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Some of Us Just Fall

On Nature and Not Getting Better

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By: Polly Atkin
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'Long before I knew I was sick, I knew I was breakable...'

A raw and exquisite meditation on chronic illness and our place within the landscape, from prize-winning poet Polly Atkin.

After years of unexplained health problems, Polly Atkin's perception of her body was rendered fluid and disjointed. When she was finally diagnosed with two chronic conditions in her thirties, she began to piece together what had been happening to her - all the misdiagnoses, the fractures, the dislocations, the bone-crushing exhaustion, the not being believed.

Some of Us Just Fall combines memoir, pathography and nature writing to trace a fascinating journey through illness, a journey which led Polly to her current home in the Lake District, where outdoor swimming is purported to cure all, and where every day Polly uses the natural world to help tame her illness. Polly delves into the history of her two genetic conditions, uncovering how these illnesses were managed (or not) in times gone by and exploring how best to plan for her own future. 

From medical misogyny and gaslighting, to the illusion of 'the nature cure', this essential, beautiful and deeply personal book examines how we deal with bodies that diverge from the norm, and why this urgently needs to change. This is not a book about getting better, this is a book about living better with illness.

©2023 Polly Atkin (P)2023 Hodder & Stoughton Limited
Nature & Ecology Outdoors & Nature People with Disabilities Science

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Polly Atkin's Some of Us Just Fall unpicks the body of the wild, alongside the disabled wilderness of Atkin's own body. It gives us an experience that is both timely and timeless: of medical gaslighting, a body in pain, and the search for coping strategies out in the natural world. With a poet's insight and a deep understanding of place, Atkin pulls us again and again to witness the fractured, the breathless, the untameable bodies that permeate her book. I was immersed. (Katie Hale, author of My Name Is Monster)

Some of Us Just Fall is a remarkable book that deepens our understanding of what it can mean to be human... it offers a much-needed counterpoint to ill-thinking notions of nature cure... This is both radical manifesto and activism in book form. (Sally Huband, author of Sea Bean)

Polly Atkin has conjured magic in this story of a life touched harshly by illness and misunderstanding, demonstrating a deep connection to the natural world and the voices of the past. Beyond the mesmeric writing on nature and place, Some of Us Just Fall acts as a stark reminder of the implications of misdiagnosis. It is a reminder to remain curious, keep asking questions and open our mind to the possibility that everything is not as it seems. (Caro Giles, author of Twelve Moons)

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This book is beautiful and brutal. It explores the realities of living with chronic illness through a life lived linked to nature. The storytelling is sublime and soothing, the truths harsh and difficult. I want everyone to read this book so they can be taken on this journey for their own sakes and for everyone who, like me, is living with complex chronic illness.

Incredible book

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I've only had one personal experience of debilitating illness which was hard to explain at the time and not well understood. It was a temporary, pregnancy thing, so all over now, but it provides my only other experience of the world of illness and the isolation it can create.

The story was beautifully read, and offered a narrative of illness which is usually hidden beneath metaphorical battles. Atkin offers a truly illuminating insight into the experience of ongoing disability. It's intriguingly told, but it also feels like one of those books which matter, which privileges the reader, and recalibrates our understanding of each other. I'm so glad l came across it : Some of Us Just Fall should be read widely.

An untold story, told here

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fantastic book, beautifully read. Atkin has a very rich and soothing voice to listen to. I am familiar with many of the places mentioned, which was an added element for me. This memoir is a quest for a diagnosis and a coming to terms with it. But there are fascinating stories told along the way, about caves, myths, family history, lake swimming and so much more.

highly recommended

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This is a poetic but grounded account of a life lived with ongoing medical conditions and disability. As someone who doesn’t live with chronic pain or physical health conditions this felt a really important book to explain a perspective I don’t always see, and sometimes don’t even realise I can’t see. It was thought-provoking, honest and wonderfully performed. Thank you so much

Beautifully told and performed

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Although some of the longer sections on detailed accounts of the history and effects of the illness were hard-going and required stamina these were interspersed with passages of transporting beauty and wonder. At this point the book transcended anything I have ever listened to. It was deeply moving and affecting and exquisitely written. My heart was blown open. Polly read all of it wonderfully, but above all the passages on nature and landscape were delivered so beautifully that at times I was enraptured. Thank you for allowing long-term ill or disabled people to feel represented, and thank you for this outstanding writing. This book is transformative. I am so very grateful it was recommended to me.

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