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If I Let You Go

By: Charlotte Levin
Narrated by: Maxine Peake
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A Richard and Judy Book Club pick, If I Let You Go is a darkly comic tale of searing loss, coercive control and the consequences of taking the wrong path.

Every morning, Janet Brown goes to work cleaning offices. It calms her – cleanliness, neatness. All the things she’s unable to do with her soul can be achieved with a damp cloth and a splash of bleach. However the guilt she still carries, about a devastating loss that happened eleven years ago, cannot be erased.

When Janet finds herself involved in a train crash, she recognizes her chance to do what she couldn’t all those years ago. And she makes a decision. As news spreads of Janet’s actions, her story inspires everyone around her and, for the first time, her life has purpose. Her future is filled with hope.

But Janet's story isn't quite what it seems. And, as events spiral out of control, she soon discovers that coming clean isn't an option. Because if Janet washes away the lies, what long-buried truths will she finally have to face?

If I Let You Go by Charlotte Levin is a deeply moving and compelling portrayal of a woman coming to terms with loss.

©2023 Charlotte Levin (P)2023 Macmillan Publishers International Ltd Coming of Age Family Life Fiction Genre Fiction Women's Fiction Thought-Provoking

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Critic reviews

"Simultaneously tragic and uplifting. And I have to say at times funny. Charlotte Levin is SUCH a clever writer... A magnificent read." (Ruth Jones, author of Love Untold)

"A thoughtful, beautifully written book about grief, and ordinary people being thrown into extraordinary circumstances. Unusual and compelling, with just a touch of humour. Loved it." (Catherine Cooper author of The Chalet and The Cruise)

"Impossible to put down, this is a darkly brilliant novel that balances the heartbreak with the humour." (Louise Hare, bestselling author of This Lovely City)
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A heartfelt suspense story. Janet has my sympathy. Towards the end I was desperate to hear the next part of the plot.

Didn’t want this to end.

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I loved this story. The writing- every single line- was exceptional. I didn't want it to end . I felt so much for the main character snd her relationship with the world. I think a lot of people will relate to how toxic her marriage was. There was humour as well as darkness. It showed thd powerful bond between human beings and how the people we interact with, even on a shallow basis, can become an essentisl part of our lives- a part that can make lofe worth living.
I'm going to read the writer's next book and hope she brings out many more novels like this one.
Maxine Peak was, of course, an outstanding narrator.
You won't regret reading this.

Best book ever

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Poor Janet. Worn down by grief and her controlling partner. Seeks redemption. She’s an anti-hero and Maxine Peake brings her character to life. Great writing.

Good story, well read. Moving.

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Narration was perfect. Thoroughly enjoyed the writing and sympathised with the main character. The menace that she experienced at home was subtle and true.

The writing is suberb, i felt the suspense and emotions.

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Maxine Peak was brilliant as the narrator. Her voice brings all the characters to life and I was immersed in the small Greater Manchester town and Janet's suffocating life.
The story is fast paced once it gets going and the tension builds as it goes along and the listener feels continuously anxious about the repercussions of others finding out Janet's secrets.
Totally recommend it.
I can't wait for the next book from Charlotte and I hope Maxine does more narrations. it's great to hear a northern accent on here!

Loved it

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