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If Only I Could Tell You

Narrated by: Nicky Diss
Length: 9 hrs and 37 mins
4 out of 5 stars (64 ratings)

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Summary

After years of keeping secrets and telling white lies, can one broken family find their way back to each other?  

Audrey's family are falling apart. Her two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, are estranged, and her two granddaughters have never been allowed to meet. One secret that echoes back to 30 years before has splintered the family in two and is also the one thing keeping them connected. But as tensions reach breaking point, the irrevocable choice that one of them made all those years ago will inevitably rise to the surface and either split them apart for good - or bring them back together.   

A moving novel full of heart about the people closest to us.

©2019 Hannah Beckerman (P)2019 Orion Publishing Group

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If only I could tell you

Well written and narrated wallows rather a lot and is slightly improbable rather a dysfunctional family. Much too drawn out

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Secrets and lies at the heart of a family.

There is only one real message I want to give for this book - it is fabulous in every way. Once I had started it I found it very hard to break away from it. It moved me and entertained me and I would love there to be some sort of sequel.
Author and narrator both did a fantastic job. Thank you!

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Enjoyable

An enjoyable read , didn't suspect where it was going which was good. Read very well

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If only I could tell you

Couldn’t stop listening.When I had too . got straight back ASAP. One of the best books I’ve listened too . K

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A bit depressing

Avoid this book if you want something to cheer you up. Quite a grim tale of far fetched sadness and loss.

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Not for me

I struggled to finish this. Perhaps it's because I usually listen to thrillers on audio, but it really dragged and I ultimately found it overly sentimental and unfulfilling as a story.

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Disappointing

I would not recommend this book mainly because of incessant sing-song of the narrators over dramatic voice. Throughout the book this only got worse especially when voicing the shrill arguments between the pretentious, boring and ultimately unlikable main characters. The book was packed with constant similes and sentences that were so much longer than necessary-I lost count of the amount of times I said ‘OK! I GET IT!!! LETS MOVE ON!’ out loud listening to this book.

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Strident narrator

This book has had amazing reviews but I think it would be better read on the page. In the end I had to return it because the narrator was giving me a migraine. If you read every word with “your house is on fire” urgency, that is very difficult to listen to. It certainly isn’t one to listen to when you’re winding down at night! This is a sensitively drawn family tale that needs a narrator to match.

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If Only I Could Tell You

A deeply moving book, with wonderful characters, thoughtfully and profoundly written. Beautiful and empathetic narration.

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Heartbreaking

This book was heartbreaking, heartwarming and heart stopping all at once. The narration was stunning and it wrapped around the story with the warmth and sensitivity the topics needed.