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Ask Me His Name
- Learning to Live and Laugh Again After the Loss of My Baby
- Narrated by: Elle Wright
- Length: 6 hrs and 39 mins
- Unabridged Audiobook
- Categories: Health & Wellness, Psychology & Mental Health
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Summary
Dear Listener,
When I found myself experiencing a motherhood that I never expected, one that I was terrified of living, I didn't know how I would carry on being 'normal'. I didn't know how much I would long for people to say my son Teddy's name, to not treat him like he didn't exist. Maybe you're in this boat too, or maybe you want to support someone who is? Whatever your reason, I hope our story goes a little way to help.
Love, Elle
What do you do when the unthinkable happens? Elle Wright had an admittedly easy pregnancy - her scans went well, she and her baby were healthy throughout, and in May 2016, she and her husband welcomed their son, Teddy, into the world. Just a few hours after giving birth, they woke to find a nurse holding a cold and unresponsive Teddy, who had stopped breathing during the night. The happiest day of Elle's life had turned into every parent's worst nightmare, and she had to let her beautiful baby boy go. Three days after delivering him into the world, Elle sat with Teddy in her arms as he took his last breaths, and tucked him in for the final time. Ask Me His Name is a moving account of Elle's pregnancy, Teddy's life, and what happens when a mother leaves a hospital with empty arms. In the UK, one in four pregnancies ends in premature death, but conversations about the heartbreakingly frequent issue of baby loss are few and far between. In this honest, beautifully written and hopeful exploration of a different kind of mothering, Elle explores how she navigated a parenthood that no one had prepared her for.
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- David McArdle
- 01-01-20
What an amazing lady
I am sorry you had to write this book but thank you. My best friend has loss in her life and I sometimes struggle to know if what I am doing/saying is correct. I feel this book will help me to be a better friend to be more able to be what she wants and needs.
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- Lori-Ann L.
- 21-11-20
Beautifully written!
As a student Midwife I always try to read books relating to birth and a peer recommended this book to me, I knew it would be difficult to listen to and process but I gave it a go anyways. The story was a complete eye opener to me and I felt completely emerged into every chapter. I felt that the story was told from such a unique position and I am ever grateful that the author was able to share with us and help others going through a similar experience.
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- rob c
- 12-10-19
Heartbreaking honest account of living through loss
Just finished this amazing book.
As a bereaved parent this book resonated so much with me
Beautifully written and read by Elle
Teddy is changing the word every day
Thank you for writing this book
#teddyslegacy
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- Kim
- 11-06-21
Amazing
Insightful, amazing, emotional and filled me with hope and love. As friend to a mother who lost her child at 10 days old, this book is what we got her for her first Mother’s Day. After her reading and loving it she said it would be beneficial for us, as her friends to read, so I downloaded the audio book.
It showed me an insight into what my friend may feel but can’t say, it’s helped me with how to communicate openly with her and it’s given me hope for her, our future.
Great read, just make sure you have the tissues at the ready. Being the friend of the mother, teddy’s aunties paragraph touched me a lot. I think these where a great addition to the book and made it for mother’s and the supporters alike.
It brought a whole new level of emotion when I also realise Elle narrated the book herself. Well done on an amazing book/ audiobook.
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- Amazon Customer
- 10-04-21
Inspiring!!
What an amazing tribute to Elle’s precious little boy Teddy. This books gives those who haven’t been through the traumatic experience of the loss of a child an insight into how it must feel as parent and has taught me how to communicate and support others. But also this book would provide huge support for those who have lost a child. Hearing Elle narrate the book adds extra emotion, so grateful to her for sharing her experiences. Would highly recommend Ask Me His Name.
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- Jenny Preston-Griffiths
- 31-08-20
Such a heartbreaking, powerful life story
This book shares the need for people to talk about our children. Such a shame this family had to go through losing their little Teddy. Thank you for your honesty. It became a little therapy for me as I listened to your calming voice.
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- Chloe Barton
- 20-06-20
I dont feel alone anymore
I have gone through a similar experience and this book has helped me so much
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- BAKITA:KK
- 18-03-22
Insightful, moving and very important
my friend's baby recently died, so I listened to this book. I really recommend it for anyone wanting to support and be there for a loved one who's experienced child loss. Love to Teddy and Sasha
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- Tanya Downes
- 18-11-21
incredibly touching
there is no way to describe this book other than incredibly touching. Sadly a close friend of mine's baby was born sleeping at 8 months. this book has not only helped her on her own journey to recovery, but helped me so much with being there for her, with how to communicate with her and how to show how truly sorry and hurt we all are for her. To all the mum's that have lost children, I am sorry.x
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- MPU
- 14-07-20
Massive disappointment
Poorly written, and terribly read. I had such high hopes for this book as it touches a very important subject.
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- jcs55
- 25-04-22
As hard has it is, listen to this book
Did I cry during the entirety of this book? Yes, but it still made me feel more whole. If you have lost your child please give this a listen and you will feel like Elle is one of your friends and you are sharing the experience together. Thank you for sharing this story for Teddy. You and Teddy will live in my heart along with my son Connor.
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- Renny
- 20-05-21
captures so much
My second born, Élodie, lived four days. This book captures so many of the same things I've felt. It's not exactly the same experience of course, but some things about grief and love are universal. I think Teddy is proud of his mom for writing this book.
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- Danielle Rubeus
- 20-12-20
Elle- My Hero
When I downloaded this book I was so scared to read the truth of that she was going to say. I lost my son 4 months ago and had no clue what I was getting into, since finally cracking the cover of the book I have read it three times. Elle is my cheerleader from across the sea. Never did I think a book could be so healing but with every page there was just a little bit more help. Thank you Elle, for speaking up and speaking out