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Where Am I Now?

True Stories of Girlhood and Accidental Fame
Narrated by: Mara Wilson
Length: 7 hrs and 22 mins
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A former child actress best known for her starring roles in Matilda and Mrs. Doubtfire, Mara Wilson has always felt a little young and out of place: as the only kid on a film set full of adults, the first daughter in a house full of boys, a Valley girl in New York and a neurotic in California, and a grown-up the world still remembers as a little girl. Tackling everything from what she learned about sex on the set of Melrose Place to discovering in adolescence that she was no longer "cute" enough for Hollywood, these essays chart her journey from accidental fame to relative (but happy) obscurity. They also illuminate universal struggles, like navigating love and loss and figuring out who you are and where you belong. Honest, insightful, and hilarious, Where Am I Now? introduces Mara Wilson as a brilliant new chronicler of the experience that is growing up young and female.

©2016 Mara Wilson (P)2016 Penguin Audio
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Exceptional on all sides.

Like many of my peers, I grew up with Mara Wilson. She was the iconic little girl we all fell in love with and were heartbroken when she walked away from acting - reading this book has been a revelation, I have waited many years to hear her story and now I feel I love her more for it. Read by Mara herself, this book is an incredible listen, a greater read and the story of a life riddled with insecurity.
Highly recommended.

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Charming

Spoke to me on so many levels. Maria Wilson is insightful, articulate and a great story teller. Her voice was wonderful and I would love to hear more audio books narrated by her!

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A breath-taking window

I stumbled across this book only a few days before her book came out. Surprisingly, I was passing along memory lane, on Movie Nostalgia drive so Mathilda was a fair choice to revisit. After seeing a few links about Mara talking about her experiences, about her being a writer now, obviously the book would pop up. To my surprise, it was also available here at Audible and even more so, read by Mara herself. So it was a no-brainer to get it pre-ordered.

Starting into this, I have to say I am not a fan of autobiographies. The only one I've ever read was on Edgar Allan Poe. So this is still relatively new territory for me. But having Mara Wilson's voice read to me the exact words she had written is... soothing. Both in delivery and the actual voice. There's a certain peace to it, but still a kind of excitement that cannot be replicated. Had anyone else recorded this it would have lost it's own brand of magic.

I'll be frank, I forget plenty. I do not follow people's lives in the tabloids or the net. So hearing Mara's life story was refreshing, heart-breaking, exciting. But most of all, some of the experiences were eerily familiar. Her experience as a child with thoughts of Death, the effect that came of it. It resonated.

Her own letter to Mathilda was by far the strongest, most emotional chapter.

So yes. This book is definitely worth your time. It is worth listening to.

Thank you, Mara Wilson, for your time as well. You are an absolute complete bad-ass.

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Really enjoyed this book

Listened to this in less than a week, great book and well read. I would recommend.


To the author Mara Wilson,
Being 28, I was a child when you were a child actor I loved all the films you were in. Maltida was one of my favourite films and we watch it over and over, it inspired me to read the book, my first proper book I choose to read. It was really interesting to hear your thoughts as the actor and how you grew up, it took me back to being a kid and I could relate. I never had thought about the actor behind the characters I loved, and I am sorry. Maltida inspired me as a kid her character and the way you played her made me strong and happy and hope you see your experience as similar. It was so great to her your story and now your inspiring me to write my story!

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Moving and inspirational book.

I grew up watching Mara Wilson on screen and, as many probably did, I assumed that she led a blessed and problem free life. This book opened my eyes to the fact that not everything is so simple and even those who appear to have everything may be living a completely different life behind closed doors. I highly recommend this book, it shows how Hollywood can turn on a child overnight and leave them feeling lost and past their prime at such a young age. Wilson shows the lengths it took her to overcome her fame and thrive in the world as an 'ordinary' adult.

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Overall OK

Was expecting more about here experiences working on her now most famous films and my childhood favourites but was a little disappointed when chapter after chapter she went on about random stuff. But its worth a listen and there are some behind the scene stuff about her experiences in film.

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eye opening

very eloquently written and often moving. well done Mara for being so honest and vulnerable.

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One of the best autobiographies of today

Mara is best known for her child acting but as she demonstrates here she is likely to be remembered for her wicked writing. Her book is simultaneously hilarious and heart wrenching- covering everything from learning about sex on the set of Mrs Doubtfire, the politics of high school show choir, her mother's death while filming her most iconic role in Matilda and how child actors are objectified by the media. A book that everyone should experience.

