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Toxic

Tackling 'Razor' and Finding the Real Me: Shortlisted for Autobiography of the Year at the Sports Book Awards 2025

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Yazan: Neil Ruddock
Seslendiren: Neil Ruddock, Stuart Nurse
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SHORTLISTED FOR AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF THE YEAR AT THE SPORTS BOOK AWARDS 2025

'Extraordinary . . . entertaining and inspiring.' Daily Express

'Neil's book has given me a new-found appreciation of how he used the "Razor" alter ego to mask what he was going through. The recent turnaround in him, both physical and mental, is a revelation.' ALAN SHEARER

'Love Neil Ruddock. One of the old school. He's honest and funny as f**k. A beautiful read and a strong bit of memoir. Well done son.' DANNY DYER

'You think you know "Razor" Ruddock? Well, think again. This is a courageous and fascinating autobiography by my ex-teammate, a book which will inspire so many others to confront their past and change their life.' ROBBIE FOWLER

'Neil has always been the life and soul of the party but I can't tell you how much Toxic has given me a more rounded picture of him. To have the strength and determination to transform his life is a special thing.' ROBBIE WILLIAMS

'Neil's book blew my mind. Now I understand my friend's journey to finally being comfortable in his own skin.' IAN WRIGHT

Neil 'Razor' Ruddock tells the inspiring and uplifting story of how he faced the battle of his life: to become a different person.

In this inspiring and uplifting memoir, Neil Ruddock charts his toxic journey of self-destruction, a path littered with food addiction, plummeting self-confidence and a dangerous relationship with drink which took him to the brink of death.

'Razor' was his caricature of the larger-than-life football hardman, a persona which turned from a natural extension of Ruddock's character to a comfort blanket to smother every mood, every emotion. When his front door closed, the laughter stopped. He was depressed and despairing. Football had institutionalised him. Talking about his inner feelings wasn't an option, owning up to mental health issues was an absolute no-no.

In a remarkable series of confessions, and with his trademark humour and brutal honesty, Ruddock recounts how he spiralled so far out of control that he lost sight of who he really was. No matter how he was feeling, he reached for the same old answer - the mask of 'Razor' and a big night out.

Following the fitting of a pacemaker and drastic stomach surgery, Ruddock has lost nine stones, firmly pressed the reset button on his life, and found the strength to free himself of the shackles of the bloke he thought he needed to be in order to become the man he always knew he was.

Toxic tells the story of how Ruddock faced the battle of his life: to become a different person. No longer does he feel the need to be anything but his true self. As he now says: I'm half the man I used to be, but twice the man I used to be.'©2024 Neil Ruddock Football (Soccer) Mental Health Psychology Psychology & Mental Health Sports Komik İlham verici İyi Hissettiren
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brilliant very, very funny stories.. and some serious heart warming ones too. definitely worth a listen even if you aren't a football fan

outstanding

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Ruddock was told if he continued living the way he was,he would die in within 2 months. This books centres mainly around how he turned his health around and a big part of that was confronting his past and the alter ego he’d created during his Football career. There are several amusing stories from Ruddocks career as a Footballer and subsequent media career,but the main theme is overcoming mental health issues and Ruddock becoming a happier person. For this reason,it’s not your average Footballers book but a great read all the same. Razor Ruddock is obviously a nice man who has had to overcome several issues within his life…fair play to him

Not your average Footballers story

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Made me laugh and do a bloke cry powerful story by a great British hero

Great story

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Remarkable honestly from a great player about his journey and insight into his alter ego “Razor”
Very enjoyable listen and excellent narration with the twist of the south London accent that makes it more enjoyable.

Great Listen

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If you're hoping for a bunch of stories about his playing days and life as a footballer this isn't it, aside from a few anecdotes. It's quite repetitive and talking about razor as the alter ego and mental health so there's an important and valuable message throughout the book and hopefully it will help people who can relate. My biggest issue is with the exaggerated and unnatural cockney accent adopted by the narrator. As someone who grew up in the South East I sruggled to tolerate it at times.

A tad repetitive

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