you're a cowboy. Truth is I'm not as well as I thought I was.

These days, trying to stay sane in a completely chaotic world makes life incredibly difficult. For those readers who are deep in the darkness of mental illness, I hope my book makes you feel less alone.

Take care, love,
Ruby x


'One of the most powerful books of the year' Daily Mail

'Nobody can make the serious funny and the funny serious quite like Ruby.' - Alastair Campbell

'If you buy only one book this year, make it this one.' - Joanna Lumley

'A true tour de force. We're all a little messed up in our own ways, but we should all strive to be as fabulously fearless as Ruby.' - Fearne Cotton

As seen on Channel 5 Castaway

Sunday Times bestseller, May 2023

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I just love Ruby Wax and can really empathise with her situation and constant aim to improve and understand her mental health situation.

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An amazing insight from into the mind and the potential to heal oneself from past influences. Nobody is without flaws but learning to accept them and find self compassion is where you find your true self. Blessings to you Ruby for your honesty and strength thanks for sharing.

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Well I learnt a lot from this book. Some funny things and some sad things but Ruby is so captive and I love her so much.

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Half way through the first chapter I had to pause as I was laughing that much I couldn't breathe! Ruby is wonderful, my Birthday is a day after hers so think as a fellow Aries I appreciate her sarcasm & 100 mile an hour crazy all the more, Ed is a trooper and I wish them a long loving & chaotic life together.

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loved it. I was going through a tough time and this really helped. fantastic

fantastic.

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I just loved hearing Ruby’s story. There were so many moments where I was moved to tears. While it is very much her story, it is also a birds-eye view of humanity. I am so glad I listened to it rather than read, I loved hearing Ruby’s voice

Beautiful raw, authentic and very funny

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A powerful testament to the transformative power of honesty and vulnerability. As a mental health sufferer, I found great comfort in her Ruby’s openness about her struggles and her humour.

Ruby’s writing is not only engaging and insightful, but it also fosters a sense of community and understanding. Her book is a must-read for anyone on their own “mental health journey” I highly recommend it to those who are looking for an authentic and compassionate account of the this hellish experience.

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Ruby is so relaxing to listen to, I’ve thoroughly enjoyed this from beginning to end and having moved over to audiobooks I’m so glad I made that leap for this particular title also, she is so comical and authentic in her delivery of words, so insightful as well to find out about how she deals with her ongoing condition - thank you so much and I’ll now rewind and listen to previous audiobooks by the author herself Ruby Wax

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