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Outofshapeworthlessloser

A Memoir of Figure Skating, F*cking Up, and Figuring It Out

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Outofshapeworthlessloser

By: Gracie Gold
Narrated by: Gracie Gold
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 NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER • A “piercing account” (The Wall Street Journal) of surviving as a young woman in a society that rewards appearances more than anything and demands perfection at all costs—especially if you’re an Olympic figure skater.

“A riveting memoir, which details her experience with an eating disorder, depression and her high-stakes career.”—People

When Gracie Gold stepped onto center stage (or ice, rather) as America’s sweetheart at the 2014 Sochi Olympics, she instantly became the face of America’s most beloved winter sport. Beautiful, blonde, Midwestern, and media-trained, she was suddenly being written up everywhere from The New Yorker to Teen Vogue to People and baking cookies with Taylor Swift.

But little did the public know what Gold was facing when the cameras were off, driven by the self-destructive voice inside that she calls “outofshapeworthlessloser.” In 2017, she entered treatment for what was publicly announced as an eating disorder and anxiety treatment but was, in reality, suicidal ideation. While Gold’s public star was rising, her private life was falling apart: Cracks within her family were widening, her bulimia was getting worse, and she became a survivor of sexual assault. The pressure of training for years with demanding coaches and growing up in a household that accepted nothing less than gold had finally taken its toll.

Now Gold reveals the exclusive and harrowing story of her struggles in and out of the pressure-packed world of elite figure skating: the battles with her family, her coaches, the powers-that-be at her federation, and her deteriorating mental health.

Outofshapeworthlessloser is not only a forceful reckoning from a world-class athlete but also an intimate memoir, told with unflinching honesty and stirring defiance. Body Positivity Mental Health Awareness Sports Winter Sports Health Mental Health Memoir Survival

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“Stunningly candid . . . The depth and breadth of the problems Gold reveals in the memoir stunned me. And the way she has been putting her life back together continues to impress.”—Phil Hersh
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Interesting inside info on the world of figure skating and the changes that are and continuing to be needed in the sport.

Honest and insightful

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Thank you for sharing your story. Very powerful and beautifully written. I would recommend to anyone. I will be recommending this book to everyone

What an incredible story

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Thank you so much Gracie for sharing your story so bravely. This was the book that everyone in the sport needed to read/listen to.

Your work is incredible and I know you have and will help so many. I found your story very inspirational and after listening can’t wait to step back on the ice after a break from the sport.

The book figure skating needed

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Gracie is raw, unfiltered, and so deeply honest that I cried several times listening to this book. The narration conveys the depth of emotions and spiraling out of control in a way that one someone who has really been through it can. I see so much of myself in her story and my heart aches for her. I think everyone should listen to this if they have any interest in sports or mental health. Truly a gem. Gracie, I hear you and I see you.

Heartbreakingly honest

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Fantastic and remarkably relatable memoir from 2 time US National Women’s Figure Skating champion and Olympian, Gracie Gold.
This memoir covers everything - and is not for the faint of heart. Body dysmorphia eating disorders mental health struggles - triumph and tragedy- this young woman has been through so much in her life already.

There is no self-pity no narcissistic bragging - instead cool sensible analysis and a gripping narrative- with a bracing dark humour which is refreshing and will definitely appeal to people this side of the ‘pond’ (UK).
If you want a memoir of a figure skating champion this is for you. (Been a fan of the sport for many years)
If you are fascinated by elite sports people this is for you
If you are interested in human beings this is for you too
Oh and I love the fact that Gracie Gold reads this to us.
Highly highly recommended

Raw honest authentic intelligent

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