Carrying Cree is a podcast about love, loss and learning how to live after the unimaginable.

After losing my son, Cree, to suicide following a battle with mental illness and psychosis, I didn't stop being his mother. I am learning how to carry him differently.

This podcast is my honest journey through our fight with his mental illness, grief, faith, anger, healing and choosing to live with hope in God's promise of seeing my beautiful boy again, instead in the hurt that walks beside it. It's a space where grief and joy will coexist and where love doesn't end because his life did.

Carrying Cree is for parents, siblings and all other loved ones navigating suicide loss, those impacted by mental illness, and anyone trying to survive a life-altering loss without guilt or silence. My love for my sons has always been loud, and it will continue to be.

Some episodes are reflective. Some are raw. All are real.

No one wants to talk about loss, but the truth is, we are all a second away from leaving here. This podcast is about the reality of living differently because of this truth. We are not moving on from the loss of our loved ones but remembering, carrying and continuing, with urgency of purpose. This is how we all make it to the other side, where we will see them again.

I pray this podcast finds the hearts and souls of those it's supposed to reach.