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Even in Our Darkness

A Story of Beauty in a Broken Life

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Even in Our Darkness

By: Jack S. Deere
Narrated by: Jack Deere
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"I am the descendant of drinkers and drifters better at passing on their love for the bottle than family history..." Prepare yourself for an unvarnished, harrowing look at one Christian's life.

A powerful memoir of knowing and being known by God through the pain of loss, tragedy, and brokenness—Even in Our Darkness explores what it means to fend off doubt and despair, even in the most painful trials.

Jack Deere tells the true story of his life growing up near Fort Worth, Texas in the 1950's and the disintegration of his family following his father's suicide. Despite his difficult childhood and an inclination toward the depression that had crushed his parents, Deere describes how he began to wrestle with Christianity and how "God was...slipping in through the crack of an open wound."

In his mid-twenties, Jack rose to fame and success as a leading scholar, popular speaker, and bestselling author. But despite being rescued and exalted, Jack was devastated in the years that followed, losing his troubled son to suicide and his wife to alcoholism. Only then did he fully face his own addictions, surrender control, and experience true healing.

An authentic story of the Christian life, Even in Our Darkness is like following an experienced guide through a barren country. Like many believers, Deere has had experiences that nearly destroyed him, and he was shown, by grace, how to overcome life's disappointments and learn to hear God speak in unbelievable ways, despite the darkness that surrounds us.

"Unmasked, unsettling, and unforgettable . . . this will change the landscape of your soul." —Ann Voskamp, bestselling author of The Broken Way and One Thousand Gifts.

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I wasn’t familiar with Jack Deere or his writings before reading this book, but after chancing on a positive review and having my interest raised by the précis, I decided to purchase.

Deere writes vividly and with great honesty about his family’s life and the shadows cast over it by abuse (sexual and physical), suicide, sexual purity as well as alcohol and substance addiction; painful yet important topics for the church and for society. Some of his most brutal writing, for a Christian author and pastor, comes around his own walk with God and realisations about his pride, selfishness, ego and buried pain though. I found his words, written from a position of maturity and with the hindsight of a life lived, to be deeply insightful and curiously refreshing, particularly when sharing how God used ever moment to draw him to Him.

It is my experience within Christian communities that such levels of honesty around our dealings with life’s darkness is rare and in this Instagram-filtered/FOMO-generation it feels like it is only getting rarer. There is a raw and genuine reality to Jack’s story and the narrative skips by engagingly. I listened to the audiobook version read by the author and loved his narration. Thoroughly recommended.

Awash in gratitude

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Jack somehow keeps his head above water in a sea of difficulty. Remarkable honesty throughout.

If you think you've got issues... Think again!

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Written with humility and honesty, challenging everyone seeking fulfillment anywhere other than in Christ alone.

deeply moving

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A searingly honest memoir about Jack Deere’s life. He is honest about his own sin and failure which makes for a very different kind of memoir. I felt there could have been a touch less detail on his sex life - did we really need to hear about how he and Leesa made love before a roaring fire on their wedding night? I also have some questions about why he thinks certain family members will be saved and would have been interested to hear him unpack this. All in all well worth a listen - it makes you realize that our heroes have feet of clay and so feel less hopeless about our own experiences of sin and failure.

Honest and powerful

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