Foreword written by Brian “Head” Welch, cofounder of the Grammy Award-winning band Korn and New York Times best-selling author of Save Me From Myself. “Heroic Disgrace is truly a remarkable story about one man’s fight to find authentic freedom. I am extremely confident this book will change many lives.”

I was raised as a hero and groomed to be a worshiper. But a lot went wrong along the way. A debilitating mental disorder is a caustic pill for an arrogant man to swallow...the all-American 1980s and 1990s I lived through greatly influenced my early understanding and practice of heroism and worship. Sadly, by the mid-2000s, an undiagnosed mental disability began torturing my mind. Unbalance shattered me to the point that I could not be either the hero or the worshiper I had once believed I was supposed to be. My mind and my heart were broken. I was living in disgrace. Eventually, my determination to regain my health helped me begin to untangle on what I grew up understanding about heroes and worshipers. Ultimately, Jesus showed me - a professional church music leader of 20+ years - how to begin to pursue him and reflect him as a habit, to become a heroic worshiper. Out of my mental chaos and fear, the great hero, Jesus Christ, led me to order and hope.

Today, I know for certain, because Jesus lives in me, I can "be heroic as he is heroic". I'm amazed. The process of understanding heroic worship has been a lifetime in the making. The results will be eternal.