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Unlovable Bastard

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Unlovable Bastard

By: K.A. Merikan
Narrated by: Nathan Kelly
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“This is not the night you die.”

After years of working for a loan shark, Robert is done with blood and violence. All he has to show for it is a bag of money and a lifetime of regrets. There’s no other way out of his line of work than in a body bag.

So Robert decides to die.

But on the night he chooses to seal his own fate, destiny offers him a chance at redemption. When Robert saves a handsome young escort from a terrible death, he has no idea he is setting in motion much more than one last attempt at proving that inside the hardened shell, he is a decent human being.

Charming, quick-witted, and full of smiles, Nathan is all Robert could dream of. He’s also ready to fall into the arms of his gruff protector. Robert, on the other hand, has never been with a man and will first need to fight his own demons if he is to accept that his whole being wants to make Nathan his.

With his former boss hunting them both, time is ticking, and Robert might just not get the chance to decide before it’s too late. More importantly though, Robert will stop at nothing to protect the man who’s made him feel alive again, the man who is the only thing between him and the abyss.

“I never had to think much about death before, but I did yesterday. I thought I would die. In a hole. Covered with dirt. Suffocate underground. But then you saved me.”

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Themes: enemies to lovers, protector, cruelty, homophobia, crime, self-discovery, family conflict, age gap, escort, self-hate, first time, revenge, on the run

Genre: Dark, gritty, M/M contemporary romance

Content: Scorching hot, emotional, explicit scenes

Length: 90,000 words (stand-alone novel, HEA)

Warning: This story contains scenes of violence, torture, mentions of suicide, offensive language, morally ambiguous characters, homophobia, and homophobic language.

©2017 K.A. Merikan (P)2025 Acerbi&Villani ltd
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This story really did have a bit of everything: steamy moments, heart-pounding danger, family bonding, and even a character-centric journey of self discovery. I thought Wyatt Baker did an incredible job with the narration--his emotional delivery made me feel like I was right there with these men as they dealt with the rollercoaster their lives had become.   

I don't know if I would call this romance "dark", but the characters were certainly morally ambiguous. I didn't really like Robert or Nathan when this audio began, but K.A. Merikan won me over as they always do. Despite all the terrible things Robert had to do throughout the story, there was something deeply sad about his lonely life before he met Nathan. Being forced into the closet took a serious toll on him, and watching him take the slow journey towards accepting his sexuality was kinda beautiful. Nathan initially annoyed me, only because he couldn't make up his mind about where his loyalties lay, but once he and Robert started to take their hookups more seriously I could see what a good heart he actually had. As I followed along on their tumultuous adventure, I was surprised by how emotional the romantic connection between Robert and Nathan was. These men had an unconventional relationship, that's for sure, but there were still strong ties that kept them together even when it seemed like the obvious choice to run. I thought the storyline was captivating, the tiny bit of suspense was thrilling, and the bond between Nathan and Robert kept me listening all the way until the very end to see if there was a way for these two very different individuals to make a relationship last.

**I voluntarily listened to a free copy of this book. This review expresses my honest thoughts and opinions.   

Surprisingly emotional for 2 morally ambiguous men

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Merikan has intrigued me with this story. This book is a wild ride for sure. I found this book offered so much in a broad range of emotions. Baker's narration is so dark and threatening that I honestly was drawn so deep into the story line. It is not for the faint of heart.

Delightfully dark

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Unlovable Bastard is a standalone gritty romance between a disillusioned loan-shark thug and an escort in a dangerous situation. Although this is a romance and it has a happy ending, please make sure to read the warnings to make sure this is a book for you. I love dark and gritty romances with dangerous and morally ambiguous characters, but it may not be for everyone.

What an emotional rollercoaster this book was! I loved the tense and edgy relationship between Robert, the ex-henchman, and Nathan the spicy young escort. The action and violence starts right away and leads to a deliciously hot sex scene that burned up the pages. From there, the book never stopped and I loved every single moment. The plot took some unexpected twists and the ending was just *chef kiss* fabulous.

The audiobook was narrated by Wyatt Baker who does such a wonderful job. I loved how he voiced both main characters and it was easy to follow along in the narration. The performance was perfect with just the right amount of energy and emotions to make the audiobook feel dynamic and exciting but not going over-the-top. The audiobook production was well done and altogether it was a smooth and fun listening experience.

We Met In Death…And Fell In Love

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I wasn't expecting this to bee as good but it was. The character development was believable and the story was endearing, I was drawn in and enjoyed it a great deal. I will definitely try other books by this author

Unexpectedly good

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It’s a dark story with a sweet touch and a beautiful ending. Two people meet in a difficult situation and stick together. Robert wants to keep Nathan safe, who can’t help feel attraction for his rescuer, which brings them lot of problems.

I like Robert, his troubles and doubts. So protective. So sweet. Nathan, on the other hand not so much for the first half of the book, he is selfish and stupid, but he made it up later. Chapter 15 is beautiful, what a conversation!

Though it’s difficult distinguishing dialogues from narration sometimes, the narrator is quite good and Robert’s voice is so sexy.

«Nathan was either dumb, had a death wish or was a dream Robert didn’t want to wake up from».

Rollercoaster of emotions

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