I thought I was trying to get away from the little girl, The truth was, I was trying to get away from what happened to her. That realization changed the way I saw my past...And maybe it will change the way you see yours.

In this episode, I share how compassion began replacing shame and why the little girl I once wanted to hide became the reminder that healing doesn't replace our story- it redeems it.

It's when the little girl stop being a reminder of pain and became a reminder of survival.

Children don't process trauma the way adults do.

When life keeps hurting them, they don't ask, "Why is this happening?" They ask, "What did I do wrong?"

By the time I was diagnosed with leukemia, I had already survived years of sexual abuse and physical beatings.

Somewhere along the way, I came to believe that everything bad happening to me was punishment.

So when I heard the word leukemia, I didn't just hear a diagnosis.

I heard confirmation.

I believed God was punishing me.

For three years, I endured chemotherapy, hospital rooms, endless needles, and the uncertainty of whether tomorrow would ever come. But the greatest battle wasn't the one taking place inside my body.

It was the one taking place inside my mind.

In this deeply personal episode of Where Healing Began, I share how childhood trauma distorted the way I saw myself, my suffering, and even God—and how one lie convinced a little girl that tomorrow wasn't worth believing in.

If you've ever mistaken pain for punishment... if you've ever believed your suffering meant God had turned His back on you... or if you've carried shame that was never yours to carry...

This episode is for you.

Because sometimes the deepest healing begins when the truth finally becomes louder than the lie.

Survival isn't just something you go through, sometimes it becomes the way you live.

In this episode, I share how childhood trauma shaped the way I saw pain, relationships, and myself. I talk about what survival taught me, the hidden cost of simply making it through, and why healing begins when we finally tell the truth about our story.

If you've ever wondered why it's so hard to let your guard down, this episode is for you.

Surviving kept me alive...but it was never meant to become my home.