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I Forgot to Die Audiobook

I Forgot to Die

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Publisher's Summary

Khalil Rafati went to Los Angeles in the 1990s and had it all. He was working with Hollywood movie stars and legendary rock musicians, but it wasn't long before he found his way into the dark underbelly of the City of Angels.

When he hit rock bottom - addicted to heroin and cocaine, overtaken by paranoia and psychosis, written off by his friends and family - he grabbed a shovel and kept digging. At 33, Khalil was 109 pounds, a convicted felon, high school dropout, and homeless junkie living on the infamous Skid Row in downtown L.A.

So how does someone with nothing, who feels like they deserve nothing, and who just wants to end it all turn their life around?

I Forgot to Die is an incredible true story of pain, suffering, addiction, and redemption - and how one man ultimately conquered his demons and wrote himself a new life story.

©2015 Khalil Rafati (P)2017 Tantor

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  • Mike
    07/06/17
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    humility the key, never-ending battle. loved it."

    What a rare human.. hope he continues too grow and give Him full credit

    3 of 3 people found this review helpful
  • Amazon Customer
    06/06/17
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    "What a story!!!"

    I have read many addiction memoirs & this is by far the most intriguing, exciting, & helpful books I have ever read. I absolutely loved this story & believe many other people will to! I will most definitely be suggesting this to my friends and family. Truly AMAZING.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
  • Vikki WillisAmazon Customer
    chelsea, AL, United States
    04/06/17
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    "Fantastic"

    Im a nurse and see addiction daily. Im also a believer in God and the straight n narrow!!!! Wonderful wonderful book.

    2 of 2 people found this review helpful
  • Tyler Wagner
    26/06/17
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    "Gangster"

    Best book I've ever listened to. Crazy story that everyone should hear. Rags to riches

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
  • Nick
    02/06/17
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    "Decent book."

    While I respect Kahlil for finally getting clean, I think most people wouldn't have the same luxuries or resources he did to assist him in doing so. Most people don't have a Malibu nearby, loaded with rich people. Put Kahlil in South Philadelphia and I imagine his recovery story is a little different.

    Oh, and that crap Robbie was spitting out near the end of the book is complete textbook BS. THAT was his sponsor?!?

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
  • Joseph
    01/06/17
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    "Amazing book"

    I love this book what a amazing man .. he is so inspiring .. some of stories made me cringe because I to see people throw there life away .. but I'm so glad that he got it together and the tools he used to get there .. i never did hard drugs or anything like that I would recommend this book to anyone suffering from depression and abandonment.. this book changed the way I think moving forward .. you just gotta learn to drop your story( all the bad stuff that happened to you ).

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
  • Courtney
    Falls church, VA, United States
    25/05/17
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    "Jails, Institutions & (almost) Death"

    Jails, Institutions and Death is a term oft recited by members of Narcotics Anonymous when describing the inevitable destination of a person in active addiction. I hungrily consume addiction memoirs in that way that people feel compelled to slow down and peer at a horrible accident. Some might think this is a character flaw, but I think of it more as a gratitude check--"There, but for the grace of God, go I".
    "I Forgot to Die" doesn't disappoint. It is the story of a man who should be dead. It is the story of a man who wanted to die and tried to kill himself on the time payment plan of addiction.
    Khalil Rafati tells a story that is sad, but not that unusual. His father was verbally and emotionally abusive, his mother was devoid of a spine and unable to defend him. His childhood home was a cold, unfriendly, unsafe place--the kind that often breeds psychopaths. Khalil was not a psychopath, in fact, he more resembles an empath in his account.
    In his addiction, which was severe and life-threatening, he was abusive to the people closest to him, but that is true for most addicts. At other times, he expressed love and gratitude for the people in his life who reached out to help him. Some were enablers who only prolonged his nightmare, but others were angels of mercy.
    All recovering addicts are miracles, but Khalil's story stands out. He was a boy, then a man who invested all of his energy in trying to be comfortable in his own skin. He distracted himself with drugs, women and money until there was nothing left but himself-barely alive and there he received the gift of despair and began the climb out of the grave he had dug for himself.
    Ultimately, this is a story of pain, degradation and redemption. I would recommend it to anyone, but I think that addicts and their loved ones who read this book may gain insight, sympathy and most importantly, hope.

    1 of 1 people found this review helpful
  • Angie
    South Jordan, UT, United States
    16/06/17
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    "Addictive Read (pun intended)"

    This book was fascinating, shocking and terrifying. The brutal ugliness and honesty of Khalil's journey kept me listening and rooting for him to get it right. An inspiration to never give up. I would recommend this book. I am pleased Khalil narrated his book and his narration added to its authenticity.

    2 of 3 people found this review helpful
  • Clive R. Dakin
    Bermuda
    08/08/17
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    "HONEST and INSPIRING!"
    Would you listen to I Forgot to Die again? Why?

    Yes! I love a good redemption story and I appreciate it when a person is raw and honest about their trials in life, their screw-ups, their deathly choices and then tell the world what they had to do to find their way back to a good life with humility and grace.


    What did you like best about this story?

    I liked that the author spared us nothing. Completely honest about things you'd never want another to know. He displays his worst moments but you still pull for him and want him to survive. He also gives credit to people who helped him and then pays it forward big time!


    Which character – as performed by Khalil Rafati – was your favorite?

    Khalil of course!


    Was there a moment in the book that particularly moved you?

    Yes. When he talks about the opening of a business, feeds a group of kids free of charge who happen to be a choir and the kids thank him by singing a song acapella for him.


    Any additional comments?

    I think books like this one should be read by diverse groups of people - students and young adults as a cautionary, true as it gets tale of what NOT to do and by people who have a problem and want to know there is HOPE.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful
  • Jeeku
    03/08/17
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    "One of the best memoirs ever"

    So raw, humble, real and unfiltered. A graphic but necessary uplifting story for anyone who ever questioned his or her ability to turn things around. Highly recommend.

    0 of 0 people found this review helpful

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