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"Kill The Black One First"

A memoir of hope and justice

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This audiobook was previously published under the title "A Search For Belonging"

'Absorbing... revealing and affecting. There are pleasures here, and lessons to be learnt, whatever colour you are' - The Sunday Times

'Michael Fuller is an extraordinary man with a remarkable and interesting story' - Helen Mirren

A story about race, identity, belonging and displacement, "Kill the Black One First" is the memoir from Michael Fuller - Britain's first ever black Chief Constable, whose childhood in care and career in policing is not only a stark representation of race relations in the UK, but also a unique morality tale of how humanity deals with life's unfairness.

Hoping to tackle injustice and create change from within, Michael joined the police force. There, he experienced racism and inequality, from colleagues shouting racist insults, to the Brixton Riots where 'Kill the black one first!' was yelled from the crowds. Determined, despite everything, not to turn and walk away, he rose through the ranks and made his way to the very top.

"Kill the Black One First" is an unflinching account of a life in policing during a tumultuous period, and how one man set out, against the odds, to try and belong.

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This provocatively titled memoir is one of a kind and offers up a perspective that is currently lacking in the discourse surrounding race in Britain. ((Derek Owusu, author of SAFE))
This is the story of a diligent, bright and sensitive individual who cares passionately about justice [but] at the heart of Fuller's journey is a quest to belong... His journey is utterly inspiring and it powerfully illuminates the dynamics of racial conflict in England over the past fifty years from someone who was in a very unique position. ((Eric Karl Anderson, Lonesome Reader))
Absorbing... revealing and affecting. There are pleasures here, and lessons to be learnt, whatever colour you are.
Michael Fuller is an extraordinary man with a remarkable and interesting story. ((Helen Mirren))
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I listened to this book over a weekend could not stop.
It was awesome and caused me to reflect.

Thank you for sharing

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Couldn't put it down . Honest and objective account of institutional racism from inside one of our principal institutions.

Love it!

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This could possibly have been fairly self-indulgent or a woe is me tale of racist abuse and the encountering a racism throughout a career. In actual fact it was inspirational, balanced, beautifully put together, well thought through, even-handed and not judgemental. A really inspiring story of a person who sounds like a real gentleman. His modulation and pitch is marvellous and he has the kind of voice that you feel you could listen to for a very long time. There is no doubt he has been evidentially highly successful in his career and this book simply makes me glad that he was. Fantastic

Brilliant

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First of all, I’m personally impressed by care provided by aunt Margaret, secondly the bravery of Michael and thirdly, his achievements. What a great story. I can personally relate. His story can be applied to many different professions, experiences & lived experiences

I can totally relate

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I listened to this book intently on my way to work nicely read by the author. I had it finished within 10 days. I was moved by the honest account of Michael Fuller’s experience growing up in England without his parents and the strength he gained from his carer Margaret at the children’s home.
I much prefer the book’s original title Kill the black one first to A sense of belonging. The former is based on what was shouted at him in the Brixton riots when he was a fairly new officer in the Met. Grappling between being one of the Police and one of belonging to a group of people who are black. A theme ongoing in his story. I still prefer the former title.
Michael who became chief constable in Kent, the only black person to reach this rank in Britain, retells some of the racism he experienced on his career journey. Sometimes it seemed better for him to ignore it. At times certain colleagues might say but you are not really one of them when they made derogatory comments.
The author shows his resilience and ability to detach from some of the awful experiences he has faced in telling his story. He rises the ranks and his positive can do self assured attitude takes him there.
I think more people should be reading this book especially during current times.
Katherine Paterson

An must read pre or post George Floyd or the McPherson report

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