Episodes

  • Hacker & Identity James Linton

    Hacker & Identity James Linton
    Jan 29 2026
    We’re taught to imagine hackers as men in hoodies—isolated, brilliant, dangerous. But what if the real story isn’t about code or breaches at all? What if it’s about psychology? In this episode of The Shadow Sessions, Hiba Balfaqih speaks with a man who infiltrated some of the most powerful systems in the world—impersonating CEOs, deceiving institutions, and accessing spaces he was never meant to enter. He had power, and he walked away before anyone could stop him. But this conversation isn’t about technical exploits or data breaches. It’s about identity. It’s about the psychology of control, the shadow of the trickster, and what happens when someone becomes whoever the world needs them to be in order to feel safe, admired, or untouchable. Advertised as a threat, treated as a weapon, shaped by fear and projection—until the performance cracks and the truth emerges. This episode explores how hacking can become a mirror for deeper human patterns: the need for mastery, the seduction of invisibility, and the cost of living behind masks. It asks uncomfortable questions about power, protection, deception, and the moment when control stops being safety and starts becoming self‑erasure. This is an episode for anyone interested in psychology, identity formation, shadow integration, cybercrime as a behavioral phenomenon, and what happens when the role you play becomes the only place you know how to exist.
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    1 hr and 13 mins
  • Mikey, The Death Doula

    Mikey, The Death Doula
    Jan 22 2026
    Not all shadows are dark. Some are quiet. Some are tender. Some ask us to slow down and sit with the one certainty we spend our lives trying to outrun. In this episode of The Shadow Sessions, host Hiba Balfaqih speaks with Mikey, a death doula who supports people at the end of life—helping them die on their own terms, with dignity, presence, and meaning. After experiencing her own near-death moment, Mikey didn’t turn away from mortality. She moved closer to it. This conversation explores how our culture avoids death by treating it as a distant event, when in reality it’s happening all the time. Friendships end. Identities fall away. Chapters close. And eventually, the people we love leave their bodies. Mikey’s work invites a different relationship with dying—one rooted in softness rather than fear, choice rather than denial. She challenges the idea that death is a failure and reframes it as a rite of passage we were never taught how to prepare for. This episode is about death, yes—but even more, it’s about how we live when we stop pretending we’re exempt from it. It’s for anyone curious about death doula work, end‑of‑life care, near‑death experiences, grief, meaning, and what becomes possible when we meet mortality with honesty instead of avoidance.
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    1 hr and 9 mins
  • A Childhood Without Safety: Growing Up Inside the Prison System

    A Childhood Without Safety: Growing Up Inside the Prison System
    Jan 15 2026
    What happens when a child grows up without safety—and the system responds with punishment instead of protection? In this episode of The Shadow Sessions, host Hiba Balfaqih sits down with Sonny Van Cleaveland, whose life was shaped by incarceration before it was shaped by care. By the age of seven, Sonny was already inside the justice system. By sixteen, he was placed in an adult prison that became one of the most violent facilities in Michigan within its first month. This conversation exposes how early trauma, chronic threat, and institutional violence shape identity. Violence wasn’t defiance. It was adaptation. Survival became instinct. Harm became normalized. When a nervous system is raised in danger, morality doesn’t disappear—it gets overridden. But this episode is not just about prison. It’s about childhood trauma, moral injury, and how systems that claim to rehabilitate often reinforce the very behaviors they punish. It’s about how patterns form under pressure—and what it actually takes to interrupt them. Sonny’s story challenges the idea that people are “born dangerous.” It asks harder questions about responsibility, conditioning, and what healing looks like when no one ever modeled safety to begin with. This is an episode for anyone interested in trauma psychology, incarceration, nervous system survival responses, and the long-term impact of growing up without protection.
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    1 hr and 7 mins
  • The Secret She Carried for Decades: Her Father Was the Father of Her Children

    The Secret She Carried for Decades: Her Father Was the Father of Her Children
    Jan 8 2026
    We teach kids to avoid strangers. To trust their gut. To believe home means safety. But what if home was the danger? In this first episode of The Shadow Sessions, host Hiba Balfaqih sits down with Aziza Kibibi — a survivor whose story of incest, betrayal, and survival shatters the illusion of safety. Aziza was abused by her father, forced to carry and raise his children, and silenced by those meant to protect her. Today, she is a whistleblower, author, and advocate fighting to expose the systems that failed her and to change the laws that still protect abusers. This conversation is not just about what happened — it’s about the courage it takes to speak, to heal, and to turn survival into advocacy.
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    1 hr and 24 mins
  • We All Have Something We Are Hiding

    We All Have Something We Are Hiding
    Dec 18 2025
    The Shadow Sessions is a podcast for the stories we hide, the ones too painful, too early, or too private to ever make it to therapy. Hosted by psychologist and trauma alchemist Hiba Balfaqih, each episode sits with the truths people were never given permission to speak. From survivors of abuse to those confronting their deepest shadows, these are raw, unfiltered conversations about what we carry and what it costs us. Launching January 8 on all platforms, The Shadow Sessions is a space for anyone who’s ever felt unseen, unheard, or unsafe to tell their story. Because there is light in the shadow, if someone is willing to sit there with you.
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    2 mins