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Undivided: Coming Out, Becoming Whole, and Living Free from Shame

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Length: 9 hrs and 1 min
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Summary

Vicky Beeching, called 'arguably the most influential Christian of her generation' in The Guardian, began writing songs for the church in her teens. By the time she reached her early 30s, Vicky was a household name in churches on both sides of the pond.

Recording multiple albums and singing in America's largest megachurches, her music was used weekly around the globe and translated into numerous languages.

But this poster girl for evangelical Christianity lived with a debilitating inner battle: she was gay. The tens of thousands of traditional Christians she sang in front of were unanimous in their view - they staunchly opposed same-sex relationships and saw homosexuality as a grievous sin. Vicky knew if she ever spoke up about her identity it would cost her everything.

Faced with a major health crisis, at the age of 35 she decided to tell the world that she was gay. As a result, all hell broke loose. She lost her music career and livelihood, faced threats and vitriol from traditionalists, developed further health issues from the immense stress and had to rebuild her life almost from scratch. 

But despite losing so much she gained far more: she was finally able to live from a place of wholeness, vulnerability, and authenticity. She finally found peace. What's more, Vicky became a champion for others, fighting for LGBT equality in the church and in the corporate sector. Her courageous work is creating change in the US and the UK, as she urges people to celebrate diversity, live authentically and become 'undivided'. 

©2018 Vicky Beeching (P)2018 HarperCollins Publishers

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"Whether you have faith or not, are gay, straight or neither, in a relationship or not, this is a must-read book. Brave, fresh and honest it will help humankind become more humane." (Clare Balding, Broadcaster and Author)

"Stories like Vicky's change the world. This is a wonderful book: it's compelling, moving and profoundly important. It is a beautiful story of personal triumph over toxic homophobia." (Nicky Campbell, Broadcaster and Author)

"This is a life-changing book. Vicky's blisteringly honest account of her painful journey through a world of prejudice challenges us all to look again at 21st century society." (Dr. Brian May, Lead Guitarist from the band Queen)

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Fresh a look

A painful yet powerful journey into a world I have been taught was so wrong, yet now I see is so right. Praise God for the walk with you Vicky and enabling you to bring clarity to us all 💜

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Groundbreaking

Fantastic book written with academic intelligence and a wealth of heart. Definitely worth listening to.

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Just what I needed

What a wonderful story, if also heartbreaking. Gave us theological insight and bible verses to back it up. Thank you!

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A must read

This has helped me understand so much in my journey with God thank you Vicky

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Every Christian should read this book

This is Vicky's powerful memoir of her life as a gay person 'in the closet' as a poster girl in the Evangelical Church, then her very personal account of a very public coming out. It is intensely powerful, well written and very moving.

Tracing Vicky's rather unusual life from childhood to her coming out and beyond, this book is hard to stop listening to. As worship leader and 'poster girl' to the Evangelical Church, Vicky held a deep and difficult secret. Because she loved God and the Church so much, she struggled for years under anti-gay Church teaching, even being part of the system. Eventually unable to cope any more her mental and physical health gave way and the process of her healing and coming out began.

The Church has twisted itself in knots over this issue for years, this book shows the other side of abusive teaching and through her brutal honesty and vulnerability Vicky gracefully invites new thinking. Intwined within the story is an excellent, easily understood distillation of the theology. If you are a Christian I strongly recommend this book, whichever side of the debate you take. If you are a Church leader and haven't read it, you probably need to start thinking of excuses why!

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tearful, heart breaking story a privilege to hear

Clearly an open account of the delema of coming out beautifully told from girl,teen to women. I would have preferred it being read by Vicky. Thank you for sharing your thoughts on church interpretation and teaching which does over many years change. It does make you think. Vicky's many attributes is Love your enemies 😍 and her faith remains which is remakable. Reminds me of apostle James "faith in action" Vicky continues were I would personally close the door on going to church because of the parishioners. Brave!

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The book is well put together and I do sympathise with her struggles. But the book lacks biblical substance, relying more on feelings rather than biblical facts. My advice if anyone is serious about knowing what the Bible has to say on the topic, read the Bible for yourself. After all, it is God who gives the grace to those who have a heart for him.

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Dull and self indulgent

struggled to sympathise. people with far greater challenges and stories then this Ms Beeching. couldn't finish it

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Well done Vicky this is not an easy subject.

Really enjoyed the listen however I did cry in places. I didn't like the use of different accents as this is not a novel but I managed. Thank God for the likes of Steve Chalke and Vicky Beaching standing up in the pro Love movement within Christianity.

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  • 28-01-19

A must read

Whatever age you are this will affect you. If you are a theologian you have something to get your teeth into. If you are suffering from whatever it is this will come alongside you. If you want to see any followers of Christ in the next generation, beyond this paradigm shift you must read this.
Stunning work
Thank you Vicky for your brutal honesty x

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  • 23-07-18

A Memoir that gives hope

I loved this book and liked all about it. I was hooping Vicky to narrate it though.
I give the book five stars because of the exciting real life story together with a deep understanding in booth theology and psychology make it an excellent narrative for every lgbtq+ christian to reflect on.
I recommend the book to every church leader, pastor and youth leader and to lgbtq+ parents.