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Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me

Depression in the First Person

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Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me

By: Anna Mehler Paperny
Narrated by: Tess Degenstein
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SHORTLISTED FOR THE HILARY WESTON WRITERS' TRUST PRIZE FOR NONFICTION

Award-winning journalist Anna Mehler Paperny's stunning memoir chronicles with courageous honesty and uncommon eloquence her experience of depression and her quest to explore what we know and don't know about this disease that afflicts almost a fifth of the population--providing an invaluable guide to a system struggling to find solutions. As fascinating as it is heartrending, as outrageously funny as it is serious, it is a must-read for anyone impacted by depression--and that's pretty much everybody.

Depression is a havoc-wreaking illness that masquerades as personal failing and hijacks your life. After a major suicide attempt in her early twenties, Anna Mehler Paperny resolved to put her reporter's skills to use to get to know her enemy, setting off on a journey to understand her condition, the dizzying array of medical treatments on offer and a medical profession in search of answers. Charting the way depression wrecks so many, she maps competing schools of therapy, pharmacology, cutting-edge medicine, the pill-popping pitfalls of long-term treatment, the glaring unknowns and the institutional shortcomings that both patients and practitioners are up against. She interviews leading medical experts across Canada and the US, from psychiatrists to neurologists, brain-mapping pioneers to family practitioners, and others dabbling in strange hypotheses--and shares compassionate conversations with fellow sufferers.

Hello I Want to Die Please Fix Me tracks Anna's quest for knowledge and her desire to get well. Impeccably reported, it is a profoundly compelling story about the human spirit and the myriad ways we treat (and fail to treat) the disease that accounts for more years swallowed up by disability than any other in the world. Mental Health Mental Health Awareness Mood Disorders Personal Development Psychology Psychology & Mental Health Funny Heartfelt

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Incredibly useful information about different treatment options available, that may or may not work and even more helpful to know that suicidal people are not alone in feeling this way. Wonderfully written, with great honesty and very interesting information.

Wonderfully written.

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I feel like this should be the start of a series with each book dedicated to various types of mental health conditions.
Although I have already come to terms with and on steady meditation that works for my bpd this has helped me understand it so much more and this book is so relatable I’d recommend anyone who suffers with or helps care for someone with mental health struggles to help them understand more.

Made me more at ease with my own mental health issues

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This book is very good for the depressed to see that many people actually do go through the same silent feelings they do. To hear it is a illness for once and hear it explained in black and white. Depression is a killer but who has it on a long term knows how people just think you WANT to hold on into it and should just shake it off.
I will also recommend this book for all those who never had depression and just cannot understand how it is an illness. Also for any parent. It’s horrific to think of kids killing themselves. I admit I heard that part while doing other things to not get too deep into it as got two primary school children myself and it’s super scary. All in all a well written book with good storyline.

Very good book ! Will recommend

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My closest friend does not understand why I listened to this, and why I said how interesting it was.
I will continue to listen to this audible book many more times, each time I listen to it again, I hear something new.
Terrific book.
So helpful, especially on the whole SSRI debacle.

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