What if the most intimate thing someone can do to you has nothing to do with touch?

In this episode, I sit down with Undine de Riviere – escort, erotic hypnotist, and one of the most fascinating personas I've had on this show. We talk about the fine line between surrender and control, why giving up your mind is a completely different game than giving up your body, and what it actually means to be conscious while someone rewires your desire.

Spoiler: You stay awake. You just stop resisting.

We also get into Undine as a constructed persona – who she is, where she ends, and whether that line even exists anymore.

For those who think they know what hypnosis is: you probably don't. And that's exactly where this gets interesting.

Love is the biggest taboo in sex work. Not sex. Not money. But feelings.

In this solo episode, I talk about what happens when the line between professional intimacy and real feelings becomes blurred. When does curated availability suddenly become... something that feels real?

I talk about dates where I no longer knew whether I was being paid or whether it was just nice. About post-date blues that feel like heartbreak. And about an American in senior military service who taught me a lesson about non-monogamy and charisma.

What makes a client dangerous? Not their appearance. But the way they listen. How they leave space. How they see your needs without you having to express them.

And then the big question: can I even love as an escort? Am I allowed to? And if so, at what price?

In the end, it's all about the Holy Grail: being emotionally available without becoming vulnerable. And why mastering this art leads to a rebirth of one's own self.

Trigger warning: emotional depth, personal vulnerability, and quite a few uncomfortable truths about love, control and self-sufficiency.

You've been waiting four weeks for this, Sherlocks. And trust me - it was worth it. In Part 2, I confess how a philosophy professor turned intellectual debate into foreplay, how forced cuddling broke down walls I didn't even know I'd built, and how I discovered that my brain might be my most powerful sex organ. From performance mode to pure presence. From power games to tantra. This is where it gets deep - in every sense of the word.