Closeted

My Life as a Gay BYU Student: A Memoir

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Closeted

By: Jonathan Alder

Narrated by: Jonathan Alder

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My plan was simple. Serve a full-time mission. Go to college. Get married. Stick it out 'til death.

That’s not what happened.

I began my studies at BYU, hoping to strengthen my faith while I searched for love. That's when I met both Claire and Easton.

Claire was the girl who promised a sure path to eternal marriage, the only cost being my happiness. Easton was the boy who offered a fresh take on life, a temptation that could risk my schooling. I knew who I wanted, and who I was supposed to want.

Reconciling my faith and sexuality was my only goal. But if Bishop Stoll discovered my actions, my BYU enrollment would be called into question.

I had embarked on an honest search for answers, but the fallout of that pursuit would threaten more than my education.

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