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How to Murder Your Life

By: Cat Marnell
Narrated by: Cat Marnell
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At the age of 15, Cat Marnell unknowingly set out to murder her life. After a privileged yet emotionally starved childhood in Washington, she became hooked on ADHD medication provided by her psychiatrist father. This led to a dependence on Xanax and other prescription drugs at boarding school, and she experimented with cocaine, ecstasy - whatever came her way. By 26 she was a talented 'doctor shopper' who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists into giving her never-ending prescriptions; her life had become a twisted merry-go-round of parties and pills at night and trying to hold down a high-profile job at Condé Nast during the day.

With a complete lack of self-pity and an honesty that is almost painful, Cat describes the crazed euphoria, terrifying comedowns and horrendous guilt she felt lying to those who tried to help her. Writing in a voice that is utterly magnetic - prompting comparisons to Bret Easton Ellis and Charles Bukowski - she captures something essential about both her generation and our times. Profoundly divisive and controversial, How to Murder Your Life is an unforgettable, charged account of a young female addict so close to throwing her entire life away.

©2017 Cat Marnell (P)2017 Random House Audiobooks Addiction & Recovery Mental Health Awareness Women Substance abuse Inspiring Health Mental Health

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absolutely love this book, i felt i was there! such a true realistic book that helps no end about the downfalls in your life. thank you

stephanie slater

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I had never heard of Cat Marnell before this book. As the story began I wondered whether I would find much to like about this, in her own words, extremely privileged girl's life. A life so rarified it was a million miles from.my own. And yet... there was so much I identified with. Her story is dark, light, funny and devastating. I also loved the narration, by the time the book had finished I was frantically you tubing videos of Cat because I'd fallen in love with her flippant delivery and cheery Clueless style speech. These are the kind of memoirs I want, honest, raw and with a resolution that echoes the author's own truth rather than some pat little conclusion we would wish for her.

addictive listening

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I've listened to 50+ Audible audiobooks and this is by far my favourite. I listened to it about a year ago (and twice again since then) and it still sticks with me. It has serious Bret Easton Ellis vibes. I love the story and how it doesn't come to the conclusion you would expect.

The best audiobook I've listened to

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Remarkably engaging. Cat's behaviour and lifestyle is sometimes so appalling, but I couldn't help loving her and this audiobook. I hope she does get clean in future though.

Didn't expect to love this!

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great, personable and lively performance. If you find the situations relatable, it's fun and helpful to hear another cursed soul grinding through it.

easy to listen too.

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