Don't worry this is I think the last time I go on a tangent about jews and such. At least I think. Idk, I did a ton of podcast in such a short amount of time so hard to remember months and months later.

But yeah either way it's still wild to me. Like I get that they for sure seem to nepotize hella, but literally every one does. Not that it's a good thing, but it's a strange thing to focus on. Like you don't see people, for example, jumping on Chinese or Japanese for how they seemingly have large family businesses where they only hire their own people and blah blah blah. But whatever, doesn't matter to me. As a black ******, it's all different shades of gray for me. Not like from my perspective it changes anything rather one slightly different genetic blood line drops my resume or doesn't give me a chance vs another slightly different genetic blood line. They all not giving me a chance equally.

It's a sad truth that took a while for me to realize. There's nothing that can really be done. Like I'm sure it will happen eventually, but it will take decades of slow movement into middle class lifestyles and then the softening of the people/monetary opportunities for the community to change.

And the ironic part, by the time it happens, the "Black Community" probably won't even exist anymore for it to even matter. Not only cause interracial relationships are quite common and will become more common, but because as cultures infuse more, many people of the "community" won't feel they have much in common with it.

It will be an irony like no other. Right when the community finally escapes its cage it was forced into, it won't matter cause it won't really be a community....

No but seriously, like I get it now. Like it's not enough for me to complain about cause not like taxes really effecting my pansy af small salary amount, and not like I spend lavishly anyhow (literally just saving and saving until something changes in my life....), but I truly don't understand where this money is going. Like the country apparently overspends its tax dollars SO HEAVILY that we need to take loans from other countries...and even then, we take so much loans from our own citizens and other countries that we are in a deficit that will never be paid back...

It just doesn't add up. And worse, when you see how these high up politicians live....it's like....you shouldn't be able to afford this life style...

All I'm saying is, stuff don't add up and its no wonder the richest of society just dodge em.

Terrible audio. I think it's due to the way I uploaded the file to the computer. Sometimes it for some reason gets really glitchy. But it's too late now. Spoiler, I'm editing AND then later uploading this literally months after I made it. So I'm way too lazy to fix it.... but it's a mini wiz so whatever.

But yeah it's crazy how detailed dreams are. Like for real, there is nothing quite like it. If death is like that...then maybe death isn't so bad...

It’s one of the hardest challenges to ignore the insanity of this world but you have to. You will feel better and less stressed. None of the stuff really matters in the end. It doesn’t directly affect you. Just chill and ignore.

I just find it so ironic. Like sure, let Europe keep their cobble stone af cultural identity for 1850 buildings if they want, but don’t force every other city to make that same decision. Get tf outta here. And Americans can’t say one freaking word, because our cities SUCK. We have like 5 relevant cities, and every other city is a suburban wasteland, a ghetto wasteland, a road with a bunch of fast food and strip malls, or middle-of-nowhere country towns. Like how about we focus on improving and making our own cities outside of the big ones more interesting and dynamic?

And don't even try and flip this mess around and go "omg wow it's anti-Semitic to talk about antisemitism!!! OMG how dare you talk about white people as if you know!!!! OMG did you hear him say JEWS and WHITES and BLACKS!!! THAT’S RACIST!!"



Stfu. I don't give af. You are useless. You focus on the sounds and letters and not on the overall words + sentence + structure meaning. Get tf outta here.

Like I guess I'll never truly know whether people like me, appreciate me, hate me, are annoyed by me, or don't care. It's just a big hodgepodge of bs that I can’t really see through. Like I’m serious, the amount of people who have later come up to me saying they remember me or still talk about things I did or noticed/recognized me back then is in a way really awkward. Like as I said in the podcast, it confuses me and I don’t quite know how to take it. Like it would be a complement if not for the literally MEMORY I have of the time. But it's whatever. No point focusing on it. Not like answers to these questions will change the present or the past.