Fascinated by the Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix Paradigm Shift

Fascinated by Design — Episode 5

Episode Description

It's been a while. After a summer of transitions, Suzanne is back to talk about the emerging energy of the Cross of the Sleeping Phoenix — and how it's already showing up in her own life. A somatic "no" around self-sacrifice. A pull toward present-moment awareness so strong it changed how she answered a simple question about her own birthday party. A growing resistance to the licensing structure that governs her profession.

This is Suzanne's own puzzle piece — one person's read on a pattern she's tracking, not a finished map. She's sharing it so you can hold it up against your own experience and tell her what fits and what doesn't. That's the point: her sense of these patterns is only as good as the feedback that comes back from the collective. If something in this episode lands, or lands wrong, she wants to hear about it — that's how the map gets more accurate.

Along the way: current transits activating three of the four gates in this cross, a seven-year pattern going back to 2012, and a different lens for the women in her practice who keep wondering if they're on the autism spectrum.

What's Covered

• [00:00] Intro — welcome back after the summer, and why this episode took a few extra weeks to finish
• [01:00–06:00] Gate 52, the cross of service, and a new somatic "no" around self-sacrifice — plus ayni, the practice of reciprocity
• [06:00–10:00] Wanting more self-authority in her career, and frustration with the restrictions of clinical licensure
• [10:00–13:00] The "still mountain" of present-moment awareness — and the birthday party story that shows what it looks like in real life
• [13:00–19:00] A different lens on the women who wonder if they're on the autism spectrum — masking, unhealthy early models, and the difference between a diagnosis and a paradigm shift
• [19:00–23:00] How current transits (Uranus on Gate 20, the nodes on Gates 55 and 59) map onto everything she's describing
• [23:00–29:00] Tracking the pattern back to 2012, the ascension era, and the COVID awakening of divine feminine energy
• [29:00–36:00] Radical acceptance, letting go of ranking ourselves against each other, and why decentralization feels like the way forward

Quotable Moments

• "I'd rather be honest and confusing than agreeable and fake."
• "One framework says there's something wrong with your neurological wiring. The other says something is waking up."
• "What if the language these women are searching for already exists, and it just isn't mainstream yet?"
• "This is my puzzle piece. Put yours next to it, and let's see the bigger vision together."

Tell Suzanne What Lands

This episode is one person's read on an emerging pattern — and patterns only get sharper with feedback. Suzanne wants to know what's showing up on your puzzle piece: what resonated, what didn't, what felt off. Email her at suzanne@soulbloomcoaching.com, or connect on Instagram or Facebook. Even the parts that don't make sense yet are welcome.

And as always: be mindful what you create, and be good to yourself.

Embodying My Collective Energy and Open G Center

What does it actually look like to stop performing and start living your design? In this episode, I get personal about the patterns that kept me behind a mask for most of my life — and the moment in a shamanic leadership training that changed everything.

I share what it's been like since launching this podcast, why the first two episodes felt slightly off to me, and the specific mechanics of my chart — my open G center, my two defined channels, and my collective energy — that finally made it all click. Including why creating this podcast wasn't just a good idea. It was an inevitability.

In This Episode

• What happened at a shamanic leadership training that cracked me open in front of a room full of people
• The lower expressions of the Channel of Acceptance (17-62) and Channel of Judgment (18-58) — and how I lived them out making the first two episodes
• Why collective energy doesn't land when transmitted one-on-one, and what that means for how I'm built to share
• The open G center confusion that caused multiple false starts with this project
• How my open G might actually be an asset in transmitting collective energy
• Why this podcast is the logical completion of 20 years of pattern recognition

Your Chart Mentioned

Curious about the mechanics I reference? You can view my Human Design chart here: https://soulbloomcoaching.com/my-design

I Want to Hear From You

This is a conversation, not a broadcast. The logical circuit I carry requires testing, refining, and sharing — and I can't complete that loop without feedback.

• What landed for you in this episode?
• What patterns have you been able to bring into your own life?
• If you're an HD enthusiast and something in my chart sparked a question or insight, I want to hear it.
• Have a pattern you'd like me to explore? Invite me.

Stay Connected

If something here resonated, come find me. I'll be sharing opportunities for deeper connection — including an intimate women's retreat and a couples retreat — with my mailing list first. Spaces will be limited intentionally.

When you join, you'll also receive my free Sacred Discomfort guide as a thank you.

👉 soulbloomcoaching.com/sacred-discomfort

Until next time — be mindful of what you create.

✨ Episode 3 — I'm Invited! Why You Stay Stuck (and What It's Really Protecting You From)

A listener reached out and invited me to explore one of the most common struggles I hear about — addiction, numbing, avoidance, and staying small in habits that no longer serve you. This episode is my answer.

I bring in my full toolkit here: behavioral science, psychology, and the spiritual and energetic frameworks I use in my coaching and shamanic work.

🌱 In this episode we explore:

• Functional analysis — the behavioral framework for understanding why any habit persists

• The role of skill deficits, emotional avoidance, and limiting beliefs in keeping you stuck

• Why your brain is motivated to maintain the stories you've built your identity around

• The shadow and light of the Fool archetype

• Energetic and ancestral patterns that operate beneath the level of mindset work

• The spiritual dimension of addiction — and why 12-step programs begin with surrender

• Positive vs. negative reinforcement — and how to find the hidden gift in a habit you want to release

• A personal story about identity, bankruptcy, and what it takes to let go of who you thought you were

• Why self-compassion and curiosity are not soft alternatives — they are the mechanism of change

💫 "If a behavior persists or increases in frequency, it is being reinforced somehow. You just can't see the way that it's serving you yet. So let's dig deeper."

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🌸 Free resource mentioned: Sacred Discomfort guide

soulbloomcoaching.com/sacred-discomfort

Want to invite me to answer your question on the podcast? Email suzanne@soulbloomcoaching.com with the subject line: Invited

I'd love to hear what's resonating for you — drop a comment and let me know.

be mindful of what you create 🌿