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Him: She showed up in my dark world and pulled me into her light. Then she ran away. For six long years, she kept herself hidden from me. She is my wife. My siren. My everlasting obsession. Did she really think I would just let her go? Nyet. She belongs to me, and now that I have found her, I will make her pay for destroying me. 

Her: He's the domineering monster I had to escape. The only place he and I work right is in bed. And now that he's found me, he's determined to take every scrap of dignity I have left. So why can't I stop wanting him? Needing him? Aching for him? He's my husband. My keeper. My Russian beast. And I don't have a chance in the world of getting out of our twisted relationship with my heart intact. 

Find out what happens in this extremely intense, standalone erotic romance from Theodora Taylor's wildly popular 50 Loving States series. But reader be warned, this is only for those who like their Russian alphas beyond rough and psycho sexy.

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  • MsGonzo
  • 31-05-18

A fave story read + my audible crush = Heaven!

This story is one of my fave Theodora Taylor books and I’ve fallen in love with Clementine Dove as a narrator - her voice is wonderfully diverse and she brings these stories to life with her voices, accents and inflection, etc. so I was thrilled to see one of my faves being read by my new voice crush lol This story requires an open mind because it is definitely not the typical love story and it involves messed up behavior, serious baggage on both sides and terrible communication. And I think that’s why I like it so much. Because love btwn two people like Bair and Thel can be very messy and complicated (and lots of folks never find a healthy way to relationship). So I appreciate TT giving us a story about characters with issues that got in the way the first time and almost derailed their second chance. The journey is an enjoyable ride if you’re willing to embrace that love that is messy and unhealthy can still be love and can find its way to a healthy place.

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  • KGLP host/producer & traveling therapist.
  • 05-06-18

Brillant INCLUSIVE bwwm story series

BRAVO BRAVO.. This steamy, slightly kinky bwwm story is a wonderful addition to Theodora Taylor collection. If you want something that keeps you on the edge of your seat..BUY this story!!!!!! It has slight hints of 50 shades of gray in some sex scenes but there is so much heart in the writing with dealing with mental illness, cancer, abandonment & racism in other countries etc, etc... BRAVO BRAVO... Excellent inclusive writing. Anglo, asian, black , gay straight & autistic were all mentioned.. Ideas for future storylines keep reader/listener excited. Even a mention of paranormal shifter story in a video game.. Thumbs way up.. !! Now to perhaps throw in a love match for a middle age female lead.. Perhaps for the crazy/nurse mom.. Middle age black females deserve adventures & love also.. hint hint..

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  • susan b
  • 09-06-18

Very interesting and couldn't put it down

I was unsure of this book, because I wasn't sure I was in a head space for something that was sure to be dark. But I was so caught up in it that I literally could not put it down. And unfortunately I started this book in the evening. So needless to say I did not sleep. Ms. Dove did an outstanding performance on this audiobook with all the different characters. It had all of what you might expect from just the title alone. Angst, steamy hot sex scenes. It very hard to describe all this book contained. But I promise you, don't pass on this audiobook. It is the whole spectrum of feelings.

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  • Kindle Customer
  • 08-06-18

Ok

I really liked this book and would recommend this book. I wish this author didn't use God's name in vain. I would have given it 5 stars if not for that. You don't have to use " GD " to have a great book. I really liked this narrator she is awesome. I wanted this book on audible from the first day I read the first couple of pages on my Kindle. I also wrote in the view that it should be on audible and read by Ms. Dove. Theodora is on of my favorite authors. The couple had a toxic love with making her have sex in front of others to having darkness within that they had to deal with. I like hearing about the other couples from the other 50 loving states books. I can't wait till all your books are on audible and read by Ms. Dove.

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  • Princess K
  • 29-05-18

The end made it worth it.

Wanted to love it, but barely liked it.. at first! To clarify, I've read baby daddy and Russian Billionaire and loved them both- like LOVED from the beginning. But this book was all over the place for me and did not flow well at first. Also, my beloved Alecxi from Russian Billionaire was SO terrible throughout most of this book that I actually said outloud, "Ugh! Theodora, why must you betray us like this!?" Towards the end though things were revealed and it all came together beautifully. I laughed, almost cried, got upset, clutched my invisible pearls.. all the feels with this book. So, if you can keep yourself in check long enough to get to the "aah haaa" moment, you will really like this book too. Also, as always- LOVED Clementine's narration, she is one of my FAVORITES!

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  • Divy
  • 15-08-18

phenomenal

I almost cried multiple times listening to this book.
captivating, capturing and a good listen.

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  • ariescaps
  • 14-08-18

wish they would come out sooner

I love this series, especially the billionaire series. I love the way she ties the stories together.

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  • Adorable pets
  • 08-08-18

Wonderful story

I Loved this book. I was immediately hooked from the beginning. I could not stop listening.

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  • Mimi Johnson
  • 14-07-18

This Series....

I loved this series. In usual Theodora Taylor fashion...HEA but she doesn't make the characters automatically turn into these awesome people. Her characters have real flaws and issues along with the fiction. Another good one.

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 13-07-18

My favorite so far...

Beautifully Written and Narrated. Didn't want story to end. Beast lived up to his name. Both characters perfectly imperfect.