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My Thoughts Exactly

Narrated by: Lily Allen
Length: 6 hrs and 37 mins
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Summary

Includes an additional new chapter and exclusive Q&A.

Short-listed for the Specsavers National Book Awards 2018 in Autobiography/Biography.

The number one Sunday Times best seller. 

So, this is me. Lily Allen.

I am a woman.

I am a mother.

I was a wife.

I drink.

I have taken drugs.

I have loved and been let down.

I am a success and a failure.

I am a songwriter.

I am a singer.

I am all these things and more.

When women share their stories, loudly and clearly and honestly, things begin to change - for the better.

This is my story. 

©2018 Lily Allen (P)2018 Bonnier Publishing

Critic reviews

"An unflinching, unputdownable book." (Guardian)

"A fresh, direct voice, used bravely, with nuance and style.... Uniquely candid." (New Statesman

"Allen has a flair for storytelling.... [My Thoughts Exactly] should be required reading for anyone who dreams of fame." (Daily Telegraph)

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A Brutal peek into the world of modern pop music..

I read somewhere that when young school-leavers are asked about their career aspirations, the most popular choice, especially amongst the girls, is “To be a Celebrity”. I think if they read Lily Allen’s book they may think twice.

This is a stinging account of how the pursuit of fame can bring with it serious and unwelcomed outcomes. There’s the media, who pretend to be her friend and then scrape every barrel they can to find a story, even to the point of fabrication, and to hell with anyone who gets hurt in the process. The fallout of this was that Lily became increasingly wary of where she went and what she said, and when the stories kept coming, she became suspicious of her friends and entourage, puzzling over who could possibly be feeding the press their gossip.

As time goes on, her run-ins with the press escalate, and she is openly betrayed by friends and, especially, her first real boyfriend, who dumped her via telephone when she was a struggling nobody, only to re-emerge after her first album became a worldwide hit, and sell his ‘kiss-and-tell’ version of their 18-month relationship to that bastion of truth and fair play, The News of the World.

Whilst it may seem attractive to be followed by photographers everywhere you go, Lily Allen soon shows how this gets old, real quick. If she’s seen with a cigarette in her hand she’s castigated for not being able to quit; If she has a drink, she’s an out-of-control alcoholic; and every male friend she’s seen out with is automatically labelled ‘Her Latest Lover’.

All of this, plus way too much time left on her own in planes and hotel rooms, pushes Lily over the edge, and she decides that if this ‘cartoon Lily’ is what the papers want, then ‘Cartoon Lily’ she will be, and she sets off on a destructive journey fuelled by illicit drugs, drinking and casual sex.

But then she finds she has a stalker, a dangerous mentally-unstable man who has professed he intends to kill her. To her amazement, the papers aren’t interested in this aspect of her life, and worse, the police treat it as a simple robbery escalated by an over-indulged pop star.

A harsh glimpse into the world of paparazzi, glamour and instant fame. Should be mandatory reading in every school…

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Lily Allen .A Lady with big problems

As someone who does not regularly take drugs or cheat on their partner,maybe I am not the right person to comment on this book.
I feel very sorry for Lily about her unhappy upbringing,the way the music industry has treated her and particularly the treatment she had by the police over the stalker.
But I also feel sorry for her ex husband who she treated very badly then appeared to blame for some of her problems.
As a final thought.I wonder what her poor children think of their upbringing and what they will be writing about it in years to come.

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My Thoughts Exactly

I’m not a huge Lily Allen fan, I like a couple of her songs. I purchased this book as I thought I’d see what I could learn about her life as I’d only seen her behaviour as viewed via social media and the press and it looked interesting, I like autobiographies.

The first few chapters are sincere enough, brutally honest even, sounds like she experienced a rather bleak and awful childhood, which nobody would wish on anyone else. Obviously neglected to quite a degree by her parents as a youngster, which has then impacted on her adult life immensely.

The story of her stalker Alex Grey was terrifying, one naturally can empathise with her, and the trauma she experienced during this time must have been appalling.

The story was read well by the author, the writing itself was good, but I was left not with a feeling of what a remarkable and powerful woman and role model Ms. Allen is, but rather with the view that she is in fact the rather self-absorbed person I’d read about.

There was little to no joy or real fun mentioned in the book, I found this sad.

Certainly the author is intelligent, considered and has an interesting back story, but the entire book focuses almost entirely on the author as “the victim”.

I won’t recommend or not recommend purchasing this. I’ve read worse and I’ve read much better.

