When you’ve been in an emotionally abusive relationship, the need for clarity can feel all-consuming. You want to know why they did what they did — why they lied, withdrew, or turned cold. You believe that if you can just understand their behavior, you’ll finally be able to find peace.

Clarity from someone who manipulates and distorts reality rarely exists — at least not in the way survivors hope it will. The search for answers becomes part of the trap, keeping you focused on their motives instead of your own healing.

I break down how the cycle of abuse keeps survivors waiting for closure that never comes, how trauma bonds form from confusion and intermittent tenderness, and how to start shifting your focus from understanding them to understanding yourself.

You’ll learn:

• Why abusers thrive in ambiguity and confusion
• How seeking clarity can keep you trauma-bonded
• What real clarity looks like (and where to find it)
• How to stop analyzing their behavior and start rebuilding your peace

If you’re stuck in the endless loop of “why,” this episode will help you turn that question inward — toward your boundaries, your self-respect, and your healing.

Mentioned in this episode:

• Emotional Abuse Breakthrough Course: https://jessicaknight.thinkific.com/
• Unhooked: The Private Podcast + Course on the Cycle of Abuse: https://jessicaknight.thinkific.com/courses/unhooked
• Substack: Hit Me Baby One More Time: https://jessicaknightcoaching.substack.com
• Coaching and Resources at EmotionalAbuseCoach.com

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*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your Relationship

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Email: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com

{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse

{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist
{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal
{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

This episode unpacks what happens when speaking your truth gets twisted into a blame game. You finally name the pattern—gaslighting, neglect, constant eggshells—only to have the conversation hijacked. Suddenly you’re defending a mistake from years ago, a text tone, or an unrelated incident. Instead of accountability, you’re trapped in deflection, false equivalency, and emotional erasure.

Jessica breaks down how this tactic shows up in everyday conversations, why it’s such a powerful tool of emotional abuse, and how it connects to the larger cycle. She explains DARVO in real time, highlights the difference between repair and image management, and shares ways to recognize when the blame game is pulling you off center.

If you’ve ever left an argument wondering how you became the problem just for naming your pain, this episode will help you see the pattern clearly—and remind you that you are not crazy.

Support the show

*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*

Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy

*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your Relationship

Website: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.com
Instagram: @emotionalabusecoach
Email: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com

{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse

{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist
{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal
{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner

In this episode, I talk about a communication pattern that so many people experience in emotionally abusive and high-conflict relationships—but rarely have language for.

It’s the moment when a message sounds reasonable on paper, calm in tone, even “child-focused”… and yet your body reacts immediately.

I walk through what’s happening when someone says all the right things while doing the opposite—hiding control behind concern, and contradiction behind “cooperation.” I use a real client example from co-parenting to show how this plays out in everyday emails about clothing, schedules, school, and parenting decisions—and how quickly it turns into self-doubt, over-explaining, and emotional exhaustion.

In this episode, I share:

• Why these interactions feel so destabilizing even when they look calm
• How contradictory communication pulls you into constant self-defense
• What to look for when words and actions don’t line up
• Why this isn’t a communication problem—and why you’re not overreacting
• How to begin tracking patterns so you can stop gaslighting yourself

If you’ve ever read a message and thought, “Why do I feel like I’m losing my footing right now?” this episode is for you.

This episode is a re-record of the Double Speak episode because I did not know there was noise in the background!

Support the show

*Please Note: there is a long intro that explains my services. If you do not want to listen, just fast-forward 5 mins past. This intro will be changed in future recordings to be shorter. I am not paid to record this podcast and it is a free offering. Offering my work is the only way I can sustain the podcast*

Join the Patreon: https://patreon.com/Youarenotcrazy

*New Course*: Unhooked: Map the Cycle of Abuse in your Relationship

Website: Emotional Abuse Coach and high-conflictdivorcecoaching.com
Instagram: @emotionalabusecoach
Email: jessica@jessicaknightcoaching.com

{Substack} Blog About Recovering from Abuse

{E-Book} How to Break Up with a Narcissist
{Course} Identify Signs of Abuse and Begin to Heal
{Free Resource} Canned Responses for Engaging with an Abusive Partner