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My Own Devices

True Stories from the Road on Music, Science, and Senseless Love

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“I love the way Dessa puts words together. In her songs, in her poetry, in her short stories, and now in this beautiful and candid memoir. Wanna be an artist? Get this book.”
--Lin-Manuel Miranda

"Dessa writes beautifully about a wide range of topics, including science, music, and the pain that comes with being in love; it's a surprising and generous memoir by a singular voice."
--NPR, Best Books of 2018


Dessa defies category--she is an intellectual with an international rap career and an inhaler in her backpack; a creative writer fascinated by philosophy and behavioral science; and a funny, charismatic performer dogged by blue moods and heartache. She's ferocious on stage and endearingly neurotic in the tour van. Her stunning literary debut memoir stitches together poignant insights on love, science, and language--a demonstration of just how far the mind can travel while the body is on a six-hour ride to the next gig.

In "The Fool That Bets Against Me," Dessa writes to Geico to request a commercial insurance policy for the broken heart that's helped her write so many sad songs. "A Ringing in the Ears" tells the story of her father building a wooden airplane in their backyard garage. In "'Congratulations,'" she describes the challenge of recording a song for The Hamilton Mixtape in a Minneapolis basement, straining for a high note and hoping for a break. "Call Off Your Ghost" chronicles the fascinating project she undertook with a team of neuroscientists to try to clinically excise romantic feelings for an old flame. Her writing is infused with scientific research, dry wit, a philosophical perspective, and an abiding tenderness for the people she tours with and the people she leaves behind to be on the road.

My Own Devices is an uncompromising and candid account of a life in motion, in music, and in love. Dessa is as compelling on the page as she is onstage, making My Own Devices the debut of a unique and deft literary voice.
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Praise for My Own Devices

“[Dessa is] a natural at the written word. There's not an essay in My Own Devices that's less than fascinating… [My Own Devices] is funny, heartbreaking and brilliantly written, and very possibly the best memoir by a musician since Patti Smith's Just Kids.” —Star Tribune

“Dessa has captured the punishing beauty of untenable love and touring, states of being that both require a stubborn, romantic heart.”—Tegan and Sara

“Dessa’s words are an articulation of the universal.” —MN Daily

“In a witty, well-researched collection of essays, the multidisciplinary creator delves into heartache, philosophy, and science from an artistic perspective.” —The Austin Chronicle

“I’m not exaggerating when I say Dessa’s words will change your life.”—HelloGiggles

My Own Devices
is filled with… not just wit, candor and intelligence, but also the depth normally associated with longer works.” —amNewYork

“Well-written and full of art and science, a really enjoyable read.” Angela Moon, Publisher's Weekly

“My Own Devices
is more universal than most performer bios and more lyrical than many celebrity essay collections, as sharp and witty as the best magazine pieces.” —Shelf Awareness

“As with any good memoir, Dessa’s writing mingles the specific and the universal.”City Pages

“I found myself laughing with almost every page, often because the writing was funny, but even more often out of sheer delight at someone using the English language so audaciously well. Dessa has an essayist’s eye and a rapper’s virtuosity, and she’s going to conquer the world.”—Joseph Fink, author of Welcome to Night Vale and Alice Isn't Dead

“Dessa is a master of putting words to our feelings, even the ones that are hardest to pinpoint. This book is her deftest work: an articulation of the feelings that haunt so many of us: the thrill of pursuing everything you want, the terror of realizing you’re racing against an invisible clock, and the ache of loving a person you probably shouldn’t. I read it cover to cover—twice—and dogeared so many pages it would be easier to find the pages I *hadn’t* marked. A beautiful book.”—Nora McInerny, Author and host, Terrible, Thanks for Asking

“Dessa has consistently transcended conventional stereotyping, and her writing should command interest even from readers who know nothing of her work with the Doomtree collective and her solo releases.”
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So glad Dessa narrated it, such a treat for any fan or just a fellow dreamy, intelligent, creative soul.

Simply amazing. Could not stop listening to it.

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Absolutely fantastic book, not only is it written incredibly well but Dessa’s reading of it is natural and unforced.

I have enjoyed Dessa’s music for many years, her blending of rap and singing is unique and she easily has one of the best voices for it, up there with Charlie Tuna, Kate Tempest and Aesop Rock for me. Ive since moved onto Doomtree more recently throughly enjoying the albums I’ve listened to. I have to say this book as completely elevated my enjoyment of her music, I had no prior knowledge of her relationship with P.O.S and moments of this book really help to connect the dots and give deeper meaning to the lyrics I already love.

Highly recommend, especially if you have enjoyed any of Dessa or Doomtree’s music before

Completely elevates my love for Dessa

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Not just one of the best memoirs I've ever read, but one of the best book. The writing is lyrical and through provoking. I'd read Dessa's shopping list her writing is that good.

Poinient and beautiful

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there is no one else like Dessa. In light of this, I am so glad that she is prolific, stubborn and here. This book is beautiful.

moving, sharp and funny

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This is so different to any book that I’ve read in a long time. Really interesting and Dessa’s reading and voice is amazing. Hugely recommend this book and her music - so refreshing and talented.

Compulsive listening

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