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Who is raising our children? You hardly even know them, because you are gone before they wake up for school and they are home, doing God knows what, four hours before you are. There can't be any problem because they are smiling, have good grades, and look healthy. Wrong. Marya Hornbacher tears down the walls of home as she draws us into the folds of her life in, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia. Hornbacher reveals how a ballerina can weave her way through the world, with a smile, into college, while killing herself the entire time right under her parents' noses. Using her crafted skills with the pen and forcing personalism by narrating her own work, Hornbacher buried herself under my skin with her story. In a world that glamorizes the thin with fashion contracts, while ridiculing the heavy as freaks and misfits, Wasted serves as a billboard of our hypocrisy. (Jock C.)

Summary

Precociously intelligent, imaginative, energetic, and ambitious, Marya Hornbacher grew up in a comfortable middle-class American home. At the age of 5, she returned home from ballet class one day, put on an enormous sweater, curled up on her bed, and cried because she thought she was fat. By age 9, she was secretly bulimic, throwing up at home after school, while watching Brady Bunch reruns on television and munching Fritos. She added anorexia to her repertoire a few years later and took great pride in her ability to starve.

Marya's story gathers intensity with each passing year. By the time she is in college and working for a wire news service in Washington D.C., she is in the grip of a bout of anorexia so horrifying that it will forever put to rest the romance of wasting away. Down to 52 pounds and counting, Marya becomes a battlefield: her powerful death instinct at war with the will to live.

Why would a talented young girl go through the looking glass and slip into a netherworld where up is down, food is greed, and death is honor? Why enter into a love affair with hunger, drugs, sex, and death? Marya Hornbacher sustained both anorexia and bulimia through 5 lengthy hospitalizations, endless therapy, the loss of family, friends, jobs, and ultimately, any sense of what it means to be "normal." In this vivid, emotionally wrenching memoir, she recreates the experience and illuminates the tangle of personal, family, and cultural causes underlying eating disorders.

©1998 Marya Hornbacher (P)1998 Bantam Doubleday Dell Audio Publishing, Bantam Doubleday Dell Audio Publishing, A Division of Random House, Inc.

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Why abridged?

This is a great story for angst-ridden teens and twenty-somethings. Unglamorous and honest. But why abridged? I always feel cheated by these short stories.

4 of 4 people found this review helpful

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Close to my heart

Such a heart-rending memoir, but such a favourite of mine. It has all the poetic beauty of Plath and the gritty realism of Irivine Welsh. Thank you, Marya, for sharing your story and letting us know we're not alone.

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loved it as much this time as the 1st time & after

A brutally honest, untinted reflection on one life with ED and the mania that comes with it. Beautiful writer.

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Adore this book.

The way it’s wrote and spoke. The way she describes things you can literally walk through her memories and it’s so interesting to be there.

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Fascinating Story, Beautifully Read by the Author

Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

The book offers a unmatched look inside the mind of a person with an eating disorder, and the consequences that follow.

What was one of the most memorable moments of Wasted?

There are moments where you can see right into the mind of the author, and you can feel the full range of her emotions, her pain, her desire to live. You will understand her and not understand her at the very same time.

What about Marya Hornbacher’s performance did you like?

Read with character and conviction, so full of life. Only the author could give such a convincing performance/

Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

Yes

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  • Chlay
  • United Kingdom
  • 23-12-12

Raw, damaged and beautiful autobiography

This is my favourite of the year.I listen to it3x a week.

It's brutally honest,raw&was clearly painful to write about yet is so eye opening,it draws you in and shows how poetic destruction can be.

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  • Miss
  • LONDON, United Kingdom
  • 30-09-12

Brilliant

The only thing better than reading Wasted is having Marya Hornbacher read Wasted to you. She is a natural storyteller.

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  • Carol
  • CHELTENHAM, GLOUCESTERSHIRE, United Kingdom
  • 07-07-09

Quite an eye opener!

Ok when you fancy a bit of a different track from chick lit! Scary but not so very rare story these days. Food for thought!

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  • Emily
  • 17-05-12

abridged memoir

I love this book, so I jumped at the chance to hear the author read it. I do wish it was unabridged, however, as there are some really good, key parts that are missing--things I really wanted to hear her say.

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  • RaisinNut
  • 09-08-13

Glamorless...

In “Wasted,” Marya Hornbacher’s battle with her body is nothing short of epic, but unlike a true epic it is far from heroic. Hornbacher is the unlikely antagonist in her own life story, hating her body to the very brink of death. “Wasted” captures every dramatic, painful and often repulsive detail. If you can bear to look at it, you will glimpse in raw form the gruesome reality of eating disorders. There is no glamor here. There is hunger, vomit, blood and bones.

This abridged version of “Wasted,” read by Hornbacher herself, is so seamless that I did not even realize it was abridged until I discovered this fact in another listener’s review. Hornbacher is the perfect narrator. No other reader could get this story so right.

If you are hoping for a happy ending, Hornbacher advises you to look elsewhere. She denies the existence of a happy ending to her story, claiming that the best one can hope for in the end is simply “letting go.”

But here is a secret – many years have passed since this book was written. During those years Hornbacher continued to struggle with her eating disorder, and she came face to face with a terrible mental illness that left her grasping for sanity and hope (see “Madness: A Bipolar Life). In the end, she managed to do better than just let go. She conquered and overcame. And, lucky for the rest of us, she lived to write about it.

7 of 7 people found this review helpful

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  • Jennifer
  • 10-05-14

Quick read, hard to put down

If you're like me and you find mental illness fascinating this is a really well written first person account of what it's like to struggle with Anorexia Nervosa. It's interesting to see how an eating disorder begins and spirals out of control.

I saw a documentary with this author recently where she stated that she was young when she wrote this book and it triggered her eating disorder. Perhaps that is why there are many people who consider this entire book a trigger and have mixed emotions about it. I'd be interested to read her take on the events now, many years later, as recovered as anyone could be.

6 of 6 people found this review helpful

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  • Rhonda
  • 27-12-02

Awesome

I've read this book atleast 3 times. The book itself is written to not keep any part of bulimia or anorexia hidden. It explains all and every feeling imagined and felt. When I had the chance to download this book with Marya's own voice reading her own words, it was a chance to listen to how she speaks. Her words, sometimes haunts, sometimes makes me speak outloud to nobody, saying things like, "Yes, that's true." It's an amazing book to have on audio. Download this book, and listen to it. You'll be glad you did.

13 of 14 people found this review helpful

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  • Kelly
  • 05-05-13

Abridged=Horrible

Would you recommend this book to a friend? Why or why not?

No. Everything pertinent is left out and I was beyond disheartened when one of my top 3 books was butchered. Bad call.

Who was your favorite character and why?

Marya

What does Marya Hornbacher bring to the story that you wouldn’t experience if you just read the book?

Great charisma, but the throwing away of 50% of her amazing (in book) biography hurt me.

Was Wasted worth the listening time?

yes and no

Any additional comments?

GET AN UNABRIDGED VERSION!!!

9 of 10 people found this review helpful

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  • Amber
  • 17-06-10

Fascinating story of obsession and self-loathing

This was a really interesting memoir, with a real insider's view of the anorexia and bulemia. I have never had an eating disorder, so I have always wondered what could drive a person to commit a long, torturous suicide in this way. I felt I had learned something after listening to this book, while also being entertained from beginning to end. I almost wish there was a follow-up memoir to find out what happens to her later in life.

3 of 3 people found this review helpful

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  • Shrimpy
  • 23-02-07

An Excellent Window...

Into the life of an anorexic, bulimic. For those of us who can't imagine a compulsion to starve it is almost incomprehsible. I was struck by how functional the writer was even during her worst times..Excelling in theatre, writing and more...She doesn't give herself enough credit for that. I think all mothers of teen girls should make time for this story..there is a lot to learn regarding what NOT to do and say to our daughters..

3 of 3 people found this review helpful

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  • Margaret
  • 27-09-06

Honest and enlightening

I listen to this amazing book to remind me why I chose life. Marya's dry humour and brutal honesty make this a fantastic listen. Any ED survivor will relate to all - especially the little details of hospilization. Truthful, heartfealt, a courageous decision by the author. Fantastic!

3 of 3 people found this review helpful

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  • Omar
  • 09-03-06

Gut Wrenching

I have not read the unabridged version, but do not feel I need to. The adbridgement seems superb, and hearing the author read it gives the story sometimes unbearable emotional impact. This is not an easy listen. The author's unflinching honesty is, at times, very painful. The story is not a happy one, and you will find absolutely NO sugar-coating. What you will find is an amazingly talented writer bringing to bear her considerable skill to the description of her self-destructive eating disorder. To hear this from her point of view has taught me much that a textbook never could.

3 of 3 people found this review helpful

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  • Keith
  • 04-09-04

Intense, painful, mandatory reading

This is a subject every caring person should try to understand. Having know bulemics I cared about I have tried to understand - but still do not. This book brings me closer to an understanding. However, the insight is only a feeling and a glimpse.

Marya's writing reminds me of Mary Karr (Liar's Club and Cherry). At times the narrative becomes poetry. It is a pleasure to listen to at the same time as the content makes one mad.

This is another illustration of the superiority of audio books. I have not attempted to read this book, but I confidently predict that it is many times more powerful to hear Marya tell you the story in her own words. Like Mary Carr, Bill Bryson and many others, hearing an author read their own words adds an extra dimension and, in the case of Mary and Marya, can elevate the book to a different plane.

5 of 6 people found this review helpful