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Growing Up on Methamphetamines

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By: Nic Sheff
Narrated by: Paul Michael Garcia
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Nic Sheff was drunk for the first time at age 11. In the years that followed, he would regularly smoke pot, do cocaine and ecstasy, and develop addictions to crystal meth and heroin. Even so, he felt like he would always be able to quit and put his life together whenever he needed to. It took a violent relapse one summer in California to convince him otherwise.

In writing that is raw and honest, Nic spares no detail in telling us the compelling, heartbreaking, and true story of his relapse and the road to recovery. As we watch Nic plunge the mental and physical depths of drug addiction, he paints a picture of a person at odds with his past, with his family, with his substances, and with himself.

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"Garcia delivers a strong and commanding reading that perfectly expresses the rawness of Sheff's most personal recollections….Endlessly memorable." (AudioFile Magazine)

"Garcia becomes Sheff, offering a gritty and raw performance that demonstrates just how dire the circumstances surrounding Sheff's existence really were." (Publishers Weekly)

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Written in first person present tense, the story picks you up and places you behind Nic’s eyes. In his head, you see the thought processes unfold as he justified his actions to himself, and the confusion of trying to do the right thing. Nic is so very relatable. Utterly moving and tragic, the book gave me insight into my own struggles with self love and being a 20-something searching for acceptance.

Excellently performed, the characters came to life.

For anyone who has ever struggled with loving themselves

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I’ve learned a lot from Nic Sheff's searingly open and raw account, as a practicing surgeon I have treated many patients with complications from injecting drugs but this book has opened my eyes to how deeply people can get caught in their dependency and to some of the precipitating and perpetuating factors including deep feelings of inadequacy or even self-loathing and I hope that I can be more empathetic to such patients in future based on my better understanding. I was moved by this book.

Moving and educational

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Nic Sheff does exactly that in this brutally honest memoir which compliments his father's own memoir - Beautiful Boy.
Whilst sometimes appearing a spoiled wasting brat - Nic Sheff also manages to bare his soul in this tumultuous memoir. At times rambling and undoubtedly written in maybe more detail than it is reasonable to expect - Nic nevertheless manages to ask us to look into our own imperfect selves before casting any kind of judgement.
I for one am pleased he seems to have kicked his 'past' demeanors firmly into the past where they belong and hope he has the strength to maintain sobriety for his own sake as well as for his family's sake.
Compelling!

Baring / Bearing it all

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Sensitive traumatic account authentically written and narrated.

Particularly intrigued by his treatment and its wider relevance.

Wonderfully detailed and Intimate

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Really loved this book and equally it’s narrator, Paul Michael Garcia, who fluctuated brilliantly between characters without sounding like he was forcing an accent. Nic’s story is so interesting and his emotions so believable. I felt so sad for his parents having to constantly put their lives on hold through every relapse - they obviously did their very best to raise him so creatively and articulately. LA life certainly sounds full of total shallow pricks!

Touching, beautifully written, teary

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