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Summary

It's such a savage thing to lose your memory, but the crazy thing is it doesn't hurt one bit. A blackout doesn't sting or stab or leave a scar when it robs you. Close your eyes and open them again. That's what a blackout feels like.

For Sarah Hepola, alcohol was 'the gasoline of all adventure'. She spent her evenings at cocktail parties and dark bars where she proudly stayed till last call. Drinking felt like freedom, part of her birthright as a strong, enlightened 21st-century woman.

But there was a price. She often blacked out, waking up with a blank space where four hours should be. Mornings became detective work on her own life. What did I say last night? How did I meet that guy?

She apologized for things she couldn't remember doing, as though she were cleaning up after an evil twin. Publicly she covered her shame with self-deprecating jokes, and her career flourished, but as the blackouts accumulated, she could no longer avoid a sinking truth. The fuel she thought she needed was draining her spirit instead.

A memoir of unblinking honesty and poignant, laugh-out-loud humor, Blackout is the story of a woman stumbling into a new kind of adventure - the sober life she never wanted. Shining a light into her blackouts, she discovers the person she buried as well as the confidence, intimacy and creativity she once believed came only from a bottle.

Her tale will resonate with anyone who has been forced to reinvent themselves or struggled in the face of necessary change. It's about giving up the thing you cherish most - but getting yourself back in return.

©2015 Sarah Hepola (P)2015 Hachette Audio

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Very honest and open, totally inspired

I loved it, it has always helped me on my recovery journey. Familiar stories and scenarios. Thank you for sharing Sarah

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Brutally honest

I'm sure this wouldn't be to everyone's taste but I thought it was brutally honest, very sincere and an insightful telling into the mind of what is not the uncommon 21st century woman. Found it very easy to relate to some parts and appreciated the unique approach to a topic which is often under rug swept.
Thought the author did a brilliant job and I would really recommend it to any woman who has ever gotten a little carried away in the drinking culture of today.

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Amazing ...

Just finished this with tears in my eyes - a frighteningly familiar story that resonates so much and provides so much hope too. I'm going to start listening to this again straight away as I've only been sober for 7 days and it has definitely helped strengthen my resolve and made me realise that I'm not alone in how I'm feeling right now.

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Loved it<br />

Really loved this book, She read it so well, really touching story and would recomend to anyone.

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Very good but

A very good and involving story. Good writing, good audio narration. However, the bit about god spoiled it for me. I wish the author wouldnt so definitively (and so ignorantly) claim that we all need god. I wish she read more on this toppic before including her conclusion in a book. I dont believe in god and Im happy and not addicted of anything. There is many more people like me.

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Listenable

Quite a tedious listen , very man obsessed, mundane meaningless chapters on boring uneventful periods of her life, relationship with her cat, continuous obsessions with men, blah blah. The parts about the alcohol misuse and succeeding in becoming dry are worth listening to though.

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Brilliant listen, great book

Went through this suprisingly quickly. Scary how closely it mirrors the life of any modern drinker. Will definitely be holding out for more from the author.

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Sounded more like a mills&boon novel

i read it was an autobiography, but didnt realise how in depth of detail she described many situations that had nothing to with drinking. it sounded very much like a fictional novel about a women growing up & meeting men who happened to have a drink problem .
i was hoping it would emphasise more on alcoholism itself .
didnt like the jab at atheism at the end either.