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  • By: Cat Marnell
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  • Length: 11 hrs and 58 mins
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How to Murder Your Life

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Summary

At the age of 15, Cat Marnell unknowingly set out to murder her life. After a privileged yet emotionally starved childhood in Washington, she became hooked on ADHD medication provided by her psychiatrist father. This led to a dependence on Xanax and other prescription drugs at boarding school, and she experimented with cocaine, ecstasy - whatever came her way. By 26 she was a talented 'doctor shopper' who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists into giving her never-ending prescriptions; her life had become a twisted merry-go-round of parties and pills at night and trying to hold down a high-profile job at Condé Nast during the day.

With a complete lack of self-pity and an honesty that is almost painful, Cat describes the crazed euphoria, terrifying comedowns and horrendous guilt she felt lying to those who tried to help her. Writing in a voice that is utterly magnetic - prompting comparisons to Bret Easton Ellis and Charles Bukowski - she captures something essential about both her generation and our times. Profoundly divisive and controversial, How to Murder Your Life is an unforgettable, charged account of a young female addict so close to throwing her entire life away.

©2017 Cat Marnell (P)2017 Random House Audiobooks

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A long way to go

Great performance. Addiction isnt about the chemical hook of drugs, its about soul holes and gaps in our social network. Cat clearly has so much potential, I hope she fills her world with good people who are true friends, that's how we recover.

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Not sure what compelled me to finish

I think maybe I’m in the wrong demographic to read this book. It is incredibly honest, funny in places & Cat can write. The screaming in it drove me bonkers! Too much of it too often and it adds nothing to the book. I hope someday she leaves all the meds behind & finds the life she says she wants. .undoubtedly she deserves peace of mind. I hope she finds it.

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AMAZING

Maybe I'm biased because I already love Cat but omg this was total perfection. Love!

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The best audiobook I've listened to

I've listened to 50+ Audible audiobooks and this is by far my favourite. I listened to it about a year ago (and twice again since then) and it still sticks with me. It has serious Bret Easton Ellis vibes. I love the story and how it doesn't come to the conclusion you would expect.

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Great book, enjoyed hearing Cat's narration also

Now it wants more words but I'm done, this feature is annoying Amazon x x

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Captivating page turner

I think she narrates her memoir absolutely fantastically. Very interesting and immersive. I couldn’t put it down

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Mixed

Parts are really absorbing and the honesty is refreshing. But long lists of designer names and cosmetics are tedious. Ms Marnell may have included them as an ironic contrast to the grim consequences of drug taking but they are still tedious. Also, there's no analysis of why the writer behaves as she does. Deep reflection may not have been the object of this book but it left me unsatisfied.

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stephanie slater

absolutely love this book, i felt i was there! such a true realistic book that helps no end about the downfalls in your life. thank you

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Love it 💋

Won't be for everyone, but for a female millennial, it was incredibly relatable. Not because I can relate to her drug addiction, this book is about so much more than that- it's feminist, its achingly confessional and it's cool af.

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How to murder your life

Cat's honesty is always refreshing and her delivery was fantastic (apart from the screams. AHHHHHHHH!)

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