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White Lines

A Rugby Life Broken and Rebuilt

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By: Ryan Caldwell
Narrated by: Mark Ryder
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'A phenomenal book. It is going to be the biggest sports book of the year' Tommy Bowe

'White Lines ... might just be the sporting autobiography of the year. It's a gripping read, full of sobering insights into professional rugby and life' The Guardian

'Drips with authenticity and takes "warts and all" to a whole new level' Irish Independent

'This compelling document will surely be on the shortlist for sports biography of the year' RTÉ Guide

From the roar of packed stadiums to the silence of a prison cell, White Lines is the blazing true story of Ryan Caldwell - former Ulster, Ireland and Premiership rugby player - whose fall from grace nearly cost him everything.

Once hailed as a towering enforcer on the pitch, Caldwell lived for the game - until injury cut his career short. Here, he charts the highs, the collisions and the culture of professional rugby, and the spiral into depression and addiction that brought him to the edge of existence.

What follows is a raw, unforgettable journey, into the heart of the Amazon jungle and across the rugged terrain of healing, as Ryan confronts the pain buried beneath his rugby persona and begins to rebuild.

Raw, honest and often shocking, White Lines is a story about rugby, identity and the fight to rise from the wreckage of a career built on brutality and brotherhood. A powerful tale of redemption, resilience and courage.©2026 Ryan Caldwell (P)2026 Hachette Books Ireland Sports Rugby Emotionally Gripping
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White Lines ... might just be the sporting autobiography of the year. It's a gripping read, full of sobering insights into professional rugby and life
A phenomenal book. It is going to be the biggest sports book of the year
Drips with authenticity and takes 'warts and all' to a whole new level
Raw and revealing memoir ... this compelling document will surely be on the shortlist for sports biography of the year
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Brilliantly read, this book is the audio equivalent of a complete page turner. Ryan Caldwell's story is honest, direct, hard-hitting - it's got the street punch of an Irvine Welch novel and the field punch of real life in the ruck: raw, gritty and sometimes lands with deadly attack.
Caldwell took back his life after rugby left him washed up while still a young man. He owns his mistakes, spills his guts, shows the good and bad of elite sport, and manages plenty of wry northern humour on the way. This is surely not just one of the sports books but one of the books of the year, brilliantly read by Mark Ryder.

A compulsive account - love, like or hate rugby, you'll love this book.

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the candidness of the story allied with Ryan's dark self-depreciating humour at times....there was alot of resonance...and then the eureka moment that changed it all...a great....at times scary and very soul-touching book...sports book of the year

Candid resume of the reality of a professional sportsman and what the sacrifices brought

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Incredibly well told, manages to blend incredible insight into rugby plus the struggles, trials and triumphs of Ryan. Brilliant fast paced, unputdownable with a rare honesty and wit.

Would highly recommend to all

Amazing Story.

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I was completely hooked to listening to this journey of someone’s life. A life that against all odds was a total disaster, a failure, the self destruct button had been pressed so many times but the grip of the story to find how he turned his life around was compelling. I was so curious as to how Ryan managed this from a place of zero hope . I knew he had because of the title of the book. I am so proud of him, I am so glad he succeeded and found contentment in life. I’m also so pleased for him that through his breathing and yoga work he will be able to help others that are troubled and others that go because they like the practice of breathing. Most of all I think Ryan Caldwell can be a beacon of hope for anyone who thinks that there’s no hope and to the families that are badly affected by a family member who has gone off the rails to show them there is hope and to hand in there. Amazing Ryan, well done , you’re an incredible human being!

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I'm surprised how brutally honest author is but this is a very very enjoyable listen

unapologetically brilliant

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