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The world of beloved influencer, Gemma Fitzgerald, seems ready to implode when the body of her brother, Max – who disappeared 18 years earlier – is washed up on a beach. Everyone thought Max had taken his own life the night of his twenty-first birthday party, but Gemma knows the truth – she is responsible for Max’s disappearance.

With the police bearing down from one side, and her glamorous lifestyle hanging by a thread, it seems the devastating truth is about to destroy Gemma’s life and take her away from her precious little boy.

Gemma has created a dazzling world in trying to forget that fateful night. What if it’s all been a lie?

‘A fresh, assured voice in Irish crime writing’ Andrea Mara

‘Absolutely riveting and eminently readable.’ Liz Nugent

‘A writer at the top of her game … I could not look away until the shocking end.’ Edel Coffey

‘Great writing, gorgeous characterisation and such a plot! I was so deliciously engrossed.’ Marian Keyes

‘I devoured it. So tightly plotted with great characters … it had me on tenterhooks throughout and my nerves were shot.’ Patricia Gibney

‘A compulsive heart-stopping read, that makes you forget to breathe! I couldn't turn the pages fast enough … a gripping, tense, bone chiller of a book that you won't forget.’ Sam Blake

‘A superbly crafted story - a gripping thriller, but also a sensitive and insightful portrayal of guilt and grief. It's both beautifully written and nerve-shreddingly tense. Completely compelling - you won't want to put it down.' Jane Casey

© Gill Perdue 2025 (P) Penguin Audio 2025

Crime Thrillers Mystery Suspense Thriller & Suspense

Critic reviews

Absolutely riveting, entertaining and eminently readable. (Liz Nugent)
Utterly UTTERLY magnificent! Great writing, gorgeous characterisation and such a plot – the pleasure it gave me! I was so deliciously engrossed (Marian Keyes)
A contemporary white-knuckle ride that I could not look away from until the shocking end. My nerves were shredded! It's a brilliant modern psychological thriller with shades of Daphne Du Maurier and Nancy Price. I loved this book (Edel Coffey)
This is a sharply engaging and propulsive crime drama, but what really gripped me was the depth of its characters and their stories. Woven into its deftly crafted plot are moving and poignant tales of love, loss, betrayal and redemption. A truly compelling read (Jake Arnott)
An all too believable look behind the glossy world of the social media influencer in a pitch perfect south Dublin setting . . . both a satisfying mystery and a new twist on the traditional police duo (Sinéad Crowley)
So tightly plotted with great characters, even one I myself wanted to kill! It had me on tenterhooks throughout and my nerves were shot (Patricia Gibney)
Gill Perdue has a real way of seeing into people's minds and hearts, and she's not afraid of the dark (Kitty Murphy)
A twisty, intriguing, clever crime thriller . . . It’s beautifully written, the author’s empathy shining through her characters and her words (Michelle McDonagh)
A dark unsettling mystery, tackling themes of abuse and murder but elevated by the depth of female friendship, old and new. Gill Perdue's ability to capture relationship dynamics is rivalled only by her skill at creating nail-biting tension. Gripping . . . a must-read! (Amy Jordan)
A compulsive heart-stopping read that makes you forget to breathe! I couldn't turn the pages fast enough – a superb, a gripping, tense, bone chiller of a book that you won't forget (Sam Blake)
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Have 'read' all 3 audio books in the Shaw & Darmody series, within a few weeks. Enthralling stories. Super audio productions.

Great storytelling

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Great story, couldn’t stop listening. Loved the twists and turns and the characters were so relatable

Loved the narration especially Ashling!

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I loved the book, the story, the characters, south county Dublin. I especially loved the different characters having their own voices and stories. Jill Perdu is a terrific writer and storyteller

Loved the continuetee of the story, no lull, no time wasting repetition

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Another gripping tale! I love the way the characters are developing from book to book. It kept me enthralled to the very last word. Highly recommended *****

Another gripping tale!

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This is the best so far of the Darmody/Shaw books. I thoroughly enjoyed it as it was so exciting. The characters are brilliant and the whole story pulls you in. Can’t wait for the next one!

Just couldn’t stop listening!

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