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Beside Myself Audiobook

Beside Myself

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Publisher's Summary

Six-year-old Helen and Ellie are identical twins, but Helen is smarter, more popular, and their mother's favorite. Ellie, on the other hand, requires special instruction at school, is friendless, and is punished at every turn. Until they decide to swap places - just for fun, and just for one day - and Ellie refuses to switch back. Everything of Helen's, from her toys to her friends to her identity, now belongs to her sister.

With those around her oblivious to her plight, the girl who used to be Helen loses her sense of self and withdraws into a spiral of behavioral problems, delinquency, and mental illness. In time, she's not even sure of her memory of the switch. Twenty-five years later, she receives a call that threatens to pull her back into her sister's dangerous orbit. Will she take this chance to face her past?

©2016 Ann Morgan (P)2015 Audible, Inc.

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    Mick McGrath 01/04/2016
    Mick McGrath 01/04/2016
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    "Besides Myself by Ann Morgan"

    Very good read although you need to suspend disbelief sometimes, but not enough to spoil what is nonetheless an engrossing narrative.

    4 of 4 people found this review helpful
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    Amazon Customer UK 21/01/2016
    Amazon Customer UK 21/01/2016 Member Since 2015
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    "Brilliant"

    Brilliant audio book. The narration was excellent. The story hooked me from the start and it was a well written and insightful description of mental health difficulties. Am sad I've finished this one.

    19 of 23 people found this review helpful
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    Rachel Colchester, United Kingdom 03/05/2016
    Rachel Colchester, United Kingdom 03/05/2016 Member Since 2014
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    "Not for me"
    If this book wasn’t for you, who do you think might enjoy it more?

    I'm obviously not in tune with the rest of the Audible Community who rave about this book, so I don't really know who to suggest might enjoy this book more than I.


    What could Ann Morgan have done to make this a more enjoyable book for you?

    The book rambled on and on with little direction. The whole premise was unbelievable and felt contrived for dramatic effect.


    Would you listen to another book narrated by Lisa Coleman?

    Lisa Coleman did the best she could with the material provided


    What reaction did this book spark in you? Anger, sadness, disappointment?

    Total disappointment.


    Any additional comments?

    Any book that uses the phrase "bored of" is a non-starter for me

    10 of 12 people found this review helpful
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    Kathryn de Ferrer UK 24/01/2016
    Kathryn de Ferrer UK 24/01/2016 Member Since 2014
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    "Extraordinary insight to a fractured mind"
    Would you recommend this audiobook to a friend? If so, why?

    I can scarcely believe this is a debut novel, such is the deftness of the writing. The characters are well drawn and as we are sucked into the damaged minds of the twins I really felt as though I understood what it might be like to suffer the highs and lows of a bi-polar disorder. This is not a psychological thriller in the 'whodunnit' sense, but a psychological drama which captures the reader from the outset and delivers them somewhat exhausted out the other end. I can not recommend this book highly enough.


    Who was your favorite character and why?

    Smudge - from the incipient signs of the illness which was to later grip and dictate her life, the reader (listener) was able to understood her reactions and motivations. Extraordinary.


    What about Lisa Coleman’s performance did you like?

    Beautiful narration with total understanding for the characters and the content.


    17 of 21 people found this review helpful
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    sophie 29/04/2016
    sophie 29/04/2016
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    "One of the best I have listened to"

    This book is intriguing, strange and interesting.

    The characters are well written and you really care about the central protagonist.

    Narration is also top notch.
    I am sad to have finished this as I felt like I had gone on a journey with the main character and also because this is the author's debut novel so there is nothing else available to fill the void.

    6 of 7 people found this review helpful
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    Elise 21/01/2016
    Elise 21/01/2016 Member Since 2013
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    "Emotional rollercoaster"

    A must listen! I devoured this audiobook in two sittings, great story with fitting narration.

    16 of 20 people found this review helpful
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    Anonymous 24/01/2017
    24/01/2017 Member Since 2016
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    "depressing and not surprising"

    I cannot put a finger on what exactly was wrong about this book. I didn't feel like the main character has been written in depth. I couldn't relate to it and I got lost in who is who there. Rhe story didn't stick. There was a rather predictable ending and I found this title a bit boring. sorry, not my cup of tea.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
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    jv 19/11/2016
    jv 19/11/2016 Member Since 2014
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    "A break from the norm"

    Gosh!!! I hadn't anticipated such a story. Harrowing at times, funny occasionally but mainly quite shocking. A couple of times it dragged but the rest was addictive. Very well narrated and this story will get under your skin. A gem of originality. A great insight into a different life.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
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    B. Longsden Wolverhampton, UK 31/07/2016
    B. Longsden Wolverhampton, UK 31/07/2016 Member Since 2016
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    "Mmm left me thinking"

    Really made me question nurture v nature and how our lives span out in front of us.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
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    Anonymous 28/04/2016
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    "Beside myself"

    Brilliant story,I enjoyed how each chapter told the story of the main character in different ages,lovely descriptive of the art within the story line,great narrator.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
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  • Deborah
    Troy, Michigan
    04/05/16
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    "A brilliantly written but painful story."

