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That Beast Was Not Me

One Forensic Psychologist, Five Decades of Conversations with Killers

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That Beast Was Not Me

By: Jeffrey L. Smalldon
Narrated by: Eddie Frierson
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AN UP-CLOSE AND PERSONAL LOOKAT THE MURDERING MIND ...

In 1975, after Manson Family member Lynette “Squeaky” Fromme’s attempt to kill President Gerald Ford, the FBI found a cache of letters in the would-be assassin’s Sacramento apartment. The return address belonged to future forensic psychologist Jeffrey Smalldon, then a young undergraduate.

A decade later, after the shocking murders of two co-workers, Smalldon’s quest to understand the twisted minds and motivations of killers became personal in a way it never had been before.

THAT BEAST WAS NOT ME documents five decades of conversations with murderers like John Wayne Gacy, Charles Manson, Ted Bundy, serial sniper Thomas Lee Dillon, and Donald Harvey—then thought to be the most prolific serial killer in American history. Through letters, prison visits, and interviews, Smalldon gives listeners a terrifying look into the darkest recesses of the human psyche.

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made me ask questions and didn't necessarily answer them, which I actually quite liked. a fascinating career summarised well.

fascinating insight

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....while not wanting to analyze the author's interwoven motivations and methods...and sometimes sanity....for the information gathering in his younger years...he's the shrink, not me....I did find some of my questions leaning towards him versus the criminals!!!!!
An interesting view and thought provoking backgrounds....thanks!

A different perspective on murderous minds

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