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refreshingly honest !<br />

It doesn't matter what you think you know about lily Allan this book portray's a story full of heartbreak and anguish. She opens her heart about issues that should never needed to be acknowledged or justified, showing a srength of character and acceptance of uncontrollable human traits that are in us all. she is obviously still trying to find a path to somewhere in her life.
The feisty and outspoken side that we have come to know and love in Lily, is promient in the way she reads this but it definately the mask covering a vulnerable human with an awful story of self betrayal and abuse.

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Good book however Lily's narrating wasn't good

I liked this book but Lily sounds like she's been asked to stand up in class and reluctantly read. You can sometimes hear her sighing as she starts a new paragraph. Her tone is so flat. I even had to slow down the speed as she speaks so fast, it's like she couldn't wait to finish recording the audio. Although Lily has been through some tough times, I found her view on most things all to be quite negative.

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Honest insight but too heavy and downbeat for me

I enjoyed listening to the rollercoaster of Lily’s life and she is very honest about all of the shocking and private challenges she has faced.

However I did feel myself rolling my eyes at a few points because it was very much focussed on the bad, the poor me attitude, and I was relieved when the book was over, which is unusual for me. I think it was just the general negativity that to be honest made me feel like reading it was a chore not a pleasure- harsh but only my true opinion!

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I stopped listening because it's depressing

I feel sorry for her and she's lived through a lot. But it's extremely depressing and her tone is depressing. If you're a fan guess it's interesting but skip if you want an interesting uplifting story.

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Honest and heartbreaking

Wow Brilliant book , first review I have written as normally I can’t be arsed but blown away by the honestly , the openness and bravery of this strong woman who should be so proud of herself

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Beautifully honest book.

Lily is such a strong woman. I would highly recommend buying this book. Thank you very much for sharing your story with us Lily.

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Beautifully brave honesty

At many points this memoir feels like a guttural howl for justice from a culture that has taken so much from this woman. It’s funny, clever and enjoyable.

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  • Tyler King
  • 16-10-18

Deeply Emotional

I was really surprised at the complex and emotional life story Lily tells. The voulnerability in her words and voice and the story of her perseverance and hardships really resonated with me. I highly recommend this book to anyone in a transition or who is having issues they want to work through. Learning from Lily's account of events, in my opinion could really help an individual.

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  • Rachel
  • 06-10-18

Lily is an icon

She is completely honest with herself and you can tell. As she tells her story I can see her growth as a person, woman, mother, wife, etc. love her.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 27-09-18

Honest AF

All about sincerity. Like her songs. Means to me the most. Thank you for sharing

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 08-05-20

Narration great

huge fan of music and person. through all faults we are all just people 🧡

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  • Mer
  • 02-02-20

lacking emotional analysis /depth?

maybe I’m an overthinker, but i feel like my beloved Ms Allen lacks analysis of her life, especially how it has affected her emotionally and how she has endured past it all. this reads/listens so factually to me, and in a lot of ways it made me sad. I dont think she is in touch w her deepest feelings. and that’s ok. i did like her own narration, although at times she sounded very bored like she was just trying to get done.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 04-11-19

Synchronicity

I came across this book at a local bookstore casually after hearing her songs at several places. I’ve been a huge fan of her songs and songwriting in general. She’s very witty and unapologetic even in her book. She conforms to her own ideals and is not just another popstar but above all proves she is a woman, a daughter and a mother. Since I don’t end up finishing hardcovers I invested in the audiobook. Best decision ever. She walks you through her own world in her own words; through good and bad. Very empowering for girls in their 20s. Very inspiring.

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  • Sally Wnek
  • 15-10-19

Your thoughts Lily Allen!

So glad you read it. I’m pretty ADD myself so a lazy reader. It was your story to tell not someone else’s to read. So personal and honest. Warts and all. Enlightening your take on “me too” in the music industry as you’re intertwined for years with x-amount of albums. Never thought about that before. Positive end that you’re still a wip but not destructive and more importantly have a healthy relationship with your girls. Well done Ms Allen I throughly enjoyed the twists and turns of “your thoughts exactly”.

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  • SamCastle
  • 30-09-19

great

love Lily Allen and her music. book is great and listening to her read it even better.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 28-07-19

Exactly

Loved it all, the story, the accent, and the courage of telling all the truths as it is

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  • Shelby
  • 28-06-19

Strong Women

Such a wonderful story and strong woman. I look up to Lily so much. Thank you for sharing your life with the world.