Chutzpah cover art

Chutzpah

A memoir of faith, sexuality and daring to stay

Preview

Get 30 days of Premium Plus free

£8.99/month after 30-day free trial. Cancel monthly.
Try for £0.00
More purchase options
Buy Now for £12.99

Buy Now for £12.99

About this listen

Brought to you by Penguin.

Yehudis Fletcher was six years old when she decided to find out if there was actually a G-d.

One Sabbath evening, she dared to defy a fundamental rule. She didn’t wash her hands before breaking bread. At the table, Yehudis braced herself for a terrible, biblical punishment: being swallowed by the ground or consumed by fire. But nothing happened.

It was at this moment that she discovered a spark within that would grow to make her invincible.


As the daughter of a rabbi raised in an Orthodox Jewish community, Yehudis struggled to conform to the strict expectations placed upon her and her siblings. Outspoken, curious and desperate to know more about G-d, she felt fenced in by arbitrary rules and questions left unanswered.

As she grew older, these restrictions intensified and her questions for G-d hung heavier than ever. Repeatedly let down by those who were supposed to protect her and pushed on to a path that seemed to take her further away from who she really was, she began to yearn for a life where she could embrace all facets of herself.

When Yehudis’s sexuality came to blows with the expectations of her family and her community, the pressure to inhabit a binary position reached fever pitch. Confronted with either losing the faith she loved or losing herself, Yehudis made the most daring decision of all: she decided to stay.

Wry and exhilarating, Chutzpah is a fearless exploration of what is possible when one person simply refuses to choose between abandoning their roots and abandoning themselves.

© Yehudis Fletcher 2025 (P) Penguin Audio 2025

Biographies & Memoirs Heartfelt Inspiring Memoir

Critic reviews

Yehudis Fletcher is an original thinker armed with clear-sightedness, courage and an extremely dry sense of humour. Her story, written reflections and advocacy have the ability to change communities for the better and empower those who need a roadmap to challenge the lives they’ve been conditioned to live.’
Chutzpah is a brilliant and fascinating insight into an ultra-orthodox Jewish community. Yehudis Fletcher’s story is at the same time painful and inspiring. Despite resistance, she has dared to remain, forging a path for a more enlightened approach to observing Orthodox religion.
A gutting, brave story, written with exquisite candour. Fletcher reaches past the printed page, into the hearts of readers. Chutzpah is a crucial narrative, a story that lifts the shadows off topics that are rarely explored.
A testament to the human will to overcome unimaginable torment. Yehudis’s resilience is truly inspirational. Her story will empower so many people.
Yehudis Fletcher writes compellingly…frank and uncensored…Few are like Fletcher and have the courage to seek a different way.
A beautiful piece of work; I’m so glad this book exists. (Nicole Taylor, BAFTA winning screenwriter of One Day.)
All stars
Most relevant
An eloquent, compassionate and honest account of a very personal journey. I went through so many emotions listening to this book. It had me enthralled.

Absolutely engrossing

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

A true tale of determination and resilience. Very well written. Very touching and informative. A must read

Brilliant book

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

The cover up and even condoning of sexual abuse in closed societies due to an unwillingness to bring that society into disrepute is very wrong as the sanctioning of the whistle-blowers.

This is a thought provoking and at times distressing listen. Great narration by the author.

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

This is a lovely book - a seriously challenging and complex topic which should be a difficult read - but it is handled with humour and honesty. Highly recommended, inspiring read.

Well worth reading

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

I had no idea that Jewish women has to endure such wrong cruelty from the men in their lives in the name of God. There is nothing godly about any of their men’s beliefs or behaviours. And yet the women remain in the faith under the tyranny of these men. Even the rabbis.

Heartbreaking story of a Jewish woman

Something went wrong. Please try again in a few minutes.

See more reviews