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Fingers Crossed

How Music Saved Me From Success

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Fingers Crossed

By: Miki Berenyi
Narrated by: Miki Berenyi, Mark Gardener
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Includes an original song written by Miki exclusively for the audio edition and an exclusive Q&A with 'Ride' singer & guitarist Mark Gardener.

Formed in 1988, Lush were part of the London gig scene during one of the most vibrant and creative periods in UK music. Now, Miki Berenyi tells all.

The audiobook begins with her childhood of extremes. From the bohemian lifestyle of her father's social circle to the privileged glamour of her mother's acting career, Miki's young life was a blur of travel, celebrities and private schooling. But frequent relocation, parental neglect and the dark presence of her abusive grandmother resulted in crippling shyness, mental-health issues and a vulnerability to exploitation. The route out of this hole was music—a passion shared by schoolmate Emma Anderson. The teenagers began attending gigs together and would eventually go on to form Lush.

Peppered with anecdotes involving a cast of hundreds (including Blur, Sean Connery, Tracey Emin, Pearl Jam and the Red Hot Chili Peppers), this uncompromising autobiography documents Lush's thrilling rise, dispiriting fall and subsequent bounceback, reliving the tours, recording sessions and problematic managers they experienced along the way. But at the heart of the book are Miki's own battles: the conflict between her mouthy public persona and her thin-skinned private identity; the trials of being a woman in an infuriatingly male world; the struggle to find a middle ground between safe indie obscurity and sellout international success. The memoir also explores Miki's complex relationship with Emma—one that has fluctuated between camaraderie and rivalry over the years—and addresses the most devastating tragedy of all: the suicide of her soulmate, Lush drummer Chris Acland.

Told through frank confession, wry humour and emotional honesty, this is the incredible tale of a trailblazing woman and a seminal band.

©2022 Miki Berenyi (P)2022 Bonnier Books UK
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I really loved it. Brutally honest in parts and funny in others. Well recommended for any music fans

A fascinating and sometimes harrowing read

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Loved this book. So much specific details about that time in music, and a lot of honesty.

Great!!!

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Whether you liked Lush or not this is a bloody great listen. What an interesting life Miki has lead and she reads it so well. I was deliberately going out for extra walks to hear the next bit of her story. Highly recommended xx

Fantastic

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Brilliant book by one of my favourite musicians. Miki doesn't shy away from telling the truth of her life, even when she is at fault.
Love it.

Unflinching and Honest

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One of the best biographies I have read. Brilliantly written and read. Grips you from the start and the 12 hour listen went by in a flash. Would love a sequal. Congratulations Miki and thank you for sharing this wonderful book with us.

Brilliant

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