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Against My Will
- Groomed, trapped and abused. This is my true story of survival.
- Narrated by: Janine Cooper Marshall
- Length: 7 hrs and 54 mins
- Unabridged Audiobook
- Categories: Biographies & Memoirs, True Crime
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- Melanie
- 05-04-21
the animal abuse made me stop.wanting to listen.
if you love dogs this is too upsetting. I have aspergers and have been in a violent terrible relationship where I was locked up and beaten, but I wouldn't have allowed a dog to be beat so much . its a shame as I liked the book at the start, sorry but I cant listen to it anymore!
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- sarah
- 25-09-20
Sad and Heartbreaking. but worth the listen.
narrator was amazing.
story very sad sometimes hard to listen.
The world needs to be aware of what is happening behind closed doors.
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- karen
- 15-01-21
sad story with a happy ending
such a sad story but an amazing ending i wish i could of spoke out like you did even now i find it really hard to talk about things thank you for sharing your story
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- QueenMama32
- 22-08-20
Hard to hear!!
Well written and very well read. The things that happened to this woman are horrendous and hard to hear at some points. a story of a true survivor. i will Sophie all the luck and Love In the world xx
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- Amazon Customer
- 19-04-20
Excellent
It was very hard to listen to at times But I listen to the whole thing in two days I couldn’t stop. What a very brave young girl I wish you all the best Sophie.
It gave me an insight as to why women stay with these men.
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- KC
- 21-08-21
Acutely distressing & hard to listen to at points.
Acutely distressing & hard to listen to at points but not because the audio book isnt good or that it is poorly written more because its hard to comprehend someone living through that level of abuse! This book is a heartbreaking story of manipulation. ST is the epitome of evil. Sophie you are a brave woman, and it's so satisfying to see that you finally stand up to him and finds your voice in the end.
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- Denise green
- 10-03-21
emotional
really enjoyed your courage
losing star broke my heart , so glad I chose this book
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- L fry
- 23-06-20
Against my will
I absolutely admire Sophie Crockett for writing this book. The strength she found to tell her story will hopefully help her carry on with her life and be happy.
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- Sophie C
- 17-04-20
any word with a S in it hurt my ears.
Bad narration as usual. had to turn down the volume. I'm hoping it's just my speaker or headphones, and not the actual recordings.
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- Tracy Davies
- 20-05-22
very good book bit hard to listen to in places
very good book this story writer went into great detail to explain what happened to her. it's quite Hard to listen too but it's good to know how well she is now
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- Nancy Wigington
- 15-07-20
Ugh
Redundant. So boring and never got any better. I kept listening thinking it HAD to get better. But no. Don’t waste a credit.
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- Paxan
- 15-06-20
Told from the wrong point of view
This book should not have been written in the first person. The protagonist has way too much insight into the psychological understanding of her own mental illness and infantily explains every step of the thought process behind why she made decisions. This generally is not something that is understood by the person with the mental illness. The narrator also uses a tempo one would use to explain to a five year old how to tie a shoe. I couldn't make it past the first few chapters because the story telling was just too unbelievable and distracting.
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- Amberrjoy
- 07-04-20
I cant even finish
I dont want to yell or scream or whatever, I only got to chapter 8 and im sorry but every single person you came into contact with from your parents to the rental guy tried to help you, there are so many kids out there that get no help but everyone tried to help you, and you couldn't let anyone help I cant even whatever this book just made me angry!!!!
and him well he should just be shot in the head!!! he's worthless, but you , well you are an adult and you need to act like one you need to be a big enough person that if you need help ASK FOR HELP!!!!
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- Kindle Customer
- 30-01-20
Terrible
I was not at all impressed by this book. I couldn’t believe this child got into this relationship with being as smart as she was. It just kept saying is this how it’s supposed to be, when in fact it wasn’t. I couldn’t even finish this book.
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- Ohio Buyer
- 24-01-20
Garbage
I was very interested in learning more about this young person and their struggles and how they overcame them. However, I felt that this was misrepresented. It's not just a story about a child that overcame terrible trauma but it is a a book about an indigo child with a keen sense of entitlement. Obnoxious. Absolutely terrible. I couldn't finish it. Maybe it gets better but I had to stop. to add on top of that the narration is very whiny and the inflection is repetitive. not good.
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- Tabatha P.
- 22-01-21
read well
Great Story of survival. Well read, kept me interested. Loved her letter to ST at the end.