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I Never Said I Loved You

Narrated by: Rhik Samadder
Length: 8 hrs
Categories: Biographies & Memoirs
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Summary

'I'm in bed with my mother, in a Bangkok sex hotel. It is my 30th birthday, it is time for me to become a man, and I have grave worries about the kind of man I'm going to become.'

On an unlikely backpacking trip, Rhik and his mother find themselves speaking openly for the first time in years. Afterwards, the depression that has weighed down on Rhik begins to loosen its grip for a moment - so he seizes the opportunity: to own it, to understand it and to find out where it came from.   

Through this begins a journey of investigation, healing and recovery. Along the way Rhik learns some shocking truths about his family and realises that, in turn, he will need to confront the secrets he has long buried. But through this, he triumphs over his fears and brings his depression into the light.   

I Never Said I Loved You is the story of how Rhik learned to let go and then keep going. With unique humour and honesty, he has created a powerfully rich, funny and poignant exploration of the light and dark in all of us. 

©2019 Rhik Samadder (P)2019 Headline Publishing Group Ltd

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Set aside some time and listen to this

I'm so glad I decided to listen to the audiobook, rather than reading this: it is deeply moving, sometimes very upsetting, and dotted throughout with touches of humour which make it both easier and more painful. The author's voice adds his humanity, his courage, his sadness. This is not a book to listen to whilst driving: it is a book for which to set time aside. It is not a book about depression, but rather an account of the ongoing attention needed by some of us in living life as well as we can, despite what seem like the odds.

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Fantastic, moving, hilarious must-read

Rhik Samadder is a great writer - laugh out loud funny one minute, challenging the next and incredibly moving the next. I loved every minute of this great testimony to living a life. I learned a lot and this made me reflect on my own life. It left me inspired. Brilliant read by the author, too.

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I didn't want this book to end! I absolutely love Rhik's writing and use of language.

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There's hope for us all

Literally had me laughing out loud one moment and shedding tears the next. Never boring, this tale offers hope and encouragement to anyone suffering depression, and insight to those who don't.

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Wonderful book

Loved listening to this and didn’t want it to end. Beautifully written, funny & heart wrenching and wonderfully honest.

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Rhik rocks. Tender, heartfelt, moving, funny

Loved his Guardian articles. This book delves into his life, experiences and challenges with mental health. Listen to the end. Almost guruesque in insight and depth of thought and love and direction for a life well lived. Will be forcing this on friends and family. Loved it.

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Wonderful

Heartbreaking and a tough listen at times, but beautifully written and wonderfully read, I didn't want it to end.

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Fantastic

I loved this book and can't recommend it enough. It is a witty, sad and heart felt journey through the author's life. You can really see how he has been on a journey through life and his emotions, including some very difficult situations which must have been incredibly hard to re live. I loved the analogies and descriptive way in which the author writes and found it very easy to relate to, testament to an incredibly good author. He's very dry which I love, and made some of the more difficult parts of his life somewhat softer. Despite thinking in the past that he had no interests or skills, this author is a fantastic writer who has found his calling.

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A beautiful listen.

I loved everything about this audiobook. It is characteristically hilarious and witty, but also honest and moving incredibly honest.

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a beautiful personal story

a poignant and uplifting story of a life with depressio n. very tender, funny and poignant.