Embodying My Collective Energy and Open G Center

What does it actually look like to stop performing and start living your design? In this episode, I get personal about the patterns that kept me behind a mask for most of my life — and the moment in a shamanic leadership training that changed everything.

I share what it's been like since launching this podcast, why the first two episodes felt slightly off to me, and the specific mechanics of my chart — my open G center, my two defined channels, and my collective energy — that finally made it all click. Including why creating this podcast wasn't just a good idea. It was an inevitability.

In This Episode

• What happened at a shamanic leadership training that cracked me open in front of a room full of people
• The lower expressions of the Channel of Acceptance (17-62) and Channel of Judgment (18-58) — and how I lived them out making the first two episodes
• Why collective energy doesn't land when transmitted one-on-one, and what that means for how I'm built to share
• The open G center confusion that caused multiple false starts with this project
• How my open G might actually be an asset in transmitting collective energy
• Why this podcast is the logical completion of 20 years of pattern recognition

Your Chart Mentioned

Curious about the mechanics I reference? You can view my Human Design chart here: https://soulbloomcoaching.com/my-design

I Want to Hear From You

This is a conversation, not a broadcast. The logical circuit I carry requires testing, refining, and sharing — and I can't complete that loop without feedback.

• What landed for you in this episode?
• What patterns have you been able to bring into your own life?
• If you're an HD enthusiast and something in my chart sparked a question or insight, I want to hear it.
• Have a pattern you'd like me to explore? Invite me.

Stay Connected

If something here resonated, come find me. I'll be sharing opportunities for deeper connection — including an intimate women's retreat and a couples retreat — with my mailing list first. Spaces will be limited intentionally.

When you join, you'll also receive my free Sacred Discomfort guide as a thank you.

👉 soulbloomcoaching.com/sacred-discomfort

Until next time — be mindful of what you create.

✨ Episode 3 — I'm Invited! Why You Stay Stuck (and What It's Really Protecting You From)

A listener reached out and invited me to explore one of the most common struggles I hear about — addiction, numbing, avoidance, and staying small in habits that no longer serve you. This episode is my answer.

I bring in my full toolkit here: behavioral science, psychology, and the spiritual and energetic frameworks I use in my coaching and shamanic work.

🌱 In this episode we explore:

• Functional analysis — the behavioral framework for understanding why any habit persists

• The role of skill deficits, emotional avoidance, and limiting beliefs in keeping you stuck

• Why your brain is motivated to maintain the stories you've built your identity around

• The shadow and light of the Fool archetype

• Energetic and ancestral patterns that operate beneath the level of mindset work

• The spiritual dimension of addiction — and why 12-step programs begin with surrender

• Positive vs. negative reinforcement — and how to find the hidden gift in a habit you want to release

• A personal story about identity, bankruptcy, and what it takes to let go of who you thought you were

• Why self-compassion and curiosity are not soft alternatives — they are the mechanism of change

💫 "If a behavior persists or increases in frequency, it is being reinforced somehow. You just can't see the way that it's serving you yet. So let's dig deeper."

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🌸 Free resource mentioned: Sacred Discomfort guide

soulbloomcoaching.com/sacred-discomfort

Want to invite me to answer your question on the podcast? Email suzanne@soulbloomcoaching.com with the subject line: Invited

I'd love to hear what's resonating for you — drop a comment and let me know.

be mindful of what you create 🌿

When I've experienced a polarity as a binary — all surrender, no action; all acceptance, no change — I get stuck. I go to one extreme and stay there.

And that extreme, however spiritual it looks, creates its own kind of suffering.

In this episode of Fascinated by Design, I'm sharing one of the most fundamental polarities I know: we are both the created and the creator. Not one, then the other. Both at once.

I share what a personal ayahuasca experience revealed about the limits of my creative power — the guideposts that feel like non-negotiables in a lifetime, and the wide-open spaces in between where we actually get to choose.

I talk about the shadow side of surrender: what it looks like when spiritual language becomes a sophisticated way to wait.

And I share what it looked like to hold grief and a quieter knowing simultaneously when my father was dying — living Ram Dass's framing of Buddha consciousness alongside the bleeding heart of Christ in real time.

I also get into what I call acting into being — why trust isn't something you wait to feel. It's something you build by living from it before the evidence arrives.

This isn't about graduating from the created into the creator. It's about holding them simultaneously, and what that actually looks like in a life.

The oldest philosophical traditions in the world have been pointing at this for thousands of years. The invitation is just to play it consciously.

In this episode: The difference between binary thinking and dialectical thinking — and why it matters more than most people realize.

What my ayahuasca experience taught me about creative power and its real limits.

The shadow side of surrender, and how to recognize it in yourself.

"As within, so without" — not as a concept, but as mechanics. What it actually means that your inner state is creating your lived experience.

Why people fear stepping into their creative power, and what's underneath that fear.

What acting into being looks like when you're living it, not just understanding it.

Reflection question for the week: How do you want to use your creative power?

If something landed for you, or there's a question you'd like me to explore, send it to suzanne@soulbloomcoaching.com with "invited" in the subject line — that's your ticket into a future listener Q&A episode.

And if you haven't yet picked up the Sacred Discomfort Guide — it's free at https://soulbloomcoaching.com/sacred-discomfort. Everything we explored today about honoring what you feel as the foundation of creator work — that guide walks you through it as a lived practice.

Until next time — be mindful of what you create.