In today’s episode, I continue sharing my journey of finding my purpose - to become a sexologist and build a life in Indonesia 💖

After hitting rock bottom with my bikini brand, I found myself stepping onto a new path - fashion styling. In the beginning, it felt like a full-body YES. Joy, excitement and passion. But slowly, that spark turned into pressure and the joy turned into anxiety. Two years in, I found myself questioning everything…again.

Is this really what living your purpose is supposed to feel like?

A part of me didn’t want to face the truth. I didnt want to accept that I ”failed” yet another time, and then start over from scratch….again. But deep down, I knew… This wasn’t what my soul was longing for.

What I began to realize was how I had been relating to purpose - almost like a trauma bond. Believing it had to feel intense, extraordinary, high-energy and always pushing my limits. But after this whole, messy journey of countless setbacks, I started to long for something else - PEACE ✨

All I truly wanted was to feel inner peace in my career and purpose. A sense of being, instead of doing. Expressing instead of creating. A feeling of home… like an exhale ❤️✨

I connected with my truth and asked myself what I truly desired and who I wanted to be, if I was completely honest.

And as wrong as it felt.. what I truly wanted was to shine my light, to take up space, use my voice, and express myself fully - just like I once did through singing.

So i made a shift - I stopped playing small and started to claim who I was and what my heart wanted. I decided to choose peace instead of anxiety, right where I was, and I committed full heartedly.

And in that vibration… everything shifted and it led me straight to my purpose ✨

Stay tuned for Part 3 💖

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