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Being Infinite

An Entheogenic Odyssey into the Limitless Eternal: A Memoir from Ayahuasca to Zen
Narrated by: Martin W. Ball
Length: 13 hrs and 58 mins
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In this very revealing memoir, entheogenic researcher, Dr. Martin W. Ball, Ph.D., details his quest for self-discovery, transformation, and liberation into authentic being. His journey takes him through struggles as a graduate student in Religious Studies, an unhappy marriage, explorations of numerous spiritual traditions, and deep into the mysterious realm of entheogens. The tale told here follows Dr. Ball through his practice of Zen meditation, his initiation into Mescalero Apache medicine traditions, use of peyote in the Native American church, ayahuasca and Santo Daime, and the explosive and life-altering event of experiencing five-MeO-DMT with the temple of awakening divinity and his first encounter with the true nature of being as God and universal consciousness.

A pivotal moment comes for Dr. Ball in 2007 at Burning Man, where he finally admits to himself that he is profoundly unhappy. In order to be true to himself and his heart, he must make radical changes in his life and dive headfirst into his quest for self-discovery. What unfolds is a profound and shattering process of uncovering the infinite nature of authentic being and his struggle to accept the reality that there is only God - that all of reality is one universal being of pure energy, love, and absolute awareness.

Dr. Ball has told his story before in bits and pieces, but this is the first time it has all been articulated in one place in an intimate and comprehensive format. Provocative, challenging, and radical, Being Infinite articulates Dr. Ball’s nondual perspective that developed from his entheogenic experiences and the profound transformations they made within his sense of self and understanding of the nature of reality and being. There are many psychedelic memoirs available, but there is nothing else quite like this work that listeners are sure to find engrossing, challenging, and maybe even liberating. It is a story that is both personal and universal, and has profound implications for anyone seeking after deeper self-awareness and authentic being, and lays the inspirational groundwork for anyone who is ready to move beyond being spiritual to simply being true, right here, right now. It is a tale of truth, and a tale of freedom from all self-created limitations and the very important role that entheogens, particularly five-MeO-DMT, have in this profound process.

Anyone who is interested in cultivating self-awareness, exploring entheogens, and moving beyond superficial spirituality will surely find this to be a radical edition to their reading list, and just might open a few eyes and hearts in the process. In the end, there is only One, and the task of each person is to discover this eternal truth for him or herself. It cannot be taught. It cannot be learned. It can only be discovered in the core of each individual’s heart.

©2014 Martin W. Ball (P)2019 Martin W. Ball

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Infinite Being, Infinite Ego

Martin Ball is clearly a smart dude. As well as writing Being Infinite, he composed and performed all the music which ends each chapter. I found his autobiographical oddessy strangely compelling too, as he not only studied with Native American Shamans, but seems to have experienced a huge array of naturally occurring entheogen, including Psilocybin, Ayahuasca, Salvia divinorum, DMT, Peyote and culminating in 5-MeO DMT in his desire to awake to his own divinity.

Having said that, God evidently has a massive ego problem, as the closer Martin gets to realising he is God, and “overcoming ego”, the more dismissive and contemptuous he becomes of all other egos ie. anyone who does not agree with him. Being God means you KNOW reality, and thus any one else’s perspective is obviously just “ego projection”. Even the Buddha, it is revealed, is ‘holding on’ to his ego projections because he sits in the lotus position!

This for me is the central flaw in the book. For ‘Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly’. While Terence McKenna, chief among those accused of “ego projection” is (IMHO) delightfully mischievous, imaginative, humorous, and often self effacing ie. non-egocentric, in “Being Infinite”, Martin Ball seems obsessed with his own messianic status, which lends a tiresome heaviness to the book. There is little room for light, humour, or creativity here. When God speaks through him, it is to pronounce platitudes in a deep ponderous voice, dripping with gravitas. Yet, it never seems to have occurred to Ball to question whether this “God” might be his very own ‘ego projection’.

There is much to find interesting in “Being Infinite” - including the realisation, through use of entheogens, the we are divine, that “We are One Being”. This is what people like Alan Watts were saying 50 years ago. However, for me, Martin’s “God is Energy” comes too close to “God is Power”, rather than “God is Love”. The realisation which more properly leads to looking for the divine in the face of the Other - (eg. friends, enemies, strangers, animals) is consequently left almost unexplored in the book.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 11-05-19

Truly inspirational

The story is almost too incredible to believe. But yet I experience recognition of ultimate Truth that resonates within when hearing this.

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  • Frank
  • 03-05-19

Terrible.

This is in my opinion an autobiography with little detailed discussion about the various medicines.

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  • N. Robinson
  • 31-10-19

Antithesis of 5-MeO-DMT results

Within first 30m I had concluded the author and narrator sounded egotistical, self-absorbed or worse. I have given this the benefit of the doubt, and listened to it all week. Its terrible. For someone who has partaken in the sacred toad medicine, and its ability for self-liberation, the guy sounds like he was not had had any shifts or become any more connected with life and gaia, and released from his ego.

This is an orgasm of egotistical - he uses it as a platform to complain about people for literally 10’s of minutes, to complain about his wife and all sorts of stuff - a real complainer. Not only that, disappointingly, he mentions when he first submitted his Phd dissertation, it was 600 pages long and was rejected by an adviser, saying a) it was way too long (should be max 200 pages) and b) its not academic, its 600 pages about the author and his views. Exactly like this book.

This is not an odyssey into the infinite at all.

I AM DEFINITELY GETTING FED UP WITH AUDIBLE FOLLOWING THE AMAZON MODEL OF LETTING ANY OLD JOE-SCHMOE PUT OUT TRIPE. AUDIO BOOKS SHOULD NOT BE SELF-MADE BY MOST PEOPLE, AND THIS IS NO EXCEPTION. VERY PAINFUL ODYSSEY.

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  • Tony Renfro
  • 02-10-19

Authentic

No Bullshit straight to the truth if you're not open minded do not waste your time. highly recommended.

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  • Cus Fragoso
  • 20-08-19

There are no words...

I could not describe what this book did to me. I can only say thank you Martin! Thank you God.

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  • D. Wells
  • 09-08-19

A Wonderful and fascinating autobiography

The author relates his life in very personal detail.

Fascinating and unusual, of reads like a novel