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A great listen

What a great listen! The ins and outs of a childhood actor and how she grew up with the highs and lows of fame. A must for any fan and for fans

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<br />K - kid on set

I could not put this book down; hearing her read her stories through this audio platform was even better than I had imagined. I was rollercoastering through emotions, and wanting to hear more. 'Where Am I Now' by @MaraWilson; it's awakening my inner child. Capturing the time period, & what it's like deciphering the adult world as a child. Mara Wilson can I have my heart back please? #WhereAmINow #mustread

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  • tiffany alzatti
  • 13-10-16

She described the first ten years of my life.

What made the experience of listening to Where Am I Now? the most enjoyable?

I think it put forth a third layer to the entire experience.

What other book might you compare Where Am I Now? to and why?

My initial thought was to compare her to Mindy Kayling, just because they describe their life and what they remember about their youth so vividly, but Mara has a depth to her that made me understand that all of the repressed anxiety I had at such a young age could be rationalized by me as an adult.

What does Mara Wilson bring to the story that you wouldn’t experience if you just read the book?

If I just read the book, I wouldn't be able to compare Mara Wilson's voice to whoever voices MTV's DARIA, and think - wow, this is what my inner voice sounds like - Matilda, all grown up.

Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

It was the moment she said her mother died on the set of Matilda. My heart broke.

Any additional comments?

I wholeheartedly believe that the credit or the cash is worth listening to Mara and her honest representation of not only girlhood, but girlhood as a child star. I think her wit and wisdom are beautiful partners to her honesty and maturity. She is a wonderful storyteller.

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  • Tyler A.
  • 21-10-16

Matilda wrote a book!

Lovely book by a very thoughtful person. I found her honesty touching without being too self satisfying. Her sadder stories were told sensitively and her funnier stories were thoughtfully funny. I really enjoyed it.

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  • M. Boyer
  • 28-12-16

Mara wins my heart

Like a lot of people, I will forever associate Mara Wilson with Matilda, but now I will also associate her as a talented writer. I follow Mara on Twitter and she is usually good for several laughs a day, as well as some good political commentary. When she announced that she had been writing a book, my inner autobiography loving whore got in line. I can’t help myself. I want to read them all!

I was floored, brought to tears on multiple occasions, and in awe of her perseverance through things that would have shredded another human. As a writer myself, the one thing I hope to do is reach out and move my readers for the better. Ther was a story Mara tells, about her battle with OCD and a book that she read which changed her life. It gave me chills. Mara read a book about a teenager with OCD and she knew for the first time, she wasn’t alone in her battle instead, she now knew what it was called. She was able to find answers and help and it started with a novel called KISSING DOORKNOBS. Mara addresses mental health in her book with grace. I imagine that there is some girl or boy who will read her novel and understand for the first time that they are not alone.

Mara talks about working on Matilda, and Mrs. Doubtfire. What it was like losing Robin Williams, someone who she’d looked at as a father figure. Mara’s often self-deprecating humor spot on. I was cheering for her when she found her muse, and crying when she lost her mom. I enjoyed every moment of this book and only wished that it was a bit longer.

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  • Mea_33
  • 15-09-16

I Couldn't Put Mara's Book Down...!!!!

"Where Am I Now ?" Is Funny, Sad, Thought Provoking And Warm-Hearted...!!!! Loved Reading It...!!!!

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  • Ashley Vomund
  • 11-10-16

Mute Power

A powerful, thoughtful piece read brilliantly in the tranquil, quiet voice of Mara Wilson. I listened to it for the 14 hours I drove as I moved to a new city, and at the end I felt like I said goodbye to an old friend and hello to a new world. I recommend to anyone who has felt out-of-place or lost.

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  • Kristi Wolfe
  • 05-06-17

Fantastic

If you could sum up Where Am I Now? in three words, what would they be?

Interesting, relatable, humorous

What was one of the most memorable moments of Where Am I Now??

Her describing her problems with relationships and her mental/emotional struggles.

Which character – as performed by Mara Wilson – was your favorite?

Mara Wilson herself

Did you have an extreme reaction to this book? Did it make you laugh or cry?

there were many parts, which may not have been intended to be funny but the way she explains things or parts she recalls of conversations shes had with people are humorous.

Any additional comments?

