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Summary

Short-listed for the Specsavers National Book Awards 2018 in Autobiography/Biography

The number one Sunday Times best seller. 

So, this is me. Lily Allen.

I am a woman.

I am a mother.

I was a wife.

I drink.

I have taken drugs.

I have loved and been let down.

I am a success and a failure.

I am a songwriter.

I am a singer.

I am all these things and more.

When women share their stories, loudly and clearly and honestly, things begin to change - for the better.

This is my story. 

©2018 Lily Allen (P)2018 Bonnier Publishing

Critic reviews

"An unflinching, unputdownable book." (Guardian)

"A fresh, direct voice, used bravely, with nuance and style.... Uniquely candid." (New Statesman

"Allen has a flair for storytelling...[My Thoughts Exactly] should be required reading for anyone who dreams of fame." (Daily Telegraph)

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refreshingly honest !<br />

It doesn't matter what you think you know about lily Allan this book portray's a story full of heartbreak and anguish. She opens her heart about issues that should never needed to be acknowledged or justified, showing a srength of character and acceptance of uncontrollable human traits that are in us all. she is obviously still trying to find a path to somewhere in her life.
The feisty and outspoken side that we have come to know and love in Lily, is promient in the way she reads this but it definately the mask covering a vulnerable human with an awful story of self betrayal and abuse.

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Beautifully honest book.

Lily is such a strong woman. I would highly recommend buying this book. Thank you very much for sharing your story with us Lily.

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Sad honest helpful

Loved this book especially as it was narrated honestly by Lily herself
A message to all of us

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Wanting more!

My sister sent Lily's audio book to me. I've never finished a book in 2 days before as life gets in the way. I even purchased Bluetooth headphones to listen on my train commute. Loved it, so very sad at times. Write more book please LRA xx

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Beautifully brave honesty

At many points this memoir feels like a guttural howl for justice from a culture that has taken so much from this woman. It’s funny, clever and enjoyable.

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I stopped listening because it's depressing

I feel sorry for her and she's lived through a lot. But it's extremely depressing and her tone is depressing. If you're a fan guess it's interesting but skip if you want an interesting uplifting story.

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My Thoughts Exactly

I’m not a huge Lily Allen fan, I like a couple of her songs. I purchased this book as I thought I’d see what I could learn about her life as I’d only seen her behaviour as viewed via social media and the press and it looked interesting, I like autobiographies.

The first few chapters are sincere enough, brutally honest even, sounds like she experienced a rather bleak and awful childhood, which nobody would wish on anyone else. Obviously neglected to quite a degree by her parents as a youngster, which has then impacted on her adult life immensely.

The story of her stalker Alex Grey was terrifying, one naturally can empathise with her, and the trauma she experienced during this time must have been appalling.

The story was read well by the author, the writing itself was good, but I was left not with a feeling of what a remarkable and powerful woman and role model Ms. Allen is, but rather with the view that she is in fact the rather self-absorbed person I’d read about.

There was little to no joy or real fun mentioned in the book, I found this sad.

Certainly the author is intelligent, considered and has an interesting back story, but the entire book focuses almost entirely on the author as “the victim”.

I won’t recommend or not recommend purchasing this. I’ve read worse and I’ve read much better.

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  • damian
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  • 23-09-18

Honest and heartbreaking

Wow Brilliant book , first review I have written as normally I can’t be arsed but blown away by the honestly , the openness and bravery of this strong woman who should be so proud of herself

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wow

Incredibly honest and brave. Listening to Lily read this in herself made for a very emotional journey.

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Good book however Lily's narrating wasn't good

I liked this book but Lily sounds like she's been asked to stand up in class and reluctantly read. You can sometimes hear her sighing as she starts a new paragraph. Her tone is so flat. I even had to slow down the speed as she speaks so fast, it's like she couldn't wait to finish recording the audio. Although Lily has been through some tough times, I found her view on most things all to be quite negative.

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  • Tyler King
  • 16-10-18

Deeply Emotional

I was really surprised at the complex and emotional life story Lily tells. The voulnerability in her words and voice and the story of her perseverance and hardships really resonated with me. I highly recommend this book to anyone in a transition or who is having issues they want to work through. Learning from Lily's account of events, in my opinion could really help an individual.

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  • Rachel
  • 06-10-18

Lily is an icon

She is completely honest with herself and you can tell. As she tells her story I can see her growth as a person, woman, mother, wife, etc. love her.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 27-09-18

Honest AF

All about sincerity. Like her songs. Means to me the most. Thank you for sharing

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  • Maria
  • 10-12-18

Compelling listen, very well read by Allen

I was impressed with this book. Allen is very insightful and it was fascinating to learn more about her. At times her story is quite dark but difficult material is handled deftly by Allen. She has a way with words and read very well.

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  • Ricky J. Ramirez
  • 30-11-18

Oh wow, a celebrity as human as some of us

This book is shocking, well written, and honest. It covers the bulk of Lily Allen’s career, personal downfall, and uprising. A fantastic read. If you’re a fan, you’ll love her more! If you aren’t a fan, you’ll at best enjoy the book and respect her.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 29-11-18

great book/reading

loved it!! im so happy I got this audio book. I love her as a singer & her book lived up to all my expectations. it was so good to get to know her on a more personal level. I can relate to many things

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  • Anonymous User
  • 22-11-18

Open, honest and brilliant

A true inside view of what life is actually like on the other side of the media. Interesting and Brilliantly read. A true honest and open account, well worth a listen.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 22-11-18

I couldn’t stop listening ♡

She's really connecting to people with this book. I felt so touched and inspired. Lilly Allen, you’re such a strong and awesome human being! I finished the audiobook in a few days. Hugs from Istanbul.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 19-11-18

Amazing

First book I’ve listened to front to end within a weekend. It was moving and motivating and over all real and raw

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  • olsoamy
  • 18-11-18

Interesting as a fan and a woman

I got this book because Lily Allen’s new album No Shame is emotional, well-written, and tells such a story. I was familiar with her vaguely before, but I’ve since become a big fan. She’s a great writer it turns out! This book is a beautiful and deeply personal example. I don’t know how she manages to have such insight into herself, but it inspires me. She also still has managed to be a mess over the years and that is very deeply relatable. Her struggles as a woman in a male-dominated industry are also very relatable and well examined. This is a book that anyone can enjoy.