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Chanel's Riviera
- Life, Love and the Struggle for Survival on the Côte d'Azur, 1930 -1944
- Narrated by: Sophie Roberts
- Length: 10 hrs and 50 mins
- Unabridged Audiobook
- Categories: Biographies & Memoirs, Art & Literature
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Summary
Far from worrying about the onset of war, in the spring of 1938 the burning question on the French Riviera was whether one should curtsy to the Duchess of Windsor. Few of those who had settled there thought much about what was going on in the rest of Europe. It was a golden, glamorous life, far removed from politics or conflict.
Featuring a sparkling cast of artists, writers and historical figures including Winston Churchill, Daisy Fellowes, Salvador Dalí, the Duke and Duchess of Windsor, Eileen Gray and Edith Wharton, with the enigmatic Coco Chanel at its heart, Chanel's Riviera is a captivating account of a period that saw some of the deepest extremes of luxury and terror in the whole of the 20th century.
From Chanel's first summer at her Roquebrune villa La Pausa (in the later years with her German lover) amid the glamour of the prewar parties and casinos in Antibes, Nice and Cannes to the horrors of evacuation and the displacement of thousands of families during the Second World War, Chanel's Riviera explores the fascinating world of the Cote d'Azur elite in the 1930s and 1940s.
Enriched with much original research, it is social history that brings the lives of both rich and poor, protected and persecuted, to vivid life.
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- WhatCathyReadNext
- 11-11-19
More Riviera than Chanel
When I heard Anne de Courcy talk about her book at Henley Literary Festival recently she described Chanel’s Riviera as a ‘biography of the Riviera’. I think that’s a fair description because readers expecting the majority of the book to be about Chanel may be disappointed. Yes, Chanel does feature a lot but in sections of the book she is either on the periphery or absent entirely. For example, she spent periods during the war in Paris rather than on the Riviera.
What the book does well is conjure up the glamour and hedonism of life on the Riviera for the rich and famous before the war. The author describes how it became a haven for writers and artists like Picasso, Ernest Hemingway, Somerset Maugham, H G Wells and Jean Cocteau, as well as society figures such as Winston Churchill and, later, the Duke and Duchess of Windsor.
The mood changes suddenly following the outbreak of war. The book depicts the arrival of refugees from Northern Europe, including Jews fleeing persecution, and the food shortages that followed the fall of France in 1940 as supplies were diverted to Germany. Life for many living on the Cote d’Azur became really tough and the author uses material from diaries and contemporary sources to tell the harrowing stories of individuals.
Other than her reputation as a designer, I knew very little about Chanel’s life before reading this book. It was interesting to learn of her rise from humble beginnings to doyenne of the fashion world. However, I can’t say everything I learned made me warm to Chanel as a person. For instance, I was shocked to learn of her anti-Semitic views.
In the book the author addresses claims that Chanel collaborated with the Nazis. For example, she suggests Chanel’s taking of a senior German officer as a lover was principally aimed at trying to gain the release of her nephew who was being held as a prisoner of war by the Germans. However I found myself wondering if ‘the will to survive’ was sufficient justification for some of Chanel’s actions.
As the author recounts, partly what kept Chanel free from the retaliation meted out to others accused of collaboration was the reopening of her Paris store following its liberation in 1944 and the offer of a free bottle of her iconic perfume for every US soldier to take home to their wife or sweetheart. That and being able to produce papers demonstrating her friendship with Winston Churchill.
Chanel’s Riviera is clearly the product of extensive research. For me, the most interesting element of the book was seeing the impact of the Second World War on an area of France which had hitherto been the playground of the rich and famous.
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- E P
- 29-08-19
More about the Riviera than Chanel
Chanel was the friend of the powerful and the glamorous; their influence protected her from her collaboration and Antisemitism. An enigmatic woman who remained just as mysterious at the end of the book as at the end of her life
The book strongest part is the description of the Riviera under Nazi occupation
The narration is monotoned and slightly off-putting, Apple’s Siri is better at delivering nuance than Ms Roberts. However, I’m glad I listened to it in a sunny August garden close to where most of the book took place
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- SL Trivuncic
- 01-02-22
Gripping and informative
A veritable soap opera of famous figures from the jazz age through the second world war and liberation of France. With Coco Chanel at the centre, this story isn’t constrained to the riviera, rather it includes much detail of the impact upon the French citizens of the German occupation and what was going on in Paris and actions of the Vichy government. The section about British ex-pats being repatriated via coal ships out of the Mediterranean and the hideous conditions of their voyage is especially interesting. If you enjoyed Les Parisiennes by Anne Sebba there is much overlap though this book concentrates more on the lives of artists and cultural figures based in the south - with many guest appearances from Churchill and the exiled Windsors. It’s not wholly a Chanel biography as the main focus is just 15 years of her life so I intend to look for a specific Chanel biography as well.
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- Amazon Customer
- 04-09-21
Style and Substance
fascinating account of a life from utter poverty and discomfort to grand style and luxury - talent will out - very revealing personal experience of life on the cote d'Azure
loved the details of every day survival - who would have thought it of the French Riviera
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- Amazon Customer
- 12-05-21
Unexpectedly great!
I was surprised by how I liked the book. It’s not just a light reading - it’s a beautifully written historical peace. Thank you
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- Mrs. JGM
- 12-04-21
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I cannot review until audible allows me to finish the book. I have to submit this page to get back to the story
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- Christine
- 13-07-20
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Quite liked the story but hated the narrator. Terrible French prononciation. It was painful to listen to the story
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- Anonymous User
- 26-02-20
Informative surrounding WW but...
Chanel seemed to be for herself siding with whomever may benefit her. Simple as that
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- C. Griffiths
- 19-12-19
Loved the idea of this book but...
what a rambling list of names and dates it is!!!!
The author is undoubtedly exceptionally conversant with the subject matter (WW2, I can't comment on the elements regarding Chanel) and I only wish this was a much deeper dive into a few very specific and 'plot' critical people...in that way avoiding the endless stream of names, dates, situations and engagements that seemingly have tenuous connections (...I'm happy to accept this may be my lack of detailed knowledge regarding some of the names but I know my WW1/WW2 history pretty well).
I did wonder whether the semi-monotone narration made this listen tougher than it needed to be...and on reflection, I think a better/more animated delivery many have created greater distinction and connection. Whilst I don't expect the narrator to bring a book to life solely with their voice, I don't expect a narrator to drain the life out of a book either...and a little bit of that has happened here I think...
Listening to it I find myself increasingly frustrated, not so much that the title is a tad misleading which begs the question - did the title 'The Riviera' get rejected at some point? I see it has a second title so why did it really need such a tenuous primary title...seems sneaky and slightly deceptive as designed to pull a bigger fan base...think it may have back fired a tad, from my point of view anyway...
My frustration is more to do with how fantastic this book could actually be.
I will be engaging with this text again (book probably next time), I think there are gems in there. I love the perspective, subject matter and this period/geography but the reality is that this book/listen is very hard work, unnecessarily hard work...and it really need not have been.
Anne de Courcy - I applaud your knowledge, well done. I will most likely take my next tour of your material via the book - the audible version is flawed for me I feel.
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- Anonymous User
- 09-11-19
incorrect pronounciation
My enjoyment was spoilt by the frequent mispronunciation and inaccuracy of place names (PAU for example) and the inability of Ms. Roberts to pronounce even the simplest of proper names (example: Elie de Rothschild, General von Choltitz). One would have thought that the author might have edited the pronunciation of the proper names, or is she in the same boat as Ms. Roberts? Even the name of Chanel's wartime German lover is mis-pronounced! It really spoilt the book for me.