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Having Spent Life Seeking

The Sunday Times bestselling story of love, second chances and being seen

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Having Spent Life Seeking

By: Kae Tempest
Narrated by: Kae Tempest
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Summary

Narrated by Kae Tempest with music by Hinako Omori.

Rothko Taylor has washed up with the tide, back in their hometown, Edgecliff. Fifteen years since they left it behind.

The past is accelerating towards them: the skateboard kids on the high street that remind them of their teenage years, the splintered benches looking out to sea, where their mum Meg clutched her cans. The nice bit of town, where their dad Ezra tried and failed to build a happy home. And Dionne's block. Beautiful, extraordinary Dionne, the only person who had ever looked at them and seen what was there.

Back then, overwhelmed and full of fear, they sank beneath the surface into chaos. But they made it out alive. And this time, Rothko is determined that things will be different.

A decade since Kae Tempest's last novel, Having Spent Life Seeking is about family and forgiveness; redemption and atonement; desire and abandon; selfhood and community. The things we seek when we are hiding, and what finds us, if we can let ourselves be seen.

'If books can still change the world, this one most likely will' COLUM MCCANN

'A wonderful, moving and enlightening state-of-Britain novel' IRVINE WELSH

'Amazing, it really moved me' SHON FAYE


'A hallelujah of a book. A scorching story of love, change, homecoming and forgiveness' DAWN FRENCH

'Kae Tempest at his finest' ANTHONY SHAPLAND

'Unboundedly beautiful' MICHAEL PEDERSEN

© Kae Tempest 2026 (P) Penguin Audio 2026

Family Life Genre Fiction Literary Fiction Small Town & Rural
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Critic reviews

A master-craftsman of deep feeling and linguistic intimacy (Max Porter)
A wonderful, moving and enlightening state-of-Britain novel stuffed with memorable characters, depicting an individual’s struggle for self-realization in a society punitive to those who refuse to stand in its prescribed boxes (Irvine Welsh)
Amazing, it really moved me... Not something I've encountered in British literary fiction before (Shon Faye)
Unboundedly beautiful. Having Spent Life Seeking rings the heart like a bell (Michael Pedersen)
Having Spent Life Seeking is Kae at his finest, his uncanny skill of focussing on detail, noticing and observing ordinariness – all while allowing slippery truths to surface in this gentle, volatile book (Anthony Shapland)
A hallelujah of a book. A scorching story of love, change, homecoming and forgiveness. Kae at his beautiful, brilliant, best (Dawn French)
Kae Tempest brings into the literary realm that which others choose to leave outside. This is a remarkable act of literary bravery. If books can still change the world, this one most likely will. Narrative-driven, stuffed with soul, brimming with brokenness, rife with repair, this is a book for our splintered times. In Tempest's hands, redemption travels faster than the speed of light (Colum McCann)
Agile shifts in perspective allow Tempest to extend his 360-compassion as he brings marginalised lives into sharp focus; he writes brilliantly about addiction and desire, too. Tough and lyrical, it’s a tale of survival and becoming that earns the grace of its moving conclusion
Having Spent Life Seeking will surely take its place in the trans canon
A pure beautiful love story... Reverberates through the reader's heart (Lemn Sissay)
All stars
Most relevant
I’m not even sure what to say. Trying to use my words to describe the most perfect book I’ve ever listened to, seems unworthy.
I love Kae and all his work and was lucky enough to see him live last year. I’d looked forward to this book, and my god, if you haven’t started it yet, brace yourself. I sobbed many times at the beauty and the horror of this story and felt so immersed at times, it’s just as unbearable.
I’m glad I chose the audiobook, because having Kae read this to you gives a richness, as only his voice can give.

This is a work of true genius, that you’ll only ever find in the words of Kae Tempest.

Just stunning

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The narration was perfect but I expected nothing less from Kae Tempest. Moving, actually not just moving…devastating. Was an emotional wreck as points. So so good.

Extraordinarily good. I loved it.

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I love the care and humanity that shines through in all Kae's work. As a trans man, to read a book and care about and empathise with all the main characters, whilst also recognising a very specific personal lived experience is such a gift. I'm so glad I made time to sink in and listen.

So worth waiting for! And so glad I listened to it first before I pick up my hard copy.

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