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I Want To Go Home But I'm Already There

By: Róisín Lanigan
Narrated by: Ruby Campbell
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Renting is a nightmare...


Áine should be feeling happy with her life. She’s just moved in with Elliot. Their new flat is in an affluent neighbourhood, surrounded by bakeries, yoga studios and organic vegetable shops. They even have a garden. And yet, from the moment they move in, Áine can't shake the sense that there's something not quite right about the place...

It's not just the humourless estate agent and nameless landlord: it's the chill that seeps through the draughty windows; the damp spreading from the cellar door; the way the organic fruit and veg never lasts as long as it should. And most of all, it's the upstairs neighbours, whose very existence makes peaceful coexistence very difficult indeed.

The longer Áine spends inside the flat - pretending to work from home; dissecting messages from the friends whose lives seem to have moved on without her - the less it feels like home. And as Áine fixates on the cracks in the ceiling, it becomes harder to ignore the cracks in her relationship with Elliott...

Brilliantly observed and darkly funny, I Want to Go Home But I’m Already There is a ghost story set in the rental crisis. A wonderfully clear-eyed portrait of loneliness, loss and belonging, it examines what it means to feel at home.

'A deeply compelling and melancholic modern ghost story ... Examines with piercing precision and wry humour the insidiousness, malignancy, and all-encompassing bleakness of the housing market' SUSANNAH DICKEY, AUTHOR OF COMMON DECENCY

'Beautifully written, frequently hilarious, and maddeningly real' SEAMAS O'REILLY, AUTHOR OF DID YE HEAR MAMMY DIED

'Very funny and original ... Rife with sharply observed but subtle insights on class and money' RACHEL CONNOLLY, AUTHOR OF LAZY CITY

'Róisín Lanigan has been threatening to be the next great Irish writer for ages, so I'm glad she's finally sat down and done it' JOEL GOLBY


© Róisín Lanigan 2025 (P) Penguin Audio 2025

Genre Fiction Ghosts Horror Literary Fiction Psychological Women's Fiction Witty Funny

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Critic reviews

Absorbing and eerie ... Full of wry observations about the status markers of modern life ... Lanigan has a beautiful and distinct writing style, and her book is a hugely enjoyable portrait of the horrors of renting in London
A very funny and original take on the vagaries and indignities of endless renting ... Rife with sharply observed but subtle insights on class and money
A deeply compelling and melancholic modern ghost story, which draws upon the tropes of gothic to examine with piercing precision and wry humour the insidiousness, malignancy, and all-encompassing bleakness of the housing market. This novel is sharp and sad and incisive
A smart, funny and, occasionally, terrifying story of love, rental and millennial angst. With rare skill and eerie precision, Lanigan captures the small joys and mundane horrors of the current moment. Beautifully written, frequently hilarious, and maddeningly real.
Róisín Lanigan has been threatening to be the next great Irish writer for ages, so I'm glad she's finally sat down and done it
This novel deftly pulls off so much at once - it's compulsively readable, thrilling and tense, laugh-out-loud funny and emotionally astute. I Want To Go Home But I'm Already There is one of the best things I've read on the psychological horrors of private renting, and what damp, overpriced flats can do to our emotional lives. Hilarious, horrifying, truly original. I loved it
So unsettling and atmospheric and just devastatingly sad ... An intensely strange and claustrophobic novel, in which a young couple’s attempts to establish a home together give way to unsettling surreal episodes and disturbing lapses in the protagonist’s memory. Róisín Lanigan masterfully draws on ghost story tropes to suggest the nightmare of being trapped in financial insecurity and a bad relationship. What I really loved about this novel, though, was its resistance to a single interpretation; it had a powerful ambiguity that lingered in my mind long after I’d finished reading.
A gothic novel for generation rent - an uncanny, hilarious story about a young woman haunted by her flat
Millennial renting with a gothic twist ... Gripping and hauntingly relatable, Lanigan’s dark humour and sharp prose will resonate with anyone who’s braved the absurdities of the rental market
So, so good ... It is this balance between the classic and the modern that Lanigan gets so right ... An unnerving, beautifully teased-out novel that gives as much as it takes
All stars
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Thought it would be more about flats, but it was more about the life in flats and the rot that can take hold

Mouldy flats and relationships

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Nothing actually happens. Everyone is faintly pissed off. The end. I don’t really know why I listened to the whole thing.

This was boring

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Confusing time jumps and monotone narration. Story was left half untold by the end of the book

Not worth the Credit or time

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At least pronounce the main character's name correctly. One of the most terrible narrations I've come across.

Waste of credit.

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