    This story is hard for me to rate. On the one hand, I LOVED the author's brilliant writing and psychological insight. On the other hand, it was a painful listen. For 12+ hours, I listened to the main character endure one psychological blow after another. I almost gave up on this one, because my empathy for the character made it a torturous listen! If I were rating the writing, I'd give it 5 stars for sure. In the end, I deducted one star because...frankly...I'm relieved to be finished with this one!

    88 of 91 people found this review helpful
  • 6catz
    01/04/16
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    "Excellent and unusual story of twins"
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    This book takes an in-depth look at twins in an identity crisis. I've known identical twins who swapped places to take exams in high school because each was better at one subject or other, but never considered what would happen if one refused to switch back. This is quite a gripping story, and avoids the twin cliches present in other suspense stories I've read. A true psychological thriller, full of madness and sadness and love.

    44 of 47 people found this review helpful
  • joan
    01/03/16
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    "Dark story"

    This is a sad story and pretty dark and upsetting at times, but is well written and worth a listen, but only if ur not easily upset.

    55 of 59 people found this review helpful
  • kimbacaffeinate
    Midwest
    13/04/16
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    "a creepy, twisted psychological thriller"
    Any additional comments?

    I chose to listen to Beside Myself and loved the narrator Lisa Coleman. She did a fantastic job with character voices and it was not an easy task. I was able to identify who was speaking from young Ellie (Helen) to adult Ellie (Helen) and the many different personalities. She even captured Ellie and Helen’s cruel mother in all her venomous glory.

    I will warn you, none of the characters are likeable or even reliable. Ellie and Helen have an awful mother and I had evil thoughts about her. Morgan puts forth a scenario that is freaking scary and shares the consequences. The stories told through Ellie’s perspective who is the “real Helen.” Morgan uses “you” rather than “I” when Ellie (Helen) relays the story and I found it clever. Her childhood is dark, and there are quite a few triggers for those who are sensitive. View Spoiler » She grows up in the shadow of Helen the “real Ellie” and is cast into the role of underachiever, troublemaker and second best. It is all rather unnerving. Of course, the louder she protests the more she looks and acts like the real Ellie.

    As adult Ellie, (the real Helen) refers to herself in third person as Smudge and is quite delusional. She is estranged from her family and refuses any contact with her sister. When her sister falls into a coma, things come to a head. She discovers her sister was on her way to see her when the accident occurred. Forced back into their circle she wonders if she may finally be able to prove who she really is. Things get complicated and twisted as truths are revealed. It was quite crazy and I found myself completely wrapped up in the unraveling of it.

    Beside Myself touched on psychological disorder, dysfunctional family, the effects of trauma and more. While I found the story to be compelling there were occasions when I rolled my eyes at this collection of family members and the situations the author placed them in. Not everything that happened seemed plausible or perhaps too much happened. Either way I enjoyed listening.

    41 of 45 people found this review helpful
  • JK907
    Seattle, WA
    19/05/16
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    "not a thriller or suspense"

    no twists or turns, just a story about a troubled twin and her family. A little hard to follow at first, a little confusing. I would categorize this as a dark drama. Interesting story but not what I thought and I'm rather confused about all the other reviews.

    16 of 17 people found this review helpful
  • M. Ryder
    17/07/16
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    "Expected More"

    Really enjoyed the narration, but seriously thought the story would go someplace interesting, with a big twist at the end, though this never happened. Instead, the story just seemed to wrap up on a rather predictable note. Will probably return it, and use my credit on a much better book.

    17 of 19 people found this review helpful
  • slp 4 me
    Cleveland, Ohio
    07/02/16
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    "Ingeniously woven story!"

    This is one of those stories that you don't want to stop listening to. Filled with short comings and flaws, the characters are very human. Everyone has a relative who is like Helen and Ellie's mother. I also feel that the description of mental illness was amazing. Good listen!

    33 of 38 people found this review helpful
  • Marisa
    Weirton, WV United States
    07/02/16
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    "Wow"

    I rate books but I don't often comment. I just can't move on to the next book until I state how perfect this book is. I work with traumatized children and this book rings true in so many ways. Amazing.

    45 of 53 people found this review helpful
  • Jacque
    Lander, WY, United States
    03/02/16
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    "Inside Bi-Polar"

    I chose Beside Myself in spite of what I thought was a schmaltzy title, because of my interest in twin-ship. I was surprised to we swept up in an engrossing story, played out on the roller coaster ride of bi-polar disorder. This is not a mystery novel with a twist. It is the heartbreaking portrayal of a woman's struggle to live with mental illness.

    49 of 58 people found this review helpful
  • milton
    morrow, GA, United States
    12/04/16
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    "Hard to follow"
    Would you recommend this book to a friend? Why or why not?

    The story line was difficult to follow and I found myself going back to find out what I missed, that's when I did not fall asleep


    If you’ve listened to books by Ann Morgan before, how does this one compare?

    First time with this author.


    7 of 9 people found this review helpful

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