A meandering swim through concepts of identity that never really gets there. Quite fitting. Today I discuss a bed to bathroom success, waitressing, my fascination with Heath Ledger, Brokeback Mountain, and what I would do if given a trillion dollars. The mission of my podcast is to alchemise shame and encourage curiosity as an antidote to suffering. Last season I told all of the most taboo stories from my past and got them out of my system. Some episodes were very serious and intense, others were silly. This season I explore communion and my desire is to interact with you and some special guests. THIS WEEKS QUESTION FROM THE WIKILEAKS DOCCY: Have you ever put things too far apart?Ask me a question in the comments or at goodfellowsgarden@hotmail.comjoin the posse for SECRET EXTRA CONTENT: https://jessicagoodfellow.substack.com/t/the-posse

A goose meditation on how absurd moments expose the identities we slowly accept without choosing. How shame, habit, and visibility ultimately govern who we become if we don't intervene.It's the season finale! Today I reflect on what has been left unsaid across the series. I discuss a meeting with a business man, my hangups with the local ice cream parlour and finally remark on where I’m actually at right now with a pretty honest take on why I’ve come to Ecuador. To those who have supported the pod, your receptivity is so deeply felt. Thank you.

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An unflinching look at how exhaustion, shame, and suppressed truth can emerge as despair and how curiosity can eventually restore coherence.In today’s episode I speak about my confrontation with death energy and a kind of near death experience I had. While this moment was something like an annihilation, it was also the seeding of genuine self compassion and rebuild. Below are some of the resources I discuss in the episode - they are not recommendations, and none of what I say is clinical advice obviously. Reach out, talk to people, take care of yourself, and it will get better.

RESOURCES:

Psychology: https://www.spathiswellbeing.com/individuals

QHHT Sydney: https://www.pastliferegression.net.au/

Family Constellations: https://www.discoveringinsight.com.au/family-constellations/

Nathan King’s Euphoriam Program: https://www.euphoriam.com/

Damien Wynne: https://www.damien-wynne.com/

All Hotlines: https://blog.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines/

Lifeline - 24/7 Phone: 13 11 14

Beyond Blue - 24/7 Phone: 1300 22 4636

QLife - 1800 184 527 qlife.org.au

13YARN - 13 92 76 13yarn.org.au

An honest exploration of what happens when competence collapses, control stops working, and action becomes the only path back to healing, connection, and self-trust.The themes of proving and performance have followed me around for yonks. After arriving in Brisbane it came time to confront them. Today I discuss my rather measly tenure as a battle dancer and how it became a doorway to stand up comedy, which more or less saved my life. Sorry chat gpt, I’m not calling it ‘The Shape of Waiting’.

Incredible psychologist: https://www.spathiswellbeing.com/about

As mentioned in the episode, here you can watch gift horse, my beginner comedy special: youtube.com/watch?v=GW_ou_UgowE&feature=youtu.be

A tender exploration of attachment, grief, and meaning-making through the story of a childhood doll; tracing how unexpressed loss, family silence, and care displaced onto objects shape who we become.

I have perpetually wrangled with the meaning of my Cabbage Patch Doll, Bubby, who I was gifted when I was born. Over the years she held a lot for me, just like I did for my family. Today I navigate the corners of my mind and my odd family constellation, and consider possibilities around why I have obsessively searched for meaning in my life. This episode is a three bagger; yes sir, yes sir, it is three bags full on the ‘emotionally heavy baggage’ scale.

I considered it apt to share some visuals. Below you can hear my sister practising piano after high school on my 4th birthday. A pretty accurate depiction of the contrast in the house.

Me and my confidant. Shoutouts to Bubby.

I hope you enjoy this episode. It’s been surprisingly difficult to work through these stories and decide how I finally want to ‘put them to rest’. The process has been transformative and I thank you for joining me.

A darkly funny, unsettling meditation on avoidance, indecision, and truth-withheld. Tracing how unclear endings, symbolic attachments, and inherited identity fractures shape the way we belong, love, and speak.Today I venture into the uncomfortable tale of how I ended up with a tattoo on my arm that now represents a friendship breakup. After trying three times to record this episode, I arrived at a profound conclusion and a very satisfying decision. In true number 8 fashion, this episode touches on infinity and feels like a trippy springboard for the next chunk of the season. It might be my favourite episode so far.

A reflection on how small, unexpected human encounters can quietly alter a life’s trajectory and how kindness, seen late, can reframe years of hardship.

In today’s episode I discuss my early days in Barcelona, getting bullied by Spaniards and other inconvenient karmas. I focus on the unexpected magical encounters that occurred along the way. Blessings to two angels starting with A who redirected my path for the better. A multitude of meandering jaunts in this zero bagger.

A humorous account of an unbelievable seven-year high school love saga. Tracing how anxiety, fantasy, and half-presence can wire lifelong relational patterns, and how the body signals truth long before the mind can name it.Today we trot into the hills to explore an unbelievable experience I shared with my young counterpart aka my high school sweetheart between the ages of 12-19. This connection laid me a strange foundation for relational and social connection but holds an everlasting place in my heart. So does John Mayer, and his song Wheel.