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But I Love Him: A True Story of Love, Pain and Domestic Violence
- Narrated by: Brenda G Brown
- Length: 4 hrs and 11 mins
- Categories: Relationships, Parenting & Personal Development, Parenting & Families
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Summary
As her weak and battered body lay paralyzed on the mattress in her master bedroom, Michelle's boyfriend’s blood dripped from the lacerations on his hands onto her bruised and mangled face. Using what little energy she had left, she broke free from his grasp and fell to her knees, begging God to forgive Paul for what he was doing and to make him stop. Paul simply laughed and replied, “God isn’t going to help you now.” In that instant, Michelle saw her life flash before her eyes and wondered how she got there…again. But I Love Him is a painful yet inspirational true story of a strong, independent woman caught in the horrifying cycle of domestic violence and how she got out.
In this audiobook, Michelle shares the details of her struggle with genuine honesty, taking the listener on a twisted journey of love, pain, and unyielding brutality that eventually leads…to peace. Mixing statistics, research, and resource with her own account, she shows just how far someone in her situation can sink, why it happens, and how they can always pick themselves back up. Those who hear Michelle's story will walk away with a newfound understanding about the horrors of domestic violence, how to escape and how to build a new, healthier life.
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- Kindle Customer
- 04-09-19
very good
excellent very good good read from start to finish have sent to daughter to read to thanks
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- Amanda Red
- 09-12-20
Wow!
Domestic violence is no joke, this book had me on my toes and I was so intrigued on Michelles journey