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peaches

peaches

By: Maarika Freund
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A series of essays about the things I learned while dedicating my life to never being r*ped again.

 Social Sciences
Episodes
  • Chapter Eight: Happily Ever After

    Chapter Eight: Happily Ever After
    Jun 22 2023
    And this is the chapter where I throw myself under the bus! In this final episode of season one of peaches: the podcast!, I talk about how I hurt another woman for my own gain, and how not apologizing properly for what I did ate away at my Soul for years afterwards. In its sister chapter, CHAPTER SEVEN: ONCE UPON A TIME, I speak about how my heart was broken by another woman. But I don’t feel that it’s fair for me to speak about how much pain I was subjected to without recognizing that I, too, am capable of creating that same kind of pain for others. In order to show that I understand that we’re all human and still learning how to be and behave in a world looking to dismantle rape culture, in CHAPTER EIGHT: HAPPILY EVER AFTER, I expose my own imperfections. By exploring a situation in which I did not lead with kindness, through diving into the science of apologizing, and by leaning on the wisdom of Caroline Myss, I put a very important concept in drag with desperate hopes that we can begin to reintegrate it back into our everyday practices again. I sincerely believe that if we do this, healing and reconciliation will become much more safe and accessible. And if there is anything I can receive and/or witness after the seven + year hell rodeo I was put through, even just an iota more of genuine healing and reconciliation will have made the whole experience worth it.
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    44 mins
  • Chapter Seven: Once Upon A Time

    Chapter Seven: Once Upon A Time
    Jun 22 2023
    This is the chapter where I finally address my anger! …And, it’s the scariest thing I’ve ever done. My anger, if you’ve listened to the previous chapters, you’ll know doesn’t live where anger is “supposed to” exist in the status quo victim narrative within the current conversation around rape culture. CHAPTER SEVEN: ONCE UPON A TIME is the sister chapter to CHAPTER EIGHT: HAPPILY EVER AFTER, and these two chapters examine the heartbreak and trauma that comes after betrayal. But while I did everything I could to responsibly honour my own experience in this chapter, the heartbeat of this piece begs for healing and reconciliation. It's also full of gratitude for the people I have felt safe enough to be angry with. Because at the end of the day, I believe that the female-identifying friendship is too sacred to break up due to something some dude did. So I release this chapter into the world with the utmost love and respect for all women. Because whether or not we were affected directly by sexual abuse, we all still play a huge role within this sticky narrative.
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    52 mins
  • Chapter Six: Survivor

    Chapter Six: Survivor
    Mar 1 2023
    …so why is it that I don’t enjoy being referred to as “a Survivor”?! This chapter was originally published on November 24, 2020 and was the first thing I ever wrote with regards to my views on r*pe culture and healing. 

In this chapter I go through the three reasons why I don’t identify as a Survivor, and the benefits I believe come from of doing all of the really uncomfortable (yet necessary) healing work. It’s also been updated post publication ban (so it's more candid), and I finally touch on something really sensitive and really important with regards to mental health. I also talk a lot about potatoes. If you haven’t listened to any of the podcasts yet, this is an excellent one to begin with. It’s also the shortest one. But while it requires the smallest investment of time, it contains the highest concentration of the “good stuff” that helps with the healing.
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    35 mins
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