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  • The true and terrible story of surviving a childhood with Fred and Rose West
  • By: Mae West, Neil McKay
  • Narrated by: Julia Barrie
  • Length: 10 hrs and 47 mins
  • 4.7 out of 5 stars (1,251 ratings)

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Love as Always, Mum xxx

By: Mae West, Neil McKay
Narrated by: Julia Barrie
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Summary

The true story of an abused childhood, of shocking brutality and life as the daughter of notorious serial killer and master manipulator Rose West.

You're 21 years old. Police arrive on the doorstep of your house, 25 Cromwell Street, with a warrant to search the garden for the remains of your older sister you didn't know was dead. Bones are found, and they are from more than one body. And so the nightmare begins. You are the daughter of Fred and Rose West.

'Mae, I mean this.... I'm not a good person, and I let all you children down....' (Rose West, HM Prison Durham)

It has taken over 20 years for Mae West to find the perspective and strength to tell her remarkable story: one of an abusive, violent childhood, of her serial killer parents and how she has rebuilt her life in the shadow of their terrible crimes.

Through her own memories, research and the letters her mother wrote to her from prison, Mae shares her emotionally powerful account of her life as a West. From a toddler locked in the deathly basement to a teen fighting off the sexual advances of her father, Mae's story is one of survival. It also answers the questions: how do you come to terms with knowing your childhood bedroom was a graveyard? How do you accept the fact your parents sexually tortured, murdered and dismembered young women? How do you become a mother yourself when you're haunted by the knowledge that your own mother was a monster? Why were you spared, and how do you escape the nightmare?

Read by Julia Barrie.

©2018 Neil McKay (P)2018 Orion Publishing Group

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A mothers twisted love...

This book has to be one of my top books of 2018. You may feel that there is nothing to be told about Rose and Fred west...your wrong this book does not just tell a well told story but puts on a different slant on this version because it is told through the eyes of her daughter yes the book is harrowing but the story is told against the back drop of her daughter receiving letters from her mum in prison and the journey of trying to heal and understand but not justify her parents crimes. If the narrator was fantastic one of the best I have heard. This is not just about the west murders but also about a need to move forward and try and escape the shadow of their parents crimes. The story is told with amazing candour and I applaud the author for her honesty. I have read one review where someone said that this was not a true account.. Really were they there? I don’t think so ! This is a book that inspires us that the human spirit is a truly an amazing thing. In short if you think you know this story think again not from this angle you don’t!

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Captivating, listening with baited breath. Poor woman, never really thought about the impact the actions of the west’s had on their children until now. Wishing her all the luck for her future

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such a sincere account of a horrific life.

Mae comes across articulate,sincere and honest.Her and her siblings must of faced and still face such hate all because they were children of Evil people.
Truly a remarkable woman,who has fought to be accepted.

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Sad, yet interesting.

Rather disturbing and emotional roller coaster, I'd highly recommend! very brave for writing this book.

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would highly recommend

Really interesting book, would highly recommend. very detailed. your hearts go out to the West's children

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My heart

I never expected the story to unfold as it did. To think that all the things that went on in the house that the kids had no idea about is both shocking and very sad. Life to them was normal to a large extent, yet incredibly unnerving too. The strength of the children shines through. Knowing that they were able to come together at the end, was heartwarming. My love and prayers for a continued peaceful life goes out to them all.

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good and disturbing

a very interesting listen, at times harrowing and difficult to go on but I would recommend for any lovers of true crime! I listened in more or less one sitting!

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i found this very hard to stop listening too. What a remarkable young lady. Gripping and emotional.

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One you can't stop listening to

Couldn't stop listening to this book ! great listen ! Would recommend if you love a true story !

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shockingly unbelievable

difficult to put down very well written and read. unbelievably shocking and sad what those 2 monsters did to their children and other young women. what a very brave woman Mae is to have told her story.

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