Recently I decided to try audible because I had gotten new headphones and thought it would be a cool idea to listen to a book as I was doing other things. I initially was going to choose a comedian thinking it would be funny and they'd be able to keep my interest. however, when listening to samples of books mara's was the only one that wasn't monotone and seemed like something i'd be interested in. boy, was I right.

I always liked Mara's movies growing up (Matilda, Mrs. Doubtfire, and A simple wish) So i was familiar with whom she was. But it was fantastic to hear her side of her story. During and before/after being a child star. I was surprised when she would talk about her personal problems she had dealt with (relationships and mental/emotional problems). Many times listening I could relate completely and it seemed more like just listening to a friend speak. I got a lot more out of this book than what I thought would just be a fun or interesting read. I plan on purchasing this in paperback to keep in my collection and re-read again and again.

Only negative comment, which I notice one other reviewer on here had mentioned is that she does often jump back and forth between current events, when she was a child, or flashbacks. It may be easier to understand in the printed book because things could be sectioned out differently or its broken into chapters which you don't know when the audio is just playing. So, It can get a little bit confusing at points but doesn't take away from the enjoyable book itself.

I would definitely recommend this book to others. Especially teens or younger women in their 20's-30's to remind them "sometimes you're going to mess shit up, and it will usually be okay."

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  • Kindle Customer
  • 22-10-16

confusing.

I found this difficult to follow as there is a lot of jumping in time, talking about when she was a child, then an adult, and back to a childhood story. I cannot understand how the story is put together, the reason for the order of chapter topics. I just stopped to see how much is left in the book and im only on chapter 10 of 18 and I dont think I am willing to continue.

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  • Curtis
  • 24-09-16

great story telling and very powerful,

I feel for Mara and her struggles with anxiety as I have had my own struggles in this area. I wish her the best and look forward to reading more by her or maybe see her in future movies, thank you Mara.

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  • Ruth Kolb
  • 01-11-16

Honest, connecting

I didn't know what to expect from this book, I didn't really look into reviews or synopses. I was so pleasantly surprised by Mara's candor, honesty, and, well, storytelling. Not only did I relate to much of her vulnerability, but she tells her experience so well. These are reflections worth reading.

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  • Spencer Young
  • 20-05-20

Malitda: All Grown up

I can remember back when I saw the younger Wilson dragging a wagon full of books to and from the Library on the silver screen. I'm Some say that it may be a simple goal of an over zealous fan while other's say I need to grow up to meet one of the most prolific child stars that shaped my childhood. however, I believe as Wilson has stated, "We truly never grow up." Where I am now is beautiful reflection of seemingly the only child star of the 90s that staved off the glamour and corruption of Hollywood.

So many facts and nuances that Wilson talked about seemed much like your average person writing a well written memoir about their lifetime up to this point read like a friend talking to you about her life was so relaxing. The Witty and sly one liners she drafted made me laugh, while the story about her mother made me reflect on my own mother's health issues. I almost lost my mother through Pancreatitis in 2016 and much like Wilson in my twenties, I was going through some rough patches in my life. Her words made me reflect on my own life and opportunities that was presented with me. I suffered from depression and perfectionism as well. If I took a failure, I would beat myself up to the point of shaking controllable rage and sadness. "I'm a failure" I would say. However, Wilson sparked something in my brain today as I listened to her journey through adolescences journey of making out to the disastrously gig she had at the Hipster Comedy show. I agree with her, Hipsters are too pretentious.

The timeline jumping was more a stream of consciousness writing which doesn't bother me, I've survived Joyce's Portrait of an Artist. Listening to her voice was so honest and humbling. I didn't know Wilson was suffering like the rest of us in that generation. The aniexty, OCD, depression, and finding just a place in established cliques. I felt like Wilson was not banking on her connections to get by and just living life as normal as a child star could. Self Sabotage is sometimes good to ground us back to earth and I wouldn't lie if I didn't have mental breakdowns like Wilson has suffered through. I know where she was coming from about finding answers to those pressing times in life and Wilson kept reminding me of Daria Morgendorfer. I would love for Wilson to do a voice over or a possible live action Daria skit.

Again, if given the chance to meet Wilson, I would be as humble as I am when I meet famous people, no star struck. I almost told Karl Malone he couldn't park someone during my college days. Mara, if you're reading your reviews, thank you for inspiring people with your movies, your writings, and your charm. I appreciate your dark sense of humor I like it. If our paths were to cross, I would thank you as a person, not as the cute girl with the red ribbon that faced the Trunchbull and survived what was essentially the iron maiden. Highly recommended listen and would re